i was afraid of this..
Well life goes on im fine and im gonna be alright
**Alright sorry im A.D.D so i had to get that out of the way before i started this up.So on to what i did today..
I didn't actually sleep last night i don't know why i just couldn't sleep..so this morning i had a cup of coffee then decided i was going to go for a run i ended up going to my brothers and let mickey out for a while and just hung out over there cuz he's out of town then then ran some more came home went to panera with my mom and molly then they dropped me off at home and i watched will ferrel greatest hits volume II dvd. Talked to a bunch of people on line then called katie and talked to her for like a hour lol and then sat around some more and ordered pizza and now im eating pizza and watching law and order.Oh and last night my grandpa called that was so rough he didn't want to get off the phone...he was like Em im sorry it was boring i feel bad that there was nothing for you to do otherwise you could've stayed longer..that hurt so bad i didn't know what to tell him i was like grandpa i had my b-ball with me i wish i could've stayed , then he was saying how he was lonesome and all he does is eat and watch tv and get the mail sometimes takes his truck out for a spin and he was wondering how that boyfriend of mine was doin and i had to tell him i didn't have a boyfriend anymore and he got all quiet so i changed the subject and said i missed him so much and he started to cry and then he was like yep yep and then said he loved me so much and missed me and everyone else too and to tell everyone he loved them. Its so hard knowing he's all alone and i can't do anything to comfort him...he told me i was going to be the one to get him going again like his salvation when i was there but i feel like im not helping him at all gah this is another one of those bad months..at least it can only get better. Im kind of thinking of moving up there for a while and going to school there for a semester so i can take care of him...i got to talk it over with my parents and see what they think but im pretty sure thats what i want/need to do.
alright im out
Sorry this is a really long entry...
Love,Em
"Shake it off"
I gotta shake it off
Cause the loving ain't the same
And you keep on playing games
Like you know I'm here to stay
I gotta shake it off
Just like the Calgon commercial
I really gotta get up outta here
And go somewhere
I gotta shake it off
Gotta make that move
Find somebody who
Appreciates all the love I give
Boy I gotta shake it off
Gotta do what's best for me
Baby and that means I gotta
shake it off
**Alright sorry im A.D.D so i had to get that out of the way before i started this up.So on to what i did today..
I didn't actually sleep last night i don't know why i just couldn't sleep..so this morning i had a cup of coffee then decided i was going to go for a run i ended up going to my brothers and let mickey out for a while and just hung out over there cuz he's out of town then then ran some more came home went to panera with my mom and molly then they dropped me off at home and i watched will ferrel greatest hits volume II dvd. Talked to a bunch of people on line then called katie and talked to her for like a hour lol and then sat around some more and ordered pizza and now im eating pizza and watching law and order.Oh and last night my grandpa called that was so rough he didn't want to get off the phone...he was like Em im sorry it was boring i feel bad that there was nothing for you to do otherwise you could've stayed longer..that hurt so bad i didn't know what to tell him i was like grandpa i had my b-ball with me i wish i could've stayed , then he was saying how he was lonesome and all he does is eat and watch tv and get the mail sometimes takes his truck out for a spin and he was wondering how that boyfriend of mine was doin and i had to tell him i didn't have a boyfriend anymore and he got all quiet so i changed the subject and said i missed him so much and he started to cry and then he was like yep yep and then said he loved me so much and missed me and everyone else too and to tell everyone he loved them. Its so hard knowing he's all alone and i can't do anything to comfort him...he told me i was going to be the one to get him going again like his salvation when i was there but i feel like im not helping him at all gah this is another one of those bad months..at least it can only get better. Im kind of thinking of moving up there for a while and going to school there for a semester so i can take care of him...i got to talk it over with my parents and see what they think but im pretty sure thats what i want/need to do.
alright im out
Sorry this is a really long entry...
Love,Em
"Shake it off"
I gotta shake it off
Cause the loving ain't the same
And you keep on playing games
Like you know I'm here to stay
I gotta shake it off
Just like the Calgon commercial
I really gotta get up outta here
And go somewhere
I gotta shake it off
Gotta make that move
Find somebody who
Appreciates all the love I give
Boy I gotta shake it off
Gotta do what's best for me
Baby and that means I gotta
shake it off