remember--theyre just words.

[callmebias]

im breathing in the water again
choking in the undertow.
suffocating in emotions that i never
wanted to inhale.
im the blood bait for the ocean
to chew up and spit out.
a pretty little morsel
rapped in hooks and barbed nets.
theres no way in hell that i'll admit
im helpless,
but im screaming at the bottom of the sea bed
like a muted idiot.
i need you to pull me out.
i need you to care.
or maybe i need to drown in this
just a little longer

now on the street
walking with society
living in sobriety.
conscious in my unconscious
acts.
feeding on the knowledge
that is smeared in my face.
thinking about tasks;
my *to-do list*
that still drowns in the water
which i left behind.
your face and voice
resurrects these feelings
but i wanted them dead.