My Prayer
Dear Lord,
I once asked you for someone... Someone to come into my life and take away my loneliness... Someone who could share my life with me and accept me for who I was... Someone who could understand my pains and sorrows from the past so that I could learn what love and happiness is.
I prayed to you, long and hard... And I waited for years... At times, the loneliness was painful... Sometimes it was comforting... I knew You were biding Your time, waiting for the perfect moment to give me someone who could accept me for who I was... Irregardless of where I came from, of how I looked like, of what I carried with me...
I prayed for someone with whom I could share life with... Someone I could show my loyalty... Myself... Someone I could carry the burdens of... Someone who I could love.
I cried with joy when You gave me him... I couldn't believe that finally, my prayers were answered. He brought me joy... He brought me tears... He brought me everything I had asked for. Someone who treated me as a human being, a friend, and a companion.... And later, love. I never stopped thanking You for him, an angel You sent to free me from my past.
I still am thanking You...
But I somehow managed to lose him... Because I was not careful... Because I did not do enough... I never question Your judgements yet I always ask myself... Why do I always lose the ones I love most...?
I lost friends... I lost pets... I lost loved ones... Yet the story is always the same... When someone gets close, I always end up hurting them... Or them hurting me... And we part ways...
Why...?
I do not want to be alone anymore...
I do not want to be lonely anymore...
Now, I pray again... Please help let us rekindle what was lost... I do not want to lose him... I do not want to lose to this pain...
I want to be whole again...
But I also want him to be happy again... To smile from the bottom of the heart... And learn to laugh again without any tinge of sorrow...
Oh, God... what I would give to take back everything that pains him... My very life if need be...
I'm sorry... I can never say this often enough... Because I know I did something wrong too... And I'm sorry that I squandered the gift you sent me...
Please, Lord...
Help us find each other again...
Because I don't think we'll ever be both whole again...
I once asked you for someone... Someone to come into my life and take away my loneliness... Someone who could share my life with me and accept me for who I was... Someone who could understand my pains and sorrows from the past so that I could learn what love and happiness is.
I prayed to you, long and hard... And I waited for years... At times, the loneliness was painful... Sometimes it was comforting... I knew You were biding Your time, waiting for the perfect moment to give me someone who could accept me for who I was... Irregardless of where I came from, of how I looked like, of what I carried with me...
I prayed for someone with whom I could share life with... Someone I could show my loyalty... Myself... Someone I could carry the burdens of... Someone who I could love.
I cried with joy when You gave me him... I couldn't believe that finally, my prayers were answered. He brought me joy... He brought me tears... He brought me everything I had asked for. Someone who treated me as a human being, a friend, and a companion.... And later, love. I never stopped thanking You for him, an angel You sent to free me from my past.
I still am thanking You...
But I somehow managed to lose him... Because I was not careful... Because I did not do enough... I never question Your judgements yet I always ask myself... Why do I always lose the ones I love most...?
I lost friends... I lost pets... I lost loved ones... Yet the story is always the same... When someone gets close, I always end up hurting them... Or them hurting me... And we part ways...
Why...?
I do not want to be alone anymore...
I do not want to be lonely anymore...
Now, I pray again... Please help let us rekindle what was lost... I do not want to lose him... I do not want to lose to this pain...
I want to be whole again...
But I also want him to be happy again... To smile from the bottom of the heart... And learn to laugh again without any tinge of sorrow...
Oh, God... what I would give to take back everything that pains him... My very life if need be...
I'm sorry... I can never say this often enough... Because I know I did something wrong too... And I'm sorry that I squandered the gift you sent me...
Please, Lord...
Help us find each other again...
Because I don't think we'll ever be both whole again...