The force of Destiny
Title: The force of Destiny
Author: gmi_05
Pairing: Callie/Arizona
Rating: T
Summary: Five years after the trip to Africa, the fate met to Callie and Arizona, but she is no longer the same person. Callie will try to make she fall in love of her again, but it won't be easy.
Disclaimer: All television shows, books, movies, songs, and other copyrighted material referred to in this work and the characters, events, and settings thereof are the properties of their respective owners. As this work is an interpretation of the original material and not for profit, it constitutes fair use. Reference to real persons, places, or events are made in a fictional context and are not intended to be libelous, defamatory, or in any way factual.
AN: I'm sorry for every mistake I make,English is not my first language so I would truly appreciate any constructive input that may help further my storytelling.
Beta: Kittiemitten
This life is based on decisions. We have choices, we choose, we bet. We win or lose, and we need to choose again... We can accept it or fight to change it.
Arizona was fighting. She loved Callie with her whole soul. She knew that she made a mistake and was trying to fix it.
Three months ago when she left Callie alone in the middle of the airport, she didn't know her real feelings to her. Of course they were girlfriends and she really liked her, but it was unimaginable to believe that she would feel the necessity to come back just three months after because she needed her.
In spite of the fact that Arizona was feeling useful and knew she was changing lives; her own life was empty. She was crying every night because she missed her, even after that, all those days she woke up in the morning and the cold sheets were a sign of another painful day.
So she made a decision and returned to Seattle with the hope to recover her life, to recover Callie.
"Again? Really Arizona, how many times do I need to tell you to leave me alone," Since her return a week ago, Arizona kept going to Callie´s house every day trying to talk to her, but Callie didn't want to. She was mad and upset.
The truth was, even when Callie wanted to deny it, she couldn´t help but feel happiness when she opened the door that night and saw Arizona´s face. Those curls, the deep blue eyes that she could lose herself in for hours...that seductive smile that could achieve anything. Her Arizona. The love of her life.
Nevertheless, Callie was refusing to talk to Arizona; and, every time Arizona was trying to talk to her, Callie simply closed the door or left.
"Please, Calliope, we need to talk."
"No, don't Calliope me like that." Callie said with annoyance.
"Please, Callie. I've been coming here and the hospital for seven days. Please I need to talk to you. I know you're mad, but..."
"You know...? Right" Callie snorted. "What do you know Arizona? Do you how it feels that the woman you love, and you believed that feeling was mutual, is going Africa leaving you alone in the airport? Do you know how that feels?"
"No, ok, I don't know how that feels, and I'm really sorry about that. I it regret every day, but I love you Callie. I need you."
They looked at each other for a few seconds. There was nothing but love. Arizona tried to hold Callie´s hand but she quickly moved away.
"I'm sorry for you; but, I don't have any reason to talk to you. Now please can you get out? Because, this is my apartment's door, and I need get inside." Callie said indifferently.
Arizona bit her lip and moved to one side.
"Thank you, now goodbye." Callie entered into the apartment, and was closing the door when Arizona stopped it.
"No. Not anymore. I've begged you for a week to talk, and you just ignored me. I traveled very far to come here with you and I'm not going anywhere until we talk." Arizona was standing holding the door.
"You needed to come back because you left. Don't you dare blame me for this" Both women were yelling in the middle of the hallway.
"I don't blame you Callie; I am just asking for a minute to talk... just that..." Callie noticed the pain in Arizona's voice and thought for a moment.
"Just a minute, and then you go?"
Arizona smiled sadly "If that is what you want, I´ll go forever."
Callie moved away to the door and indicated Arizona could go in. Arizona sighed in relief. She could talk to Callie. She had the chance to fight for her. She wanted to show to Callie that she was completely in love with her.
"Thank you."
"Just talk, Arizona" When the door was closed, Arizona began to talk.
"I´m sorry. I'm deeply, deeply sorry, and I know that doesn't change the fact that I left you, but I need you to hear me..."
"Ok, I´ve heard you, now you can go." Callie was avoiding Arizona's eyes, she knew that Arizona's blue eyes were brimmed with tears and Callie didn't want to give in to them.
"I've missed you so much Callie. I've regretted leaving you every single day..." The tears were trickling down her cheeks and Callie was looking at the floor. "Actually no, I don´t regret leaving you..."
"Great. Very nice, Arizona. Did you want to talk to me to tell me you are happy now, because if it is…"
"No! Let me finish ok!? If this is my last change with you at least let me talk... Please..." Arizona said with a broken voice.
"Ok... "
"I love you Callie. I love you so much. I realized that I want to spend my life with you. I was a complete idiot," Arizona sighed, "but, you must understand that I couldn't allow you to come with me like that... that would have been a huge mistake..."
"Well, that is much better," Callie said sarcastically.
"No. Of course not, but I hope we can talk and you are able to forgive me..." Arizona stepped forward to Callie. "I. Love. You. Please, please give me another chance to show you how much I love you." Arizona held Callie´s hand.
"Arizona, you broke my heart." Callie said sobbing.
"I know and I´m truly sorry. Please Calliope, when I was in Africa, I was only able to think about you, how I missed you, your eyes, and your skin... your lips... Your kisses... "Arizona kissed softly Callie's lips.
Callie pushed Arizona aside. "I'm sorry, I can't."
"Please, tell me you still love me..."
"Arizona..." Arizona was tried to kiss her again.
"Callie I can´t breathe without you... I can´t live without you... I promise I´ll be the woman you deserve, give me a chance..."
"I can't. I won't." Callie could see the hurt in Arizona´s face.
"Why..? Ok, I've messed everything up, but I swear I've changed."
After a few seconds, Arizona continued. "Before I met you, I didn't believe in love, in true love, the love that changes your life... The type of love that teaches you that your life doesn't make any sense without the person you love. That feeling that you are in heaven every time you open your eyes in the morning and she is lying next to you... and you don't want anything but that. You could happily die for her, and you absolutely will die without her... All of this I known because of you..."
Callie started crying during Arizona's speech. "Are you finished?" Callie asked with impatiens.
"Yes... I guess so..."
"Well, so, you can leave now."
Arizona looked to Callie for a second and took out a paper from her pocket. "Do you know what is it?
"No. And, I'm not in the mood to guess."
"This is a plane ticket... to Africa. If I don't have a chance with you, I'll go back there with the people who need me... "
"So you are leaving again...?" Callie said with faltering voice.
"It's up to you. Just tell me that I have a chance, and I won't go anywhere... tell me you still love me and I'll spend every day telling you I'm sorry, I'll do that for a hundred years if necessary, until you're able to spent your life with me again... Just tell me..."
"Have a good trip. Take care."
"Ow." Arizona felt like she was dying. "So that's it?"
Callie dried her tears. "Yes."
"Can I...?" Before finishing her sentence, Arizona kissed Callie like her life depended on it.
"I'm really sorry about all of this... I love you Calliope. I always will."
"Goodbye, Arizona" Callie was hoping Arizona would leave the apartment before she couldn't resist the urge to hug and kiss her forever.
"Are you seeing someone else?" Arizona looked deeply into Callie´s eyes.
"I... I´m... I have someone in my life..." Callie couldn't say that looking into Arizona´s eyes.
"I´m... I'm sorry. I didn't know... It´s just I thought that... Sorry... I should go..." Arizona was about to leave.
"Arizona..."
"No, it's ok. I hope they're able to make you happy... like I didn´t"
"You did, but then..."
"Yeah... I know... Take care Calliope" Arizona walked to the door, and before she get out she turned to Callie. "Tomorrow at six p.m."
"What?"
"My plane. It´ll takeoff then...If you change your mind... I´ll be waiting for you Calliope." Arizona smiled sadly to
Callie and walked through the door.
When the door was closed Callie couldn't contain her sobs. She leaned back on the door and slowly slipped to the floor.
She held her head between her hands. She could only cry... Of course she still loved Arizona. How she couldn't?
Arizona was still able to stop her heart with just a glance... When she kissed her a few minutes ago, Callie begged the world would just stop right there with her in Arizona's arms, and their lips connected, just as it should be forever.
But Callie couldn't do that. Not right now. Her life was different, and there was no changing that. Wuld Arizona be able to handle it? She didn't know, but she wouldn't give Arizona the chance of break her heart. Not again. Besides how could she explain that? Even when they weren't in a relationship she shouldn't have done that she did. But why not? She was single again... even though her heart belonged to Arizona and she knew it. If it was Arizona, what would she have thought...?
Nothing matters now, because even when Arizona begged for another chance, Callie refused. Less than twenty four hours, just that and her life would be the same... the same life without Arizona. Dark, empty and sad.... At least now she had someone to put in her dreams, but wouldn't it be wonderful if she could live that new life with Arizona…?
##########
"Will you call me?"
"Yes, sure..."
"Arizona, did you hear anything I'm saying?"
"What?"
"Arizona, please stop spinning around..."
"Sorry, Teddy... Do you think she'll come?"
Teddy sighed. They both have been in the airport for forty minutes, and all Arizona was doing was looking for, and talking about Callie. "I don't know."
"What is she can't find me? What is she is lost here trying to find me...?" Arizona needed to believe that Callie would be there asking her not to travel to Africa...
"Look, If she wants to find you, she will."
"Teddy!" Arizona protested.
"What?"
"You are not helping..." Arizona was nervous and Teddy was trying to calm her down because she didn't believe Callie would come.
Teddy grabbed Arizona by her shoulders. "Arizona, you are leaving to live your dream, can you please stop to thinking about Callie?"
"No! Don't you understand? Callie is my dream...she is my dream, not Africa..." she held her tears back.
"Arizona, you need to live your life... you won a Madison Grant and that is an incredible thing, you need to enjoy it. I know you are in love with Callie but you came back here, and she moved on with her life without you... she had a right to do that... you can't blame her for that..."
"I'm not blaming her... It's just..."
"I know honey, I know..." Teddy held her for a few seconds. "But really Arizona, just enjoy that... You will do an amazing job helping children there..."
"Yes... I guess... Maybe you're right..."
"I am. I'm totally right," Teddy smiled at her, "I'll miss you."
"Me too. I know it will be hard for you... to lose your best friend ever..." Both girls laughed.
"Arizona?"
"Mmm?"
"You are right, it'll be hard, but you will call me..."
"Of course I will! I'll tell you about every kid I save... Thank you Teddy"
"For what?"
"For coming here... for being my best friend... I don't know... Thank you for everything..."
"You're welcome, and you don't need to thank me..."
Teddy's pager sounded. "Dammit," Teddy sighed.
"Is it a 911?"
"Yes... sorry..."
"Hey, it's ok, don't worry. Go, somebody needs you," Arizona smiled.
"But you will be here for another thirty minutes at least, I wanted to be here with you."
"It's no big deal, really."
"Ok... I'll miss you"
"You already said that, don't make me cry" They hugged again. "I'll call you and you'll tell me how is Karev doing his job, Ok?"
"Arizona let him breathe."
"We are talking about my tiny humans, there's no way in hell could take my eyes off him, and as I won't be here you will be my eyes". Teddy rolled her eyes. "Awesome, you will be like a spy..."
"Yeah, a surgeon and a spy, great..."
"You'll do it, I know. Now you go to save lives."
"Yes, just one last hug."
"Teddy?"
"What?"
"Callie didn't come..." She said with a broken voice.
"I'm sorry..." Teddy hugged Arizona and she could feel her shaking and sobbing.
"Could you tell her that I waited for her?"
"Arizona..." Teddy warned her.
"Ok... Ok... Go…" She wiped her tears away with her palm.
Arizona was feeling broken. Alone in the airport she could only think about the last time she was there with Callie and how the things ended. She wanted everything to be different, she was rejected because she was not able to explain to Callie why she believe that she wouldn´t be happy in Africa, and now she didn't have any choice but to do it. She wasn't even and she was missing Callie already. Just another thirty minutes, and she would lose Callie forever.
##########
The knock on the door brought her to the reality. She didn't know how many hours she spent sitting on that couch sobbing.
"Torres, are you there? Callie, open the door."
She opened the door. She knew that Mark was worried, because she didn't answer either of his calls.
"What do you want Mark?"
"What do I want? Are you kidding me Callie? I've called you a hundred times and you didn't answer, I was scared. You didn't go to work." He looked really worried.
"I know, I'm sorry..."
"What the hell is going on?" He could see that Callie had been crying. "You look like hell."
"I lost her, Mark."
He didn't need more her to say more; he knew what Callie was talking about. "Come on, come here," He said opening his arms and embracing her while he closed the door.
"Have you talked to her?"
"Yes, I did. She came here yesterday and we talked, she's leaving today..."
"I'm sorry... so, she left you because of the baby?" Mark was caressed Callie's hair while they both were on the couch.
"No."
Mark sighed. "Well, at least you tried."
"No." Callie repeated on the verge of tears.
"No, what?"
"I didn't. I didn't tell her about the baby..."
"Why? Callie we talked about that.. You need to talk to her."
"No, Mark, I won't. She is leaving again, she is leaving to Africa."
"Yes, because you didn't want to talk to her."
Come on, Callie, I'm sure she'll understand. She loves you."
"Really, Mark? Let me see... Hey, Arizona, remember when you were in Africa, well, Mark and I spent the night together, because I was angry and drunk and now I'm pregnant with his baby... What do you think?"
"Well, that isn't the speech I had in mind..."
"Did she understand?" Callie asked angry.
"Who?"
"Lexie, Did Lexie understand?"
"No... she didn't, but it isn't the same, Callie I was..."
"Don't. Mark just stops, ok? We will be parents, we will be happy and, we'll find someone to love..."
"She made you happy, Callie, and you love her, I'm just saying that..."
"That nothing, Mark."
Mark sighed. "We'll be happy, right?"
"We will. The three of us..." Callie smiled sadly.
After a silent minute Mark spoke again. "Do you know I want you be happy?"
"Of course I know"
"Do you know, what would have made me happy? That Lexie would accept the baby..."
"I'm sorry Mark."
"But I'm relieved, Do you know why? Because I tried, and maybe someday she will want to spend her life with me and our Mark junior."
Callie laughed. "Mark junior, really?"
"Ok, maybe our little Calliope..."
"No, never say that name again". Callie warned him. That name was just for Arizona.
"However, you can't say the same because you gave up, before trying."
"Please, tell me we are not talking about Arizona again."
"Yes, we are. I'm your friend and as your best friend I'm trying to get you to do the right thing."
When Callie saw that Mark was looking at her keys, she asked. "Where do you want to go?"
"I'm not going, we are going to find Arizona, and at least you need to try... I don't want you to wonder what would have happened in a few months if you would have told her the truth."
"It's late, Mark." her voice was broke.
"What time, was her plane was leaving?" Mark looked her watch.
"At six, but..."
"We're late, let's go."
"Thank you."
"You two can thank me later, now we need to go."
Callie smiled him and they both left the apartment. Callie had the opportunity to stop Arizona and if Mark was right, Arizona would accept to her and the baby and they both could start a family, just like she always wanted.
#############
"I'm sorry, Callie."
"It's ok, maybe this was is better, you know? She wouldn't accept it anyway, so..."
Mark looked at her and smiled sadly. They were looking for Arizona and they couldn't find her. They were at the airport a couple minutes before six, but Arizona wasn't there. Mark insisted that Callie call her while they were in the lobby, but every time Arizona's voicemail answered.
He can see the sadness in Callie's face and he couldn't blame anyone but himself, he was the one who gave hope to her and now Callie needed to face the fact that Arizona left. Again.
"You can call her, I'm sure she'll come back if you talk to her..."
"Don't Mark. I need to forget about her." The words hurt her much her; she felt like someone was tightening her heart.
"But..."
"Please..?" She said with a broken voice.
"Ok." Mark could see the tears running down her cheeks. Both were in silence. Mark was driving and Callie decided turn on the radio, trying to get Arizona out of her mind. The silence was broken by "Within Temptation", Memories was playing on the radio and Callie couldn't get her mind of Arizona, she knew that her life without Arizona would be hard; her only hope was the baby who was growing inside her. But, she had no doubt, part of her heart, no matter what; it would always belong to Arizona.
##########
"Hey, baby girl, what's wrong?" She asked the girl who was crying in the middle of the hall.
"I want my mommy," she answered in sobs.
"What's your name?"
"Sofia."
"Nice to meet you Sofia, you have a really beautiful name... By the way, I'm Dr. Robbins, Arizona Robbins." she smiled to the girl who was calm now and watching Arizona carefully.
"Dr. Zona."
"Well, yes, that works too... So Sofia, what's your mommy' name?"
"Mommy," Sofia said without hesitation.
"Right, silly me... and Do you know where your mommy is?" Sofia shook her head. "Is your mommy a patient? Is your father with you?"
Sofia shook her head again. "My mommy is a doctor like you and Daddy isn't here, he is far away, he is Seatt.. Seate..."
"Seattle."
"Yes, but he promised me that he will come to visit us."
"That's great," Sofia smiled to her.
Arizona called a nurse who was near. "Betty, do you know who this beautiful girl is?"
"No, I've never seen her before, why?"
"She was trying to find her mommy; she said that she is a doctor here."
"What's her name?"
"Mommy," both answered in unison and when Betty laughed Sofia looked at Arizona confused.
"Has anybody asked for her?" Arizona asked Betty.
"Not before you..."
"Ok. Do you know what, Sofia? I need to do some work in my office and I need an assistant ... How old are you?"
"I'm three and a half!" Sofia said proudly.
"Perfect. You could be my assistant, while Betty is looking for your mommy... Don't you?
"Yes! I'll be your assistant Dr. Zona. Mommy always says that I'm a good helper."
"Well Betty, my new assistant and I have work to do... when you find her mommy, you send her to my office, Ok?"
"Yes, Dr. Robbins."
"Bye Betty," Sofia waved to the nurse.
Several minutes passed since Arizona and Sofia went in the office when they heard someone yelling.
"Sofia, baby, where are you? Come on, baby, come here..." she was scared, anybody could tell by the tone of her voice. "Excuse me, did you see a girl, three years old, black hair..."
"Yes, are talking about Sofia? Are you her mom?"
"Yes! Where is my daughter, did you see her?"
"She is with..." the nurse couldn't finish her sentence when a door was opened and Sofia came out yelling.
"Mommy, I'm here..." Sofia walked toward her mother with a big smile on her face, while she was coming out Arizona's office.
"Sofia, god, you scared me to dead!" Callie walked into Sofia and hugged her.
"Mommy, you are choking me."
"Sorry, Baby... Is just... I was really scared, never do that again, Ok?"
"Sorry, mommy..." Sofia said ashamed.
"Well, come on... let's go..."
"Can we wait? I'm working."
"You, what? Callie asked intrigued.
"I'm her assistant."
"Well, we can go to say bye and we'll thank her for taking care of you,"
"Yes, mommy. Can I come here tomorrow?"
Callie smiled. "That doctor must be really nice; a few hours ago you didn't to ever come back..."
"She is, mommy, she is really cool."
Callie still was knelt in front of Sofia when she heard a voice. She could go ten years and still, she could recognize it. She didn't need to stand up and look to know who it was. She missed hearing that sweet sound for five years.
"Here's your mommy. I'm sorry, ma'am, I was on the phone. You must be Sofia's mother."
She was sure that her heart stopped in that instant, and now it was racing. She dreamed so many times when they might meet again, and now she was frozen. She was scared; she didn't even want to look up her. But she did and she couldn't help the big smile that spread across her face. She felt happy, for a second she was happy.
"Hi... I... You..." Her mouth was dry. She couldn't talk... she couldn't think of any word at that moment.
"Arizona..." she whispered.
Sofia was looking at her mother. "Is Doctor Zona." she corrected her.
"Hello, I'm Dr. Robbins. Arizona Robbins."
Callie was bewildered, why the hell Arizona was standing in front of her extending her hand in greeting like she was a stranger? In all these years Callie thought about many different ways Arizona could react if they met again: happiness, anger, and hurt were some of the feeling in she thought, but never in a million years this.
"Arizona, I'm me... Why are you...?" Callie couldn't finish because someone called for Arizona and she recognized that person too.
"Arizona, I was waiting for you in the entrance, how many times do I need to tell you... Callie" And, there was Teddy.
"Do you know each other?" Arizona asked Teddy.
"Yes... Callie is an old friend... We used work together in Seattle..."
"Teddy, what is all of this?" Said Callie still trying to understand what was happening.
Teddy walked up to Callie and hugged her. "I promise I'll explain it all, just not now..."
"But Teddy, why does she...?"
"Please, Callie, not now." She almost pleaded.
Callie watched the two women for an minute. "Come on Sof, say goodbye." Sofia ran towards Arizona to say bye, and Callie looked at Teddy. "I'll be waiting for your call," and gave her a card.
"I will. I promise."
"Bye, Sofia, take care and be good for mommy," Callie heard Arizona talking with Sofia. "Nice to meet you Dr. Torres."
"Nice to meet you... Dr. Robbins," she said with a lump in her throat.
Author: gmi_05
Pairing: Callie/Arizona
Rating: T
Summary: Five years after the trip to Africa, the fate met to Callie and Arizona, but she is no longer the same person. Callie will try to make she fall in love of her again, but it won't be easy.
Disclaimer: All television shows, books, movies, songs, and other copyrighted material referred to in this work and the characters, events, and settings thereof are the properties of their respective owners. As this work is an interpretation of the original material and not for profit, it constitutes fair use. Reference to real persons, places, or events are made in a fictional context and are not intended to be libelous, defamatory, or in any way factual.
AN: I'm sorry for every mistake I make,English is not my first language so I would truly appreciate any constructive input that may help further my storytelling.
Beta: Kittiemitten
This life is based on decisions. We have choices, we choose, we bet. We win or lose, and we need to choose again... We can accept it or fight to change it.
Arizona was fighting. She loved Callie with her whole soul. She knew that she made a mistake and was trying to fix it.
Three months ago when she left Callie alone in the middle of the airport, she didn't know her real feelings to her. Of course they were girlfriends and she really liked her, but it was unimaginable to believe that she would feel the necessity to come back just three months after because she needed her.
In spite of the fact that Arizona was feeling useful and knew she was changing lives; her own life was empty. She was crying every night because she missed her, even after that, all those days she woke up in the morning and the cold sheets were a sign of another painful day.
So she made a decision and returned to Seattle with the hope to recover her life, to recover Callie.
"Again? Really Arizona, how many times do I need to tell you to leave me alone," Since her return a week ago, Arizona kept going to Callie´s house every day trying to talk to her, but Callie didn't want to. She was mad and upset.
The truth was, even when Callie wanted to deny it, she couldn´t help but feel happiness when she opened the door that night and saw Arizona´s face. Those curls, the deep blue eyes that she could lose herself in for hours...that seductive smile that could achieve anything. Her Arizona. The love of her life.
Nevertheless, Callie was refusing to talk to Arizona; and, every time Arizona was trying to talk to her, Callie simply closed the door or left.
"Please, Calliope, we need to talk."
"No, don't Calliope me like that." Callie said with annoyance.
"Please, Callie. I've been coming here and the hospital for seven days. Please I need to talk to you. I know you're mad, but..."
"You know...? Right" Callie snorted. "What do you know Arizona? Do you how it feels that the woman you love, and you believed that feeling was mutual, is going Africa leaving you alone in the airport? Do you know how that feels?"
"No, ok, I don't know how that feels, and I'm really sorry about that. I it regret every day, but I love you Callie. I need you."
They looked at each other for a few seconds. There was nothing but love. Arizona tried to hold Callie´s hand but she quickly moved away.
"I'm sorry for you; but, I don't have any reason to talk to you. Now please can you get out? Because, this is my apartment's door, and I need get inside." Callie said indifferently.
Arizona bit her lip and moved to one side.
"Thank you, now goodbye." Callie entered into the apartment, and was closing the door when Arizona stopped it.
"No. Not anymore. I've begged you for a week to talk, and you just ignored me. I traveled very far to come here with you and I'm not going anywhere until we talk." Arizona was standing holding the door.
"You needed to come back because you left. Don't you dare blame me for this" Both women were yelling in the middle of the hallway.
"I don't blame you Callie; I am just asking for a minute to talk... just that..." Callie noticed the pain in Arizona's voice and thought for a moment.
"Just a minute, and then you go?"
Arizona smiled sadly "If that is what you want, I´ll go forever."
Callie moved away to the door and indicated Arizona could go in. Arizona sighed in relief. She could talk to Callie. She had the chance to fight for her. She wanted to show to Callie that she was completely in love with her.
"Thank you."
"Just talk, Arizona" When the door was closed, Arizona began to talk.
"I´m sorry. I'm deeply, deeply sorry, and I know that doesn't change the fact that I left you, but I need you to hear me..."
"Ok, I´ve heard you, now you can go." Callie was avoiding Arizona's eyes, she knew that Arizona's blue eyes were brimmed with tears and Callie didn't want to give in to them.
"I've missed you so much Callie. I've regretted leaving you every single day..." The tears were trickling down her cheeks and Callie was looking at the floor. "Actually no, I don´t regret leaving you..."
"Great. Very nice, Arizona. Did you want to talk to me to tell me you are happy now, because if it is…"
"No! Let me finish ok!? If this is my last change with you at least let me talk... Please..." Arizona said with a broken voice.
"Ok... "
"I love you Callie. I love you so much. I realized that I want to spend my life with you. I was a complete idiot," Arizona sighed, "but, you must understand that I couldn't allow you to come with me like that... that would have been a huge mistake..."
"Well, that is much better," Callie said sarcastically.
"No. Of course not, but I hope we can talk and you are able to forgive me..." Arizona stepped forward to Callie. "I. Love. You. Please, please give me another chance to show you how much I love you." Arizona held Callie´s hand.
"Arizona, you broke my heart." Callie said sobbing.
"I know and I´m truly sorry. Please Calliope, when I was in Africa, I was only able to think about you, how I missed you, your eyes, and your skin... your lips... Your kisses... "Arizona kissed softly Callie's lips.
Callie pushed Arizona aside. "I'm sorry, I can't."
"Please, tell me you still love me..."
"Arizona..." Arizona was tried to kiss her again.
"Callie I can´t breathe without you... I can´t live without you... I promise I´ll be the woman you deserve, give me a chance..."
"I can't. I won't." Callie could see the hurt in Arizona´s face.
"Why..? Ok, I've messed everything up, but I swear I've changed."
After a few seconds, Arizona continued. "Before I met you, I didn't believe in love, in true love, the love that changes your life... The type of love that teaches you that your life doesn't make any sense without the person you love. That feeling that you are in heaven every time you open your eyes in the morning and she is lying next to you... and you don't want anything but that. You could happily die for her, and you absolutely will die without her... All of this I known because of you..."
Callie started crying during Arizona's speech. "Are you finished?" Callie asked with impatiens.
"Yes... I guess so..."
"Well, so, you can leave now."
Arizona looked to Callie for a second and took out a paper from her pocket. "Do you know what is it?
"No. And, I'm not in the mood to guess."
"This is a plane ticket... to Africa. If I don't have a chance with you, I'll go back there with the people who need me... "
"So you are leaving again...?" Callie said with faltering voice.
"It's up to you. Just tell me that I have a chance, and I won't go anywhere... tell me you still love me and I'll spend every day telling you I'm sorry, I'll do that for a hundred years if necessary, until you're able to spent your life with me again... Just tell me..."
"Have a good trip. Take care."
"Ow." Arizona felt like she was dying. "So that's it?"
Callie dried her tears. "Yes."
"Can I...?" Before finishing her sentence, Arizona kissed Callie like her life depended on it.
"I'm really sorry about all of this... I love you Calliope. I always will."
"Goodbye, Arizona" Callie was hoping Arizona would leave the apartment before she couldn't resist the urge to hug and kiss her forever.
"Are you seeing someone else?" Arizona looked deeply into Callie´s eyes.
"I... I´m... I have someone in my life..." Callie couldn't say that looking into Arizona´s eyes.
"I´m... I'm sorry. I didn't know... It´s just I thought that... Sorry... I should go..." Arizona was about to leave.
"Arizona..."
"No, it's ok. I hope they're able to make you happy... like I didn´t"
"You did, but then..."
"Yeah... I know... Take care Calliope" Arizona walked to the door, and before she get out she turned to Callie. "Tomorrow at six p.m."
"What?"
"My plane. It´ll takeoff then...If you change your mind... I´ll be waiting for you Calliope." Arizona smiled sadly to
Callie and walked through the door.
When the door was closed Callie couldn't contain her sobs. She leaned back on the door and slowly slipped to the floor.
She held her head between her hands. She could only cry... Of course she still loved Arizona. How she couldn't?
Arizona was still able to stop her heart with just a glance... When she kissed her a few minutes ago, Callie begged the world would just stop right there with her in Arizona's arms, and their lips connected, just as it should be forever.
But Callie couldn't do that. Not right now. Her life was different, and there was no changing that. Wuld Arizona be able to handle it? She didn't know, but she wouldn't give Arizona the chance of break her heart. Not again. Besides how could she explain that? Even when they weren't in a relationship she shouldn't have done that she did. But why not? She was single again... even though her heart belonged to Arizona and she knew it. If it was Arizona, what would she have thought...?
Nothing matters now, because even when Arizona begged for another chance, Callie refused. Less than twenty four hours, just that and her life would be the same... the same life without Arizona. Dark, empty and sad.... At least now she had someone to put in her dreams, but wouldn't it be wonderful if she could live that new life with Arizona…?
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"Will you call me?"
"Yes, sure..."
"Arizona, did you hear anything I'm saying?"
"What?"
"Arizona, please stop spinning around..."
"Sorry, Teddy... Do you think she'll come?"
Teddy sighed. They both have been in the airport for forty minutes, and all Arizona was doing was looking for, and talking about Callie. "I don't know."
"What is she can't find me? What is she is lost here trying to find me...?" Arizona needed to believe that Callie would be there asking her not to travel to Africa...
"Look, If she wants to find you, she will."
"Teddy!" Arizona protested.
"What?"
"You are not helping..." Arizona was nervous and Teddy was trying to calm her down because she didn't believe Callie would come.
Teddy grabbed Arizona by her shoulders. "Arizona, you are leaving to live your dream, can you please stop to thinking about Callie?"
"No! Don't you understand? Callie is my dream...she is my dream, not Africa..." she held her tears back.
"Arizona, you need to live your life... you won a Madison Grant and that is an incredible thing, you need to enjoy it. I know you are in love with Callie but you came back here, and she moved on with her life without you... she had a right to do that... you can't blame her for that..."
"I'm not blaming her... It's just..."
"I know honey, I know..." Teddy held her for a few seconds. "But really Arizona, just enjoy that... You will do an amazing job helping children there..."
"Yes... I guess... Maybe you're right..."
"I am. I'm totally right," Teddy smiled at her, "I'll miss you."
"Me too. I know it will be hard for you... to lose your best friend ever..." Both girls laughed.
"Arizona?"
"Mmm?"
"You are right, it'll be hard, but you will call me..."
"Of course I will! I'll tell you about every kid I save... Thank you Teddy"
"For what?"
"For coming here... for being my best friend... I don't know... Thank you for everything..."
"You're welcome, and you don't need to thank me..."
Teddy's pager sounded. "Dammit," Teddy sighed.
"Is it a 911?"
"Yes... sorry..."
"Hey, it's ok, don't worry. Go, somebody needs you," Arizona smiled.
"But you will be here for another thirty minutes at least, I wanted to be here with you."
"It's no big deal, really."
"Ok... I'll miss you"
"You already said that, don't make me cry" They hugged again. "I'll call you and you'll tell me how is Karev doing his job, Ok?"
"Arizona let him breathe."
"We are talking about my tiny humans, there's no way in hell could take my eyes off him, and as I won't be here you will be my eyes". Teddy rolled her eyes. "Awesome, you will be like a spy..."
"Yeah, a surgeon and a spy, great..."
"You'll do it, I know. Now you go to save lives."
"Yes, just one last hug."
"Teddy?"
"What?"
"Callie didn't come..." She said with a broken voice.
"I'm sorry..." Teddy hugged Arizona and she could feel her shaking and sobbing.
"Could you tell her that I waited for her?"
"Arizona..." Teddy warned her.
"Ok... Ok... Go…" She wiped her tears away with her palm.
Arizona was feeling broken. Alone in the airport she could only think about the last time she was there with Callie and how the things ended. She wanted everything to be different, she was rejected because she was not able to explain to Callie why she believe that she wouldn´t be happy in Africa, and now she didn't have any choice but to do it. She wasn't even and she was missing Callie already. Just another thirty minutes, and she would lose Callie forever.
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The knock on the door brought her to the reality. She didn't know how many hours she spent sitting on that couch sobbing.
"Torres, are you there? Callie, open the door."
She opened the door. She knew that Mark was worried, because she didn't answer either of his calls.
"What do you want Mark?"
"What do I want? Are you kidding me Callie? I've called you a hundred times and you didn't answer, I was scared. You didn't go to work." He looked really worried.
"I know, I'm sorry..."
"What the hell is going on?" He could see that Callie had been crying. "You look like hell."
"I lost her, Mark."
He didn't need more her to say more; he knew what Callie was talking about. "Come on, come here," He said opening his arms and embracing her while he closed the door.
"Have you talked to her?"
"Yes, I did. She came here yesterday and we talked, she's leaving today..."
"I'm sorry... so, she left you because of the baby?" Mark was caressed Callie's hair while they both were on the couch.
"No."
Mark sighed. "Well, at least you tried."
"No." Callie repeated on the verge of tears.
"No, what?"
"I didn't. I didn't tell her about the baby..."
"Why? Callie we talked about that.. You need to talk to her."
"No, Mark, I won't. She is leaving again, she is leaving to Africa."
"Yes, because you didn't want to talk to her."
Come on, Callie, I'm sure she'll understand. She loves you."
"Really, Mark? Let me see... Hey, Arizona, remember when you were in Africa, well, Mark and I spent the night together, because I was angry and drunk and now I'm pregnant with his baby... What do you think?"
"Well, that isn't the speech I had in mind..."
"Did she understand?" Callie asked angry.
"Who?"
"Lexie, Did Lexie understand?"
"No... she didn't, but it isn't the same, Callie I was..."
"Don't. Mark just stops, ok? We will be parents, we will be happy and, we'll find someone to love..."
"She made you happy, Callie, and you love her, I'm just saying that..."
"That nothing, Mark."
Mark sighed. "We'll be happy, right?"
"We will. The three of us..." Callie smiled sadly.
After a silent minute Mark spoke again. "Do you know I want you be happy?"
"Of course I know"
"Do you know, what would have made me happy? That Lexie would accept the baby..."
"I'm sorry Mark."
"But I'm relieved, Do you know why? Because I tried, and maybe someday she will want to spend her life with me and our Mark junior."
Callie laughed. "Mark junior, really?"
"Ok, maybe our little Calliope..."
"No, never say that name again". Callie warned him. That name was just for Arizona.
"However, you can't say the same because you gave up, before trying."
"Please, tell me we are not talking about Arizona again."
"Yes, we are. I'm your friend and as your best friend I'm trying to get you to do the right thing."
When Callie saw that Mark was looking at her keys, she asked. "Where do you want to go?"
"I'm not going, we are going to find Arizona, and at least you need to try... I don't want you to wonder what would have happened in a few months if you would have told her the truth."
"It's late, Mark." her voice was broke.
"What time, was her plane was leaving?" Mark looked her watch.
"At six, but..."
"We're late, let's go."
"Thank you."
"You two can thank me later, now we need to go."
Callie smiled him and they both left the apartment. Callie had the opportunity to stop Arizona and if Mark was right, Arizona would accept to her and the baby and they both could start a family, just like she always wanted.
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"I'm sorry, Callie."
"It's ok, maybe this was is better, you know? She wouldn't accept it anyway, so..."
Mark looked at her and smiled sadly. They were looking for Arizona and they couldn't find her. They were at the airport a couple minutes before six, but Arizona wasn't there. Mark insisted that Callie call her while they were in the lobby, but every time Arizona's voicemail answered.
He can see the sadness in Callie's face and he couldn't blame anyone but himself, he was the one who gave hope to her and now Callie needed to face the fact that Arizona left. Again.
"You can call her, I'm sure she'll come back if you talk to her..."
"Don't Mark. I need to forget about her." The words hurt her much her; she felt like someone was tightening her heart.
"But..."
"Please..?" She said with a broken voice.
"Ok." Mark could see the tears running down her cheeks. Both were in silence. Mark was driving and Callie decided turn on the radio, trying to get Arizona out of her mind. The silence was broken by "Within Temptation", Memories was playing on the radio and Callie couldn't get her mind of Arizona, she knew that her life without Arizona would be hard; her only hope was the baby who was growing inside her. But, she had no doubt, part of her heart, no matter what; it would always belong to Arizona.
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"Hey, baby girl, what's wrong?" She asked the girl who was crying in the middle of the hall.
"I want my mommy," she answered in sobs.
"What's your name?"
"Sofia."
"Nice to meet you Sofia, you have a really beautiful name... By the way, I'm Dr. Robbins, Arizona Robbins." she smiled to the girl who was calm now and watching Arizona carefully.
"Dr. Zona."
"Well, yes, that works too... So Sofia, what's your mommy' name?"
"Mommy," Sofia said without hesitation.
"Right, silly me... and Do you know where your mommy is?" Sofia shook her head. "Is your mommy a patient? Is your father with you?"
Sofia shook her head again. "My mommy is a doctor like you and Daddy isn't here, he is far away, he is Seatt.. Seate..."
"Seattle."
"Yes, but he promised me that he will come to visit us."
"That's great," Sofia smiled to her.
Arizona called a nurse who was near. "Betty, do you know who this beautiful girl is?"
"No, I've never seen her before, why?"
"She was trying to find her mommy; she said that she is a doctor here."
"What's her name?"
"Mommy," both answered in unison and when Betty laughed Sofia looked at Arizona confused.
"Has anybody asked for her?" Arizona asked Betty.
"Not before you..."
"Ok. Do you know what, Sofia? I need to do some work in my office and I need an assistant ... How old are you?"
"I'm three and a half!" Sofia said proudly.
"Perfect. You could be my assistant, while Betty is looking for your mommy... Don't you?
"Yes! I'll be your assistant Dr. Zona. Mommy always says that I'm a good helper."
"Well Betty, my new assistant and I have work to do... when you find her mommy, you send her to my office, Ok?"
"Yes, Dr. Robbins."
"Bye Betty," Sofia waved to the nurse.
Several minutes passed since Arizona and Sofia went in the office when they heard someone yelling.
"Sofia, baby, where are you? Come on, baby, come here..." she was scared, anybody could tell by the tone of her voice. "Excuse me, did you see a girl, three years old, black hair..."
"Yes, are talking about Sofia? Are you her mom?"
"Yes! Where is my daughter, did you see her?"
"She is with..." the nurse couldn't finish her sentence when a door was opened and Sofia came out yelling.
"Mommy, I'm here..." Sofia walked toward her mother with a big smile on her face, while she was coming out Arizona's office.
"Sofia, god, you scared me to dead!" Callie walked into Sofia and hugged her.
"Mommy, you are choking me."
"Sorry, Baby... Is just... I was really scared, never do that again, Ok?"
"Sorry, mommy..." Sofia said ashamed.
"Well, come on... let's go..."
"Can we wait? I'm working."
"You, what? Callie asked intrigued.
"I'm her assistant."
"Well, we can go to say bye and we'll thank her for taking care of you,"
"Yes, mommy. Can I come here tomorrow?"
Callie smiled. "That doctor must be really nice; a few hours ago you didn't to ever come back..."
"She is, mommy, she is really cool."
Callie still was knelt in front of Sofia when she heard a voice. She could go ten years and still, she could recognize it. She didn't need to stand up and look to know who it was. She missed hearing that sweet sound for five years.
"Here's your mommy. I'm sorry, ma'am, I was on the phone. You must be Sofia's mother."
She was sure that her heart stopped in that instant, and now it was racing. She dreamed so many times when they might meet again, and now she was frozen. She was scared; she didn't even want to look up her. But she did and she couldn't help the big smile that spread across her face. She felt happy, for a second she was happy.
"Hi... I... You..." Her mouth was dry. She couldn't talk... she couldn't think of any word at that moment.
"Arizona..." she whispered.
Sofia was looking at her mother. "Is Doctor Zona." she corrected her.
"Hello, I'm Dr. Robbins. Arizona Robbins."
Callie was bewildered, why the hell Arizona was standing in front of her extending her hand in greeting like she was a stranger? In all these years Callie thought about many different ways Arizona could react if they met again: happiness, anger, and hurt were some of the feeling in she thought, but never in a million years this.
"Arizona, I'm me... Why are you...?" Callie couldn't finish because someone called for Arizona and she recognized that person too.
"Arizona, I was waiting for you in the entrance, how many times do I need to tell you... Callie" And, there was Teddy.
"Do you know each other?" Arizona asked Teddy.
"Yes... Callie is an old friend... We used work together in Seattle..."
"Teddy, what is all of this?" Said Callie still trying to understand what was happening.
Teddy walked up to Callie and hugged her. "I promise I'll explain it all, just not now..."
"But Teddy, why does she...?"
"Please, Callie, not now." She almost pleaded.
Callie watched the two women for an minute. "Come on Sof, say goodbye." Sofia ran towards Arizona to say bye, and Callie looked at Teddy. "I'll be waiting for your call," and gave her a card.
"I will. I promise."
"Bye, Sofia, take care and be good for mommy," Callie heard Arizona talking with Sofia. "Nice to meet you Dr. Torres."
"Nice to meet you... Dr. Robbins," she said with a lump in her throat.