I don't feel good
Last night was a good and bad night.
I have a stomach ache right now. I thought it was from not eating so I had some watermelon.
It still hurts, so I'm assuming it's the alcohol getting out of my system. I hope it's that anyway and not what's been on my mind for too long.
I can write and talk about how much I can't deal with things, but nothing ever feels better.
I hate this computer. I get a bad feeling whenever I go on it.
I'm gonna try and clean my room today because it's getting to a point where it's ridiculous. I probably have things living in here other than myself.
So apparently Jack White was at the VPS last night. Eileen and I decided to check it out since there was nothing else to do. We get there and talk to Corin who saw him in the first place and explained that he left hours ago. We ended up getting iced coffees and going to Stinger's. We just sat outside with people. I didn't want to waste the 10 bucks to go in when I could hear everyone loud and clear outside. Fastzio was great as usual. I'm lovin' there new stuff. I bought a USA lighter just because I can. Everyone headed back to Barreda's after the show and I hesitantly followed. At first I was having a great time and then it all went downhill. I couldn't avoid it. My thoughts got the best of me and ruined everything. I decided to take a walk down the block. I sat on the curb and tried to think about happy things, but the moment never came. I tried calling Doug, but he didn't pick up. I headed back after about 20 minutes or so. I actually started washing Nick's dishes. I'm not really sure why, I just felt like doing it. It helped keep my mind off things.
I don't know how to deal with problems which is a huge problem. I can't run away from this one...well technically I can because when I go back to school it'll be distant and easy to avoid. The thing is, running away is not going to help me and I really wish I knew what would help. I would do anything to make this feeling go away.
I just got so down. I think I know why I have this stomach ache....
I have a stomach ache right now. I thought it was from not eating so I had some watermelon.
It still hurts, so I'm assuming it's the alcohol getting out of my system. I hope it's that anyway and not what's been on my mind for too long.
I can write and talk about how much I can't deal with things, but nothing ever feels better.
I hate this computer. I get a bad feeling whenever I go on it.
I'm gonna try and clean my room today because it's getting to a point where it's ridiculous. I probably have things living in here other than myself.
So apparently Jack White was at the VPS last night. Eileen and I decided to check it out since there was nothing else to do. We get there and talk to Corin who saw him in the first place and explained that he left hours ago. We ended up getting iced coffees and going to Stinger's. We just sat outside with people. I didn't want to waste the 10 bucks to go in when I could hear everyone loud and clear outside. Fastzio was great as usual. I'm lovin' there new stuff. I bought a USA lighter just because I can. Everyone headed back to Barreda's after the show and I hesitantly followed. At first I was having a great time and then it all went downhill. I couldn't avoid it. My thoughts got the best of me and ruined everything. I decided to take a walk down the block. I sat on the curb and tried to think about happy things, but the moment never came. I tried calling Doug, but he didn't pick up. I headed back after about 20 minutes or so. I actually started washing Nick's dishes. I'm not really sure why, I just felt like doing it. It helped keep my mind off things.
I don't know how to deal with problems which is a huge problem. I can't run away from this one...well technically I can because when I go back to school it'll be distant and easy to avoid. The thing is, running away is not going to help me and I really wish I knew what would help. I would do anything to make this feeling go away.
I just got so down. I think I know why I have this stomach ache....