my surriel evening
I told this guy about Savage, Rail and Grail today, and what I remembered about something I'm not going to discuss here and he recognised everyone and every instance I talked about. I started 'making this stuff up when I was 25 or 26. I'm very shaken. He told me thier real names, but Im not getting into that. I'm a bit shakey and a bit teary to know and understand that those things do happen. or have happened.
I dont know what to think or do, I know that I just don't want to write about anything anymore. Whenever I write it turns out that those things actually happened , sometimes, as today it takes me years to find out.l It always shakes me up. Like when I wrote about Tempest .... and found out after talking to him that he had dont things I had written about.
Some of these things I wrote about are terrible and ugly. It fuckes w/me that people do these things..... It shakes me, Im gonna have to drug myself in order to sleep or I wont.
Im write about my little play theory about my mother, its crazy. Of course it took another psychic to let me know I am right. I reallly need to calm down before I do this ritual.
I had a job interview, and I answered all the questions rt cause well, I know the answers. So Im laying out some cards The Magi, the eight of wands and the wheel of fortune. I hope it works, I need a good job.
however my mind is screaming
Im shaking
If anyone has ever read my Rail. Savage and Grail stories they'd understand my distress, but at least I know why I can't write them and keep a copy.
Zele Ravenheart Morning Glory Ravenheart Sharon Longhorn.......
I said one other name tonight but I dont remember it, neither does the freind.
I dont know what to think or do, I know that I just don't want to write about anything anymore. Whenever I write it turns out that those things actually happened , sometimes, as today it takes me years to find out.l It always shakes me up. Like when I wrote about Tempest .... and found out after talking to him that he had dont things I had written about.
Some of these things I wrote about are terrible and ugly. It fuckes w/me that people do these things..... It shakes me, Im gonna have to drug myself in order to sleep or I wont.
Im write about my little play theory about my mother, its crazy. Of course it took another psychic to let me know I am right. I reallly need to calm down before I do this ritual.
I had a job interview, and I answered all the questions rt cause well, I know the answers. So Im laying out some cards The Magi, the eight of wands and the wheel of fortune. I hope it works, I need a good job.
however my mind is screaming
Im shaking
If anyone has ever read my Rail. Savage and Grail stories they'd understand my distress, but at least I know why I can't write them and keep a copy.
Zele Ravenheart Morning Glory Ravenheart Sharon Longhorn.......
I said one other name tonight but I dont remember it, neither does the freind.