rambling on once more
I'm still here, I know I announcd my presence last time then disappeared again thanks to work and other stuff.
I work now as a medical transcriptionist, someone who listens and takes down doctors' ramblings. I find it fascinating listening to these doctors especially if it's a psychiatric evaluation. Sure I end up falling asleep while typing (hahaha), but it's enjoyable.
I had undergone training for this kind of work and thanks to my typing skills and previous work experience I was the first to be recommended to start working. I ended up alone and isolated but still thankful. this is the only company I worked for who suggested that I should be on a permanent morning shift after I told them about my hospitalization last January.
Plus, my breaks are flexible.
Home life is a bit...fractured. It makes me think if two people who had been married for so long would end up being resentful of each other or when being elderly can have you lose your mind. My parents' behavior had me baffled and shocked because my mom's memory is slipping and my dad is on his to become a world class asshole and being a control freak.
I can move out but I got 4 cats and the house I am in is mine legally. I can't move out of my own house. I mean I can kick my parents out but that would be nasty and I don't intend to.
Sometimes I wonder if having them dead would be much better for me. Maybe, maybe not.
How do I cope? By being semi-apathetic. My parents' fights are not my fault, let them duke it out. I just stopped caring to a certain degree.
As for online dating, I went back but with a mentality that unless the guy decides to visit me in my country, there is no such thing as online relationships and I am going to keep my options open.
Somehow I will be fine.