complicated
why is it that i alway get into the weirdest, most complicated relationships? first there was trevor. i started going out with him in seventh grade. i had known him sine thrid grade and we had always been friends. anyways things got confusing and i knew too much about him. i knew he was cheating and i didnt want to get hurt so we broke up and decided that we should just be friends. ok. that didnt last long and we are still a bit more than friends. hes like my safe guy. whenever im hurt or sad, and just out of a relationship i go to him. and he does the same.
then after trevor was tony. tony was a stoned asshole. casey introdused us at a ohs football game and we decided to meet at the mall the next friday. i rember thinking WOW. the man looked like Brad Pit, seriously hot. anyways we started going out. every friday we would meet at the mall. i would watch him and his friends get high, and we started this fight club. which i thought was very funny because of the brad pit look alike thing. we had so much fun, mabbly a little too much... we got the cops called on us a lot, and there was a lot of running from the cops, and sometimes he would fight with the cops, it was not good. anyways he was not a good infulence. i started to drink a lot and i realy didnt care. stuff was going on at home and i was realy depressed. then we got into this fight, i was yelling at him about drugs because his dealer was coming by and we had already goten in trouble for something(i dont remeber what) with the rentacops and i didnt want to start shit. he got mad at me and said he didnt want to see me anymore. after a month he called me and said that he was sorry, and that i was right, he had to get clean. we started going out again. then one night casey called me and told me that he had been high and drunk and had tried to stop a car from rolling out of his sub-division. long story short he got run over by anther car and broke 2 legs, a rib and sprained his wrist. i started laughing and couldnto stop. at the time i was with kris, kat, and elyse's youth group. one girl asked me what i was laughing about and when i told her that my boyfriend had goten run over she was like" oh my god , he could have died, arnt you upset?". kris and kat explained that only tony could have done something that stupid. eventually i broke up with him. then we got back together, then i broke up with him.
so you probly want to know why im going on like this, and i realy dont know except matt is driving me crazy. he is so serious. he has been closing me out for a week now so i went to go talk to him durring lunch today. he said that shit is going on and that hes sorry that hes kind of taking it out on me and he dosnt want to talk about it yet. well fuck i have shit going on too but he dosnt seem to care, but then again i wouldnt want to talk about whats going on with me. oh well, i gues i just had to organise some of my thoughts. and this is not helping . ill post later
then after trevor was tony. tony was a stoned asshole. casey introdused us at a ohs football game and we decided to meet at the mall the next friday. i rember thinking WOW. the man looked like Brad Pit, seriously hot. anyways we started going out. every friday we would meet at the mall. i would watch him and his friends get high, and we started this fight club. which i thought was very funny because of the brad pit look alike thing. we had so much fun, mabbly a little too much... we got the cops called on us a lot, and there was a lot of running from the cops, and sometimes he would fight with the cops, it was not good. anyways he was not a good infulence. i started to drink a lot and i realy didnt care. stuff was going on at home and i was realy depressed. then we got into this fight, i was yelling at him about drugs because his dealer was coming by and we had already goten in trouble for something(i dont remeber what) with the rentacops and i didnt want to start shit. he got mad at me and said he didnt want to see me anymore. after a month he called me and said that he was sorry, and that i was right, he had to get clean. we started going out again. then one night casey called me and told me that he had been high and drunk and had tried to stop a car from rolling out of his sub-division. long story short he got run over by anther car and broke 2 legs, a rib and sprained his wrist. i started laughing and couldnto stop. at the time i was with kris, kat, and elyse's youth group. one girl asked me what i was laughing about and when i told her that my boyfriend had goten run over she was like" oh my god , he could have died, arnt you upset?". kris and kat explained that only tony could have done something that stupid. eventually i broke up with him. then we got back together, then i broke up with him.
so you probly want to know why im going on like this, and i realy dont know except matt is driving me crazy. he is so serious. he has been closing me out for a week now so i went to go talk to him durring lunch today. he said that shit is going on and that hes sorry that hes kind of taking it out on me and he dosnt want to talk about it yet. well fuck i have shit going on too but he dosnt seem to care, but then again i wouldnt want to talk about whats going on with me. oh well, i gues i just had to organise some of my thoughts. and this is not helping . ill post later