ugh
so i'm sure no one has noticed, or at least close to no one has, but i've said some stupid stuff about homecoming. just stuff like how i hate it and crap and i guess in reality i don't hate homecoming i have a great time at the dance and after and with pictures but before everything i get really depressed and i don't know if anyone was wondering but i'm just gonna write about that now because 1 it may help me realize i'm just being stupid and 2 if someone does ask i wont have to explain it all over again. so if you don't care just move along down your friends page or however you're reading this.
so anyway
i guess the whole thing really just makes me feel bad about myself. everyone else gets their perfect dress and if they don't really like it it doesn't matter because it actually does look great and everything. well not me. i get the bottom of the barrel every year (except last but even then i had no choice in dresses) i mean everyone else goes dress shopping and i always find mine randomly and my mom makes me buy it because its cheap and she just wants to get it over with. i guess i've never really found that perfect dress that makes me feel great and i know if any guys are reading this their probably like wtf its just a dress big deal. but to girls it is a big deal. at homecoming you get to dress up and be all fancy and stuff and i always feel like a get screwed when it comes to that. (( i know this sounds materalistic and i shouldn't care that my dress isn't perfect, but i do care so get over it))
also, my mom drives me nuts with this whole thing. it always seems like my stuff just gets thrown together and she spends all of this time on other peoples stuff. i hate it. i just want her to realize that i'm her daughter and that even though i don't act like i want it half the time a complement would be nice every now and then or maybe she could give me jewlery ideas but no, everyone else gets that i don't
and i guess well this year in particular just a lot has been happening with the whole date issue. long story that i'm not going to get into because no one really needs to know everything and if you feel like you need to i guess you can just ask me. but anyway i don't have a date and i don't need one i've gone with out a date before and it was fun but its my senior year and i would just like to go with someone. again i know its not a big deal, but this is my journal so i can complain about what i want.
and yeah i'm sick of talking about depressing aspects of homecoming for now so um good points
* i have cute shoes *
* i didn't have to scramble to find a dress *
* i don't have to worry about my date getting upset with me for dancing with outher people *
* we're going to apple bees and laser tagging *
* my dress is comfy *
i ran out of good things
oh well it doesn't really matter because by the time this gets read by most people homecoming will be over anyway
((wow i sound like a materialist loser oh well))
oh yeah and my sister is getting back surgery on friday so i don't even know what i'm doing about that