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I have realized that I am at a very selfish stage of my life. As independent as I have been, it has evolved to self-centeredness. Rather, self concern. I am worried solely about myself, where my life is going, how I feel, who I'm with. It's resulted in me-me-me 24/7, and I haven't been as concious of it as I should be. But that just proves to me how young and inexperienced I am. I am not ready for a relationship. And look where I am! Look what I'm doing! I'm ruining the next year of my life. I cannot devote myself to another person, I am too into finding myself and establishing my life. I am unstable. I need to be single so I can figure out what I want and experience different things. I SHOULD NOT BE IN A RELATIONSHIP. How the hell am I supposed to tell her that?