And yet agian....
Why do I do it? Why do I constantly open up my heart and love someone, knowing damn good and well they will take what I give them and toss it carelessly away like a old newspaper? I hate love! I hate everything about it. I hate the pain, the misery, the doubts, the fears, and even all the good shit to, cause it never fucking lasts. I'm actually shocked there is room left to put a dagger in my back. Then agian alot are repeat customers cause I'm a damn idiot. You would think after 30 years of people proving to me that all they wanna do is walk all over me that I'd learn. But noooooo I still wanna believe the best, hope this time will be different. It never is. Some people are meant for greatness, others for wisdom or enlightenment...me I was meant to live in the dark. At least in the dark no one can see you hurt.