Long Time Over due
Hi agian everyone. I know it has been a long time since I wrote in this thing and that's all my fault. But honestly I just have not had the heart to deal with things, let alone discuss them. It's been 6 months since Mama Grace passed and the thought of not seeing her or talking to her still drives a dagger through my heart. I have found myself very skittish with the people in my life, wondering who will be the next person to leave me in one way or another. That's why I have been keeping myself at a distance. You can't get hurt if you aren't close right? Well I was wrong, you can still get hurt, but you do it to yourself. I have found out that it was my friends that made my life bearable. Thankfully some of them still wish to be my rock, my heart and my soul (you know who you are). To those of you whom I have hurt by doing this I apologize and understand if I am not forgiven. I wouldn't forgive me. For those who remain I just ask that you be patiant with me. I'm still very frightened and every day I have to fight the thoughts that you to may leave me, and as much as that thought hurts I'd hate to feel the actual pain. *lots of hugs and kisses* Be at peace and be happy. I love you all.