I am alive
Four hours of sleep, dirty hair and psorias, I know I spelled that wrong. THats what I've been running on for the past few days. Four hours of sleep each night. I feel like a bum,like my house is just a hotel that i don't have to pay for. Starbucks and energy drinks are what keep me awake, I need rest and a nice hot bath. Work is starting to pick up more thats a good thing, considering I got a raise so now my time there is worth more than it was about a week ago. School is a waste of time it seems, I'm passing but I just don't see the point in being there, its everything I already know, and the classes that I'm taking right now seem completely irrelevent to to life. 54 more days and I never have to go back to that place they call school. 54 more days and I get to do what I want school wise, no one forcing me to do something that I don't want to or take classes that I don't want to. I'm excited. My birthday is in 16 days and then I can finally get my tounge peirced and get a real cell phone and not be monitered on everything that I do. I haven't updated here in so long that I almost forgot that this thing even existed. I'm making new friends, keeping the ones that I already have and love close and learning to love life that much more.
My dad still gets on my nerves and asks me for money everytime I get a paycheck. I'm sick of it, I'm never loaning him money again becuase he says he'll have it to me the next day and then it always takes forever to get it back, its bullshit, I work hard for my money and I think that it should be mine, not his, he doesn't work, and if he wants or needs money that bad he should just go out and get his own fucking job and stop blowing what I worked hard for. Graduation is approaching quickly and there are still so many things that I have to do...community service, which I think is a load of shit and cap and gowns come in soon and that will be exciting. I think that throughout the time that I've been in high school I've done everything that I wanted to do. I've made tons of friends, had my share of heartbreaks and more than my share of fun. I hope that everyone's high school days are as fun as mine were, minus the year that I had psriasis, I don't think that anyone should ahve to go through that because let me tell you it fucking sucks. I missed two weeks of school, had skin abreasion and low self confidence and got down on myself for a year, lucky I had/still have all those people in my life who took me for who I am and never let that ugly stage interfere with anything. I love you all.
Rhiannon,
My dear I love you, you're the best friend that anyone could ask for, sure we've had our ups and downs and we'ave gone over our bumpy patches in the road and you've always made sure that I don't do anything so stupid that I'll fuck my life up. So I thank you.
Steve, you'll be here in one week and damn that makes me happy. I can't wait. Your trip here is going to be so much fun and you have no idea, just you wait and see. We'll show you how to party california style, and dammit you're drinking a beer with me, even if its just one. I love you
So yeah, now that you all know that I'm alive and still kicking I'm leaving you on this note.
Love the ones you have, learn to lvoe new people and always leave each minute to the fullest because you never know whats going to happen the in the next.
Peace.
Ps. I just made that up and stuff, the quote thingy, nifty huh
My dad still gets on my nerves and asks me for money everytime I get a paycheck. I'm sick of it, I'm never loaning him money again becuase he says he'll have it to me the next day and then it always takes forever to get it back, its bullshit, I work hard for my money and I think that it should be mine, not his, he doesn't work, and if he wants or needs money that bad he should just go out and get his own fucking job and stop blowing what I worked hard for. Graduation is approaching quickly and there are still so many things that I have to do...community service, which I think is a load of shit and cap and gowns come in soon and that will be exciting. I think that throughout the time that I've been in high school I've done everything that I wanted to do. I've made tons of friends, had my share of heartbreaks and more than my share of fun. I hope that everyone's high school days are as fun as mine were, minus the year that I had psriasis, I don't think that anyone should ahve to go through that because let me tell you it fucking sucks. I missed two weeks of school, had skin abreasion and low self confidence and got down on myself for a year, lucky I had/still have all those people in my life who took me for who I am and never let that ugly stage interfere with anything. I love you all.
Rhiannon,
My dear I love you, you're the best friend that anyone could ask for, sure we've had our ups and downs and we'ave gone over our bumpy patches in the road and you've always made sure that I don't do anything so stupid that I'll fuck my life up. So I thank you.
Steve, you'll be here in one week and damn that makes me happy. I can't wait. Your trip here is going to be so much fun and you have no idea, just you wait and see. We'll show you how to party california style, and dammit you're drinking a beer with me, even if its just one. I love you
So yeah, now that you all know that I'm alive and still kicking I'm leaving you on this note.
Love the ones you have, learn to lvoe new people and always leave each minute to the fullest because you never know whats going to happen the in the next.
Peace.
Ps. I just made that up and stuff, the quote thingy, nifty huh