Mar 05, 2005 11:27
Could the negative energy be any higher right now? I'm so tired of all of this. I don't even know what to do anymore. How could it have gone on this long? Is it possible to be so oblivious, so wrapped up in your own life that you don't even notice anything going on around you? Maybe it is. I don't think I have ever been like that.. maybe I have. It sickens me to think that I was ever that way. So many people have been affected by this. It really needs to end. It won't end until acceptance is reached. Otherwise, this will all be hopeless.
In other news, way across the country in California/Nevada, my family seems to be switching everything up. My aunt Sabrina is getting married to her boyfriend of two years. She already has a six year old son, my cousin William. I'm really excited for her. I can't wait until the wedding.. possibly in Gualala, California? Who knows. Then I found out that my dear Uncle Charlie is getting married too. Some of you know about my fascinating uncle, the yogi. His girlfriend of about eight years, Peri Ness, is the founder of synergy yoga. Anyway, I'm quite surprised they decided to get married. For some reason I thought they would be against the idea.. it seems they had been spiritual partners for so long that obtaining a marriage license wouldn't seem necessary. But I am so happy for them. They are true soul mates. Then, my grandmom and pops are moving, yet again. They are in their late eighties. My grandmom always has to be moving. I'm afraid it is going to take a toll on them. Hopefully they'll move back to California when they do get up and go. I really don't like Nevada that much. California suits them best.
I'll update later. I can't really think of anything else right now. I have so much homework to do today.. this week has really kicked me in the ass, grade-wise. I got back so many bad grades, blew off so many assignments including an essay on Hamlet. I need to stop this.
I think it is amazing when you listen to a song that so adequately suits everything going on. "Fake Plastic Trees" couldn't be more perfect. It's as if Radiohead wrote it for a situation like this. I never write out song lyrics.. but I just have to right now.
She looks like the real thing
She tastes like the real thing
My fake plastic love
But I can't help the feeling
I could blow through the ceiling
If I just turn and run
It wears me out
It wears me out
If I could be who you wanted
If I could be who you wanted
All the time..