Back in the saddle.
Alright. I don't even know how to start...i suppose that its a good idea to start with a disclaimer.
I am fully aware that a good portion of this entry may be seen as out of line or preachy or something...but i don't particularly care because i have opinions and i am now choosing to share them. take them as you will.
Also, on the fact that i even have opinions on any of this...I know that i don't really know any of you or have even had the chance to get to know any of you...and i know that im hardly a part of this group of people...but i have views on you guys nonetheless. And as a matter of fact...BECAUSE im not an integral part of any of this...my opinions are most likely less skewed than any of your own. SO THERE!
Ok. moving on. Im gonna try not to be too specific but it might be hard...i was contemplating just making a huge list...but that was bit over the top even for me. First...i really really don't understand how or why so many people can have views of themselves that are so fucked up in so many ways. Now I have a fucking Phd in self pity/analyzing so i know that coming from me this might be questionable but...A) Shut Up and B) Self hatred is fine...but at least pick real faults...don't pick stuff that is so obviously not true
E.G. attractiveness level. I am 110% sick of hearing all these beautiful people talking about how ugly they think they are. I just want to say "ummm shut the fuck up you're gorgeous...why don't you realize it?" but that would be kinda weir...never mind. heh. Unfortunately...i suppose the theory that it doesn't matter how other people see you, it only matters how you see yourself goes both ways...lame.
In that same vein...this is a classic..."this person hates me and treats me like shit...that must make me a terrible person." a logical course of action would be:Fuck Them. Right? Apparently not. "Regardless of the fact that this person makes me feel horrible about myself...i am going to keep them in my life and let them continue to do that because...i want to try and make them change their mind about me..or something" News flash...if someone doesnt like and haven't for a long time...they probably have a reason and there isn't much you can do to change them. You can't just sit there and let them have such a vice grip on your view of yourself and your feelings in general. Well i guess you can...but then you can't turn around and then blame them for your choice and try to make them look bad. It's more your fault than anyone else's. "If at first you don't succeed, try try again. Then quit. No use being a damn fool about it"
Most of you guys...all you ever hear is how awesome you are and how much everyone loves you...at least thats what i've gathered from what little conversation i hear and see. You dont seem to comprehend this. I dont know if you just think that people are lying and just being nice(which doesnt make any type of sense...if people didnt really think that of you...why wouldn't they just not say anything?) or if you just act like you do because you want to keep hearing it because, again, your view of yourself is based on what other people tell you about yourself.
School...most of you are seniors and have already been accepted to colleges and have some idea of what you're doing...so there is no reason to still be totally stressing out over school (was there ever?). And on top of that...you are smart people and are going to do fucking awesome at whatever it is you do no matter how much you stress about it and cry about how badly you're going to do. So just stowe that bellyachin if you would be so kind.
i guess thats about it. im betting that i just made more than a few enemies. life goes on.
I am fully aware that a good portion of this entry may be seen as out of line or preachy or something...but i don't particularly care because i have opinions and i am now choosing to share them. take them as you will.
Also, on the fact that i even have opinions on any of this...I know that i don't really know any of you or have even had the chance to get to know any of you...and i know that im hardly a part of this group of people...but i have views on you guys nonetheless. And as a matter of fact...BECAUSE im not an integral part of any of this...my opinions are most likely less skewed than any of your own. SO THERE!
Ok. moving on. Im gonna try not to be too specific but it might be hard...i was contemplating just making a huge list...but that was bit over the top even for me. First...i really really don't understand how or why so many people can have views of themselves that are so fucked up in so many ways. Now I have a fucking Phd in self pity/analyzing so i know that coming from me this might be questionable but...A) Shut Up and B) Self hatred is fine...but at least pick real faults...don't pick stuff that is so obviously not true
E.G. attractiveness level. I am 110% sick of hearing all these beautiful people talking about how ugly they think they are. I just want to say "ummm shut the fuck up you're gorgeous...why don't you realize it?" but that would be kinda weir...never mind. heh. Unfortunately...i suppose the theory that it doesn't matter how other people see you, it only matters how you see yourself goes both ways...lame.
In that same vein...this is a classic..."this person hates me and treats me like shit...that must make me a terrible person." a logical course of action would be:Fuck Them. Right? Apparently not. "Regardless of the fact that this person makes me feel horrible about myself...i am going to keep them in my life and let them continue to do that because...i want to try and make them change their mind about me..or something" News flash...if someone doesnt like and haven't for a long time...they probably have a reason and there isn't much you can do to change them. You can't just sit there and let them have such a vice grip on your view of yourself and your feelings in general. Well i guess you can...but then you can't turn around and then blame them for your choice and try to make them look bad. It's more your fault than anyone else's. "If at first you don't succeed, try try again. Then quit. No use being a damn fool about it"
Most of you guys...all you ever hear is how awesome you are and how much everyone loves you...at least thats what i've gathered from what little conversation i hear and see. You dont seem to comprehend this. I dont know if you just think that people are lying and just being nice(which doesnt make any type of sense...if people didnt really think that of you...why wouldn't they just not say anything?) or if you just act like you do because you want to keep hearing it because, again, your view of yourself is based on what other people tell you about yourself.
School...most of you are seniors and have already been accepted to colleges and have some idea of what you're doing...so there is no reason to still be totally stressing out over school (was there ever?). And on top of that...you are smart people and are going to do fucking awesome at whatever it is you do no matter how much you stress about it and cry about how badly you're going to do. So just stowe that bellyachin if you would be so kind.
i guess thats about it. im betting that i just made more than a few enemies. life goes on.