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[call_me_alicia]

what words could ever really describe a broken heart?

why do i say the things i say? why do i constantly make situations worse just by being myself? and having no self control, and just saying whatever the hell comes into my head first. regardless of it i mean it, or want to say it or not.

i don't want it to be like this.

i don't want to end it now, no. and it wasn't nothing to me. it was everything.

but i want everything to be good for you. i don't want to keep causing you unnecessary stress and nonsense.

i can be mature about this, i can be different. because you have always been different to me.

i don't want to just cut you out of my life and pretend like the last month or so never happened. i don't ever want to forget.

i'm sorry i say the things that i say, but they are just coming, pouring out of me because i just don't know what to do.

oh god i'm not ready for this.

let's make the last month the best month? please?

because i don't want to give you up yet. i love you. i do.