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I've got Beethoven.
I've got the play.
But I have no idea what the fuck else is going on. One's gone, and good riddance. One's head over heels. One's promised to me, but I can taste the dick on her lips. One is deeply and hopelessly straight. What the fuck? I don't like straight girls. It's wrong.
But modesty always gets me, I guess.
She sent me a camera. A camera. An early valentines day gift... just the first part. She really is head over heels, and I better stop trying to tell myself otherwise. I don't know what to do with this one. She's breaking her own heart every time she sends me a package. She's too in love with how I make her feel, and doesn't even realize that it has nothing to do with me. And that breaks my heart. This isn't what I signed up for. I thought best friend implied something different.
I don't know how it will be when she comes home. I do miss her, but...
I wish people could want me without needing me. I wish people just wanted to be friends. I remember feeling ugly and unwanted in high school. What changed? Me, or them?
I've got the play.
But I have no idea what the fuck else is going on. One's gone, and good riddance. One's head over heels. One's promised to me, but I can taste the dick on her lips. One is deeply and hopelessly straight. What the fuck? I don't like straight girls. It's wrong.
But modesty always gets me, I guess.
She sent me a camera. A camera. An early valentines day gift... just the first part. She really is head over heels, and I better stop trying to tell myself otherwise. I don't know what to do with this one. She's breaking her own heart every time she sends me a package. She's too in love with how I make her feel, and doesn't even realize that it has nothing to do with me. And that breaks my heart. This isn't what I signed up for. I thought best friend implied something different.
I don't know how it will be when she comes home. I do miss her, but...
I wish people could want me without needing me. I wish people just wanted to be friends. I remember feeling ugly and unwanted in high school. What changed? Me, or them?