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[call_me_useless]

Things have been weird since the accident.
I feel like...an old man??
I have a daily routine.
I wake up at 6.
I either jog or try to run.
I come home and shower.
Go to the shop.
Work.
Come home and eat dinner.
Go to the bar.
work.
Come home and sleep.

I dont have fun.
I dont really hang out.
Its just...sad.
Im only 20.

I need a girlfriend who isnt gona dick me over.
because everyone else in my entire life has- one way or another.
so.
i dont get it. because im nice? and caring.
anyone know why nobody ever stays?