The state of Play 2
Time for an update
If your reading this journal then it's possible the state of play could be slightly confusing. So here's my attempt to clarify and don't blame me if you are more confused once I have finished.
For the sake of other people's privacy protagonists will be identified by the broad area where they are located. Here's the main list for initial confusion/clarity ;) Listed in alphabetical order of location because hell if one can be obsessive why not. Two of these I would classify as partners if explaining to a new prospective partner about already existing relationships. I would of course also mention the other.
Cambridge - male early 50's
Cambridge - female late 30's
Norwich - male early 30's
Nuneaton - male - mid 30's
So the complicated relationship setup, where's a Venn diagramme when you need it. Let's go in the order I met them.
Nuneaton and I met probarbly six or so years ago. He lives with his fiance, a beautiful girl that I am very fond of. They have an open/polyamorous relationship and she knows and has no problems with the fact that our relationship spills over into physical intimacy at times. This relationship is based on a strong friendship laced with a heavy dash of pure lust and the ability to with this one person let out the darkest side (though not the sadistic side) of my nature. Nuneaton is the person that I can take my greatest troubles too and know he will objectively listen and if he thinks I need a kick in the arse will give it to me. At times we go months without seeing each other, and even then we do not always do anything beyond friendship. I have not seen him for over a year and whilst I miss him I do not know whether the sexual side of our relationship will spill back into being.
Mr Cambridge and I met, I think it may have been back in February 2009, this year at a BDSM event. Something about him caught my attention and I went over and started chatting. This first time we did not play but he cuddled and looked after me and bought me drinks after my play with Bedford. He is polyamorous and has a primary relationship with his wife. This relationship was supposed to be just playmates and possibly the occasional good clean sexual fun and nothing else.
Ok so who was I kidding. Turns out he is as capable of good clean fun without emotional connections as I am and sometime in September 2009 we both realised that this is becoming more than it started as. He is kind, gentle, caring, with one hell of a sadistic streak. He buys me flowers and gifts, but more importantly gifts me with quality time. Time when we do nothing but have fun together, wether that's a walk, a DVD or a whipping session. Doesn't really matter. He scares me and makes me feel safe all at the same time. And being slow and gentle he just somehow slid under my shields and yes once again I find myself deeply in love. And it's wonderful, and safe because he's not about to want to move in. And scary because he's obviously smitten by me too. This has become the most important, intense relationship I have ever had and I consider Mr Cambridge to be my primary partner, my Love, my Daddy, my SIr and my Master.
Cambridge lady and I met late in 2009. For a while she was my submissive but this did not work well long term for either of us so I terminated the D/S relationship. We became friends with a little extra something I can't quite explain going on. Whenever she is in my company she cannot help but submit to me, and I enjoy being sadistic to her. This relationship defies a label. She is more than a friend but less than a partner. Who needs a label she just is.
Norwich I met early in 2011. We played casually and gradually something deeper developed. Hard to explain as he believes himself to be monogamous even though he has two relationships of sorts going on with polyamorous women. I care for him deeply, it is fair to say that in some ways I love him, but it is not a love that could develop into a stable relationship. So I enjoy the time together in the the knowledge that one day he will want to form a monogamous relationship with someone else. When that time comes it will be painful and I will miss our closeness but I will be happy for him.
So yes. I have four lovely people in my life to various degrees, and a handful of wonderful friends.
I am happy and content and it is really good to be me.
I will try to update a little occasionally because this entry is linked to from the first entry in my journal. 20/08/12. If your interested in ancient history this post replaces this one which is sadly out of date.
If your reading this journal then it's possible the state of play could be slightly confusing. So here's my attempt to clarify and don't blame me if you are more confused once I have finished.
For the sake of other people's privacy protagonists will be identified by the broad area where they are located. Here's the main list for initial confusion/clarity ;) Listed in alphabetical order of location because hell if one can be obsessive why not. Two of these I would classify as partners if explaining to a new prospective partner about already existing relationships. I would of course also mention the other.
Cambridge - male early 50's
Cambridge - female late 30's
Norwich - male early 30's
Nuneaton - male - mid 30's
So the complicated relationship setup, where's a Venn diagramme when you need it. Let's go in the order I met them.
Nuneaton and I met probarbly six or so years ago. He lives with his fiance, a beautiful girl that I am very fond of. They have an open/polyamorous relationship and she knows and has no problems with the fact that our relationship spills over into physical intimacy at times. This relationship is based on a strong friendship laced with a heavy dash of pure lust and the ability to with this one person let out the darkest side (though not the sadistic side) of my nature. Nuneaton is the person that I can take my greatest troubles too and know he will objectively listen and if he thinks I need a kick in the arse will give it to me. At times we go months without seeing each other, and even then we do not always do anything beyond friendship. I have not seen him for over a year and whilst I miss him I do not know whether the sexual side of our relationship will spill back into being.
Mr Cambridge and I met, I think it may have been back in February 2009, this year at a BDSM event. Something about him caught my attention and I went over and started chatting. This first time we did not play but he cuddled and looked after me and bought me drinks after my play with Bedford. He is polyamorous and has a primary relationship with his wife. This relationship was supposed to be just playmates and possibly the occasional good clean sexual fun and nothing else.
Ok so who was I kidding. Turns out he is as capable of good clean fun without emotional connections as I am and sometime in September 2009 we both realised that this is becoming more than it started as. He is kind, gentle, caring, with one hell of a sadistic streak. He buys me flowers and gifts, but more importantly gifts me with quality time. Time when we do nothing but have fun together, wether that's a walk, a DVD or a whipping session. Doesn't really matter. He scares me and makes me feel safe all at the same time. And being slow and gentle he just somehow slid under my shields and yes once again I find myself deeply in love. And it's wonderful, and safe because he's not about to want to move in. And scary because he's obviously smitten by me too. This has become the most important, intense relationship I have ever had and I consider Mr Cambridge to be my primary partner, my Love, my Daddy, my SIr and my Master.
Cambridge lady and I met late in 2009. For a while she was my submissive but this did not work well long term for either of us so I terminated the D/S relationship. We became friends with a little extra something I can't quite explain going on. Whenever she is in my company she cannot help but submit to me, and I enjoy being sadistic to her. This relationship defies a label. She is more than a friend but less than a partner. Who needs a label she just is.
Norwich I met early in 2011. We played casually and gradually something deeper developed. Hard to explain as he believes himself to be monogamous even though he has two relationships of sorts going on with polyamorous women. I care for him deeply, it is fair to say that in some ways I love him, but it is not a love that could develop into a stable relationship. So I enjoy the time together in the the knowledge that one day he will want to form a monogamous relationship with someone else. When that time comes it will be painful and I will miss our closeness but I will be happy for him.
So yes. I have four lovely people in my life to various degrees, and a handful of wonderful friends.
I am happy and content and it is really good to be me.
I will try to update a little occasionally because this entry is linked to from the first entry in my journal. 20/08/12. If your interested in ancient history this post replaces this one which is sadly out of date.