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I don't know what is going on right now. As a kid i had to grow up fast through high school I still had to continue growing up quick. I missed out on so much fun. Is it wrong for me to be going back now and doing the things i missed. I mean ya sure i do some pretty immature things, but no one gets hurt and we are all able to laught about things. For some reason things from my past keep comming up to the front of my mind from way in the back. Like how my dad left us when i was like 4. I remeber seeing him go. The only real memory I have of my dad is him leaving I was walking downstairs and he was in the hallway at the bottom of the steps, he had his duffle bag and he was wearing cowboy boots. and i watched him walk out the door. Don't ask me why i remebr that but it is there. The rest of being a kid is nothing but pieces of scattered memories. That is the reason i grew up fast. I was the oldest boy. It was my job to make sure things where taken care of. In grade school I was worring Mom, Heather, and Mick. I found some time to have fun when i could. In high school there i was agian looking out for my mom, my brother, and my sister. People can say that i don't care about anyone but my self, but well that is not true at all. A lot of the time i care about everyone but my self. I can deal with discomfort and pain as long as some one else is happy. I put others happiness and well being way infront of my own most of the time. I avoid confronting people for the most part no matter how much i am hurt by what is done because i figure as long as some can be happy than it will be ok. Then the more recent events that have been comming into my mind are things like my cousine dieing in a car accident a year and 7 months ago. I looked up to Allen. I wanted to be just like him. No one really know how much i really looked up to him. I couldn't even go to his funeral cause i was stuck in Tennessee. But It's in the past i guess.
well i'll let ya'll go.
I don't know what is going on right now. As a kid i had to grow up fast through high school I still had to continue growing up quick. I missed out on so much fun. Is it wrong for me to be going back now and doing the things i missed. I mean ya sure i do some pretty immature things, but no one gets hurt and we are all able to laught about things. For some reason things from my past keep comming up to the front of my mind from way in the back. Like how my dad left us when i was like 4. I remeber seeing him go. The only real memory I have of my dad is him leaving I was walking downstairs and he was in the hallway at the bottom of the steps, he had his duffle bag and he was wearing cowboy boots. and i watched him walk out the door. Don't ask me why i remebr that but it is there. The rest of being a kid is nothing but pieces of scattered memories. That is the reason i grew up fast. I was the oldest boy. It was my job to make sure things where taken care of. In grade school I was worring Mom, Heather, and Mick. I found some time to have fun when i could. In high school there i was agian looking out for my mom, my brother, and my sister. People can say that i don't care about anyone but my self, but well that is not true at all. A lot of the time i care about everyone but my self. I can deal with discomfort and pain as long as some one else is happy. I put others happiness and well being way infront of my own most of the time. I avoid confronting people for the most part no matter how much i am hurt by what is done because i figure as long as some can be happy than it will be ok. Then the more recent events that have been comming into my mind are things like my cousine dieing in a car accident a year and 7 months ago. I looked up to Allen. I wanted to be just like him. No one really know how much i really looked up to him. I couldn't even go to his funeral cause i was stuck in Tennessee. But It's in the past i guess.
well i'll let ya'll go.