fic: go ahead and smile, cesc/joaquin

[callings]

This is a short little piece, not to be taken too seriously. I scribbled it out this afternoon, mostly because I'm COMPLETELY STALLED on the few other fics I'm working on and just felt like writing something, anything. The idea is shamelessly stolen from Lily Allen's video for "Smile," I can admit it.

go ahead and smilefootie fic, cesc/joaquin. pg

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[callings]

First of all, hi! I miss you. :(

I'm pretty sure there's pain in everything I write. I was looking over all of my fic the other night and pondering my mental health as I did so, since every single thing is depressing in its own way. But no, it's not bad that you didn't understand at first! I was actually extremely vague about the fact that Cesc paid people money to beat up Joaquin. Probably because if I described it too much, I'd have to go in deeper and answer some of the questions that you're asking, and I might've ended up writing a lot. Which I was really, really trying to avoid.

Yes, they are fucked up. You realize I'm completely incapable of writing a normal, fully-functioning relationship, right? I mean, have I ever written fluff? Not that I recall. Even my sappier pieces are kind of bittersweet. Anyway, as I was writing it, I was thinking that Cesc's original intention was just to hurt Joaquin, nothing more. I very vaguely mentioned Joaquin stepping outside of the relationship, and to Cesc, having someone physically hurt Joaquin was his way of getting back. Then as I continued to write, and Cesc took Joaquin in, it was like Cesc realized that even though Joaquin had done something so horrible to him, he still wanted him anyway. Originally, he probably was just going to laugh at Joaquin and then never speak to him again, but he was surprised by his own emotions like us humans so frequently are.

And see, this is why I was pretty vague. Because there was enormous potential for me to just write and write and write.

Oh, I will! If your sister does get engaged, you'll have to let me know if she starts to go crazy like mine is. Do all women turn into bridezillas? Seriously? ;)

[endergonic]

miss you too. :( we should find some time to do something. maybe during my spring break which is coming up soon. march 10-18. i'm already planning on asking time off of work. my mom's friend has a beach house on the bolivar peninsula that i was thinking about maybe going to (with permission). or driving up to austin for a day or something.

normal relationships are so boring, though. to read anyway. you've written me semi-fluff, i do remember that. that's interesting and i can't believe i didn't think about that. this is the problem with me. i never get things the first time through.

bridezillas. that's too hilarious. (and hopefully, i'll never have to deal with it. although my sister does live far away from me. the one in ohio currently.) the funny thing is i never really thought of my sister as the one to really think about marriage. she's always been the career driven feminist of the family. i used to always think about getting married and now i don't know. :P

(ps. any chance you can give me a prompt because i'm dying of lack of writing. stevie/xabi, carra/mikey, sheva/kaka. i'm about willing to try anything right now.)

[callings]

Well I quit my awful job and haven't found a new one yet, so I should definitely have some free time. Just let me know what your plans are and I'm sure we can figure out a time and something to do. :)

I'll think up some prompts for you, of course. You know, I always thought we should co-write something together. I don't know what, but it occured to me a long time ago that it could be fun, and I just never mentioned it. Anyway, I'll come back once I've thought up something decent to prompt you with. Feel free to give me a prompt too! I'll do a footie pairing, or Supernatural, or heck, The Black Donnellys. Or I'll even try Heroes fic! Ha.

[endergonic]

i want to quit my job but i need money. (and yeah, i'm too afraid to face my managers. i think i'll need to call in tomorrow but i'm nervous considering the fact that i had to last week as well.) i can totally understand having a crap job. i'll let you know. :) hopefully i won't be sick though.

i've always wanted to cowrite something with you as well. although, i must admit to not knowing what on earth to do since i've never done it before. just bounce ideas off me. i'm amenable to a lot.

BLACK DONNELLYS! that's such a brilliant show. we could cowrite a BLACK DONNELLYS fic. or footie, i don't really mind. i've started a SUPERNATURAL au rps fic but it's stuck in a rut and i don't think it's ever going to get out.

(random rant: my computer crashed and won't turn on so i've lost ALL my music (including the songs i BOUGHT from itunes). that whole think where you can authorize up to five computers to play music? it's crap. apple is probably one of the worst customer service companies i've ever tried to contact. so i don't think there will be any music links from me for awhile.)

anyway, prompts. pick whichever one you want. (i'm sorry i can't get the motif of sickness out of my mind.) and i admit to being extremely behind on SUPERNATURAL and HEROES. spn is recorded though. but HEROES is not. so prompts for me dealing with canon of those two shows - probably not the best idea.
dean/sam - sam sick with a 103 degree fever in the middle of nowhere.
tommy/kevin or tommy/sean - with the younger kidnapped while extremely sick.