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i can't think of anything right now. my mind is filled out of control. i want it all to stop so i can think clearly for just five minutes. just FIVE minutes.
well, i'll just go ape right here...
why did music become such a huge part of my life? i really don't know. but now it seems as if the time has come, and i need to go with it. i can almost taste it. sometimes when i lay in bed at night, i can see it. i can see the crowd, the lights, the joy that it will all bring to the cats who listen to my band.. it's the only thing i want to do with my life. i just want to play music. i want to play because people before me have tried hard and failed. a small few have found success. i can make it. i know i can. i'm just afraid of the outcome.
will i change? will people who have known me my whole life look at me different? will i become someones hero? like, someday.. will some little dude look up to me and want to drum, the same way i looked up to my dad and keith moon? will someone wait in the snow for 6 hours just to meet me? i don't know. it's all crazy..i think i'm going crazy.
i also want to get married someday..i really do. i never thought i would. the thought of it scared me. seriously. i never wanted to. i never thought that i could do it. i mean, like..grow up and be a man. be a dad. a husband. it's weird. now i don't think like that anymore..i just..feel different about it.
right now, i feel like things finally working out for me. my dreams are coming true, and it's kind of spooky. i get chills all the time. i think of the band and i know it's only a matter of time, and i'm there. i think of what it would be like to be married and have a family someday, and it's like..i don't know.. it's so effing weird.
i used to wonder all the time. what will she be like? what would our first kiss feel like? stupid stuff like that...and now..i don't know. it's like i don't have to wonder anymore.
i feel like i'm already living it. my dream. i just wish i could understand it more.
hold on the phones ringing...
...ok, i didn't answer it in time.
yeah..it's just..i wish i wasn't scared of having things happen to me. especially things like this. the things that are happening in my life right now. it's perfect.
ok, that's enough..i'm insane now..
theKevo has left his mind.
well, i'll just go ape right here...
why did music become such a huge part of my life? i really don't know. but now it seems as if the time has come, and i need to go with it. i can almost taste it. sometimes when i lay in bed at night, i can see it. i can see the crowd, the lights, the joy that it will all bring to the cats who listen to my band.. it's the only thing i want to do with my life. i just want to play music. i want to play because people before me have tried hard and failed. a small few have found success. i can make it. i know i can. i'm just afraid of the outcome.
will i change? will people who have known me my whole life look at me different? will i become someones hero? like, someday.. will some little dude look up to me and want to drum, the same way i looked up to my dad and keith moon? will someone wait in the snow for 6 hours just to meet me? i don't know. it's all crazy..i think i'm going crazy.
i also want to get married someday..i really do. i never thought i would. the thought of it scared me. seriously. i never wanted to. i never thought that i could do it. i mean, like..grow up and be a man. be a dad. a husband. it's weird. now i don't think like that anymore..i just..feel different about it.
right now, i feel like things finally working out for me. my dreams are coming true, and it's kind of spooky. i get chills all the time. i think of the band and i know it's only a matter of time, and i'm there. i think of what it would be like to be married and have a family someday, and it's like..i don't know.. it's so effing weird.
i used to wonder all the time. what will she be like? what would our first kiss feel like? stupid stuff like that...and now..i don't know. it's like i don't have to wonder anymore.
i feel like i'm already living it. my dream. i just wish i could understand it more.
hold on the phones ringing...
...ok, i didn't answer it in time.
yeah..it's just..i wish i wasn't scared of having things happen to me. especially things like this. the things that are happening in my life right now. it's perfect.
ok, that's enough..i'm insane now..
theKevo has left his mind.