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Small rant - please excuse me while I freak out.
Ok - this is exactly why I don't talk to you about this. Seriously - you obviously know me better than I know myself, so why do I even bother having a thought about myself. I should just ask you, as you're so knowledgeable. Yeah - I'm not at all screwed up or non-well adjusted. I mean, its not like I don't hide from the world, like you do. No, not at all. Its not like I get scared of change. Its not like I don't react with obsessive-compulsion to stress or change in my life. Nope, never do that. What am I thinking. I'm an entirely normal person..yep. And stop fucking comparing me to my dad like its a terrible thing. Its not. He's my dad, and he may be a jerk, but he's not an entirely horrible human being. Sometimes, I wish that I had been more like him, because sometimes, I just want to be NOTHING like you. You make me scream inside my head, because obviously no one has a problem but you. Its not like I can be depressed, or that I can be more depressed than you. It not like I can't actually be in pain. Its not like sometimes I want to kill myself. Nope - thats only you. When are you going to stop being so selfish and realize that YOU AREN'T THE ONLY ONE THAT HURTS!!! There are other people in the world with problems at least the same as yours, or WORSE.
Ok...I'm done. I just can't handle her...and you probably know who I'm talking about...I'm gonna go now.
Crystal
Ok - this is exactly why I don't talk to you about this. Seriously - you obviously know me better than I know myself, so why do I even bother having a thought about myself. I should just ask you, as you're so knowledgeable. Yeah - I'm not at all screwed up or non-well adjusted. I mean, its not like I don't hide from the world, like you do. No, not at all. Its not like I get scared of change. Its not like I don't react with obsessive-compulsion to stress or change in my life. Nope, never do that. What am I thinking. I'm an entirely normal person..yep. And stop fucking comparing me to my dad like its a terrible thing. Its not. He's my dad, and he may be a jerk, but he's not an entirely horrible human being. Sometimes, I wish that I had been more like him, because sometimes, I just want to be NOTHING like you. You make me scream inside my head, because obviously no one has a problem but you. Its not like I can be depressed, or that I can be more depressed than you. It not like I can't actually be in pain. Its not like sometimes I want to kill myself. Nope - thats only you. When are you going to stop being so selfish and realize that YOU AREN'T THE ONLY ONE THAT HURTS!!! There are other people in the world with problems at least the same as yours, or WORSE.
Ok...I'm done. I just can't handle her...and you probably know who I'm talking about...I'm gonna go now.
Crystal