I've had just the worst day ever
And the worst part is it all seems so silly. Honestly, I don't know why I'm so upset about this.
Today we were learning a new piece called Calon Lan, which is Welsh, they sing it before the rugby. The welsh language is the most horrible language I have ever had the misfortune of trying to sing in (and I've sung in Maori) and I find it really, really difficult. We have to go through the words really slowly or I don't get it. Along with the difficult lyrics, the arrangement is also a pile of pants to learn and the alto part doesn't seem to fit anywhere.
So, I'm not feeling too good about myself by this point. I'm pretty good at sight reading, usually, and if Calon Lan were in any other sensible language, like english or latin or german, then we wouldn't have had half as much trouble with it. But difficult harmony + welsh = me being tired and fed up and wanting to go to bed.
But then, while we were all having a little time-out, my choirmistress asks me to get up and practise my solo for a different song (which I have been really worried about). It's on my break, so I'm really not happy with the whole thing yet and I have to perform it next week. So while everyone else is chatting amongst themselves, I have to go over it again and again, trying different phrasing blah blah, feeling shittier than ever because I can't get it right. Then I excuse myself and burst into tears in the loos, and when I come back, my choirmistress tells me we're doing the piece with my solo, so I have to sing it, all tearful and phlegmy.
Now I feel like my confidence is in the toilet and I really don't want to face my choirmistress again tomorrow, because she's an amazing singer and I really respect her opinion.
Okay, I'm gonna watch Marley and Me or something and have a good cry. Then this'll all seem really stupid in the morning.
Today we were learning a new piece called Calon Lan, which is Welsh, they sing it before the rugby. The welsh language is the most horrible language I have ever had the misfortune of trying to sing in (and I've sung in Maori) and I find it really, really difficult. We have to go through the words really slowly or I don't get it. Along with the difficult lyrics, the arrangement is also a pile of pants to learn and the alto part doesn't seem to fit anywhere.
So, I'm not feeling too good about myself by this point. I'm pretty good at sight reading, usually, and if Calon Lan were in any other sensible language, like english or latin or german, then we wouldn't have had half as much trouble with it. But difficult harmony + welsh = me being tired and fed up and wanting to go to bed.
But then, while we were all having a little time-out, my choirmistress asks me to get up and practise my solo for a different song (which I have been really worried about). It's on my break, so I'm really not happy with the whole thing yet and I have to perform it next week. So while everyone else is chatting amongst themselves, I have to go over it again and again, trying different phrasing blah blah, feeling shittier than ever because I can't get it right. Then I excuse myself and burst into tears in the loos, and when I come back, my choirmistress tells me we're doing the piece with my solo, so I have to sing it, all tearful and phlegmy.
Now I feel like my confidence is in the toilet and I really don't want to face my choirmistress again tomorrow, because she's an amazing singer and I really respect her opinion.
Okay, I'm gonna watch Marley and Me or something and have a good cry. Then this'll all seem really stupid in the morning.