Jan 27, 2010 22:46
I need some down time.
My problem is that I never know when to stop. I always seem to be going and going. I offer support and comfort and take none for myself. I brush aside the feelings of exhaustion and loneliness.
I tend to go in these downward spirals that I cannot see but everyone around me can see perfectly. They wait for me to regain my strength and are amazed at how bright I shine since I became so dark. These emotions are so hard to live with.
The truth is that it frightens me. Sometimes I really do feel like I'm going crazy. I feel everything so intensely. Everything is just so strong, the sadness, the happiness, the joy, the sun, the stars, the darkness...oh the darkness is so thick.
Maybe I am to broken to ever be completely healed.