do i even matter?
*rant alert*
Some people would view what I did over the weekend as unacceptable. Yet I don't make any excuses for my behavior nor do I want to change what even happened. I DID ask them parents to take me to that school last Saturday because of promises I made and all that. I DID wait. I DID WANT TO GENUINELY GO.
Then comes Sunday. They *finally* ask me if I wanted to go... but I didn't. Nothing to do. Nail stuff (a.k.a. kikay stuff) isn't my thing. Nor did I really want to leave the house. Ok, so I did. I wasn't serious about going to Cash & Carry. It was a Sunday, for tipaklong's sake. It's my sleep day!
Anyway, so yes, dear sis is mad like hell at me again because I didn't show up. And mama predictably got mad at me. My head and thoughts are screaming: SO WHAT. I TOLD YOU I WANTED TO GO LAST SATURDAY. Your answer? No, we have no sticker. No, go ask your dad to bring you somewhere near there (and find a way to go in). And so forth.
I didn't know when kuya came home that he was going back. Didn't even know he left so I wasn't able to ask! Sue me!
Now, I'm the guilty one again, the robot, the "hindi-marunong-makisama", the weird sister, the weird individual, the f*cking daughter.
If I were to disappear, would they care?!
Some people would view what I did over the weekend as unacceptable. Yet I don't make any excuses for my behavior nor do I want to change what even happened. I DID ask them parents to take me to that school last Saturday because of promises I made and all that. I DID wait. I DID WANT TO GENUINELY GO.
Then comes Sunday. They *finally* ask me if I wanted to go... but I didn't. Nothing to do. Nail stuff (a.k.a. kikay stuff) isn't my thing. Nor did I really want to leave the house. Ok, so I did. I wasn't serious about going to Cash & Carry. It was a Sunday, for tipaklong's sake. It's my sleep day!
Anyway, so yes, dear sis is mad like hell at me again because I didn't show up. And mama predictably got mad at me. My head and thoughts are screaming: SO WHAT. I TOLD YOU I WANTED TO GO LAST SATURDAY. Your answer? No, we have no sticker. No, go ask your dad to bring you somewhere near there (and find a way to go in). And so forth.
I didn't know when kuya came home that he was going back. Didn't even know he left so I wasn't able to ask! Sue me!
Now, I'm the guilty one again, the robot, the "hindi-marunong-makisama", the weird sister, the weird individual, the f*cking daughter.
If I were to disappear, would they care?!