Visit #2: Soylent Green is Peeeeepppllle
Note: It's been 2 1/2 weeks since I stopped taking antidepressants. I thought I was doing well, but I am feeling the withdrawals today. I liken it to shivering on the inside. It's a very strange feeling. Weird balance and perception issues - such as I turn my head but it seems like it takes a few seconds for the rest of me to catch up. Kinda like slow motion.
I went back to Dr Janet today. I sent her an update and my food diary on Saturday evening so she could read it in horror without me watching. I'll be the first to say that my diet is horrible. Most of my eating is done between 11 am - 5 pm, and what food is eaten is less than nutritious.
For example:
Tuesday, April 29
7-8 am 16 oz (approx) iced tea w/ 4 tblsp sugar
9 am Newquik chocomilk to take pills (16 fl oz between 9 - 10:30 am)
1 Yoplait Plus
11 - 2:30 p 3 scrambled eggs
bacon (5 - 6 pieces)
cup of mixed fruit - cantaloupe, watermelon, honeydew, pineapple
11:15 a - 5p Sobe cranberry grapefruit 20 fl oz
(got home at 6 pm and went to bed)
10:30 - 12:30 p iced tea (x2) with 4 tblsp sugar each
Seriously. I know how bad that is.
So this visit we spoke about eating. Problem is - I'm the pickiest of picky eaters.
Fish? No. I basically told her anything living in the ocean is out.
Field greens? Taste like twigs and leaves.
Spinach? Uh uh.
But I agreed to try. So she wrote out a list of food items to get (mostly organic) from Whole Foods, Trader Joes and this other granola-y place. No more sugar. No more dairy.
This will be hard, and there's no way I can just change my diet overnight. But I will make a real effort.
But then, horror upon horrors, she has taken away the news from me. For three days, I cannot watch the news or check out news websites. THAT will be difficult for me. What is something major happens??
I must go breathe now.