So yeah...
I finally remembered that I have a livejournal. Woot.
So a lot has happened in the 2 years that I've been missing. Most of it happening in the last 8 months.
I guess I should start with the biggest change: Dan and I broke up. It was WAAAAY back in the last week of 2007. It was just one of those things where we just fell out of love. He was the one who did the breaking up, and I'm actually kind of grateful for it. I would have never had the guts to call it all off. He and I still retain a close friendship, and we still consider each other family, we just aren't romantically involved now. It was hard there for a while, but we both we determined to not hate each other, so we didn't.
In the meantime, life has gone ahead and improved for me. Perhaps it was because I wasn't concentrating on saving a sinking ship anymore, but I'm finding myself more and more content with myself and my life. I know that it definitely stems from the fact that I no longer feel like I need to be constantly fighting the world alongside Dan. He's just one of those personalities that strives in the face of adversity and stagnates when life is calm. I'm good at dealing with sudden and intense hardships, but the constant struggle is too much for me. I like to have my interludes and breaks. Dan never really stops. Not a flaw in him, just an incompatiblity between us that we could never overcome. But not having to constantly scan for potential problems before they stress him out is making me blossom more and I'm drawing in more of the energy that is favorable to me.
I have a job that I really love. It's for a company that does good things for people that don't always get help because of the mistakes they made. And while we have but one focus, we achieve it in many different ways with many different industries. My job is an Executive Assistant, and I deal with all sorts of different people. I can't get too much more into it because it is slightly political. But I really love the potential that this job is giving to me. I can expand into so many different directions. And they pay for school which is a plus.
The job has been doing a lot of increase my confidence, which really had been suffering mostly because I wasn't giving out the energy and feelings that I wanted to give.
It was this confidence that helped me acknowledge that while I lost Dan as a lover/almost husband, I gained a friend. And this friend has been good to me. And is responsible for the other big change and source of happiness I have.
For the 4th of July party, Dan decided to invite over one of his co-workers who had just moved to Florida for the job. While he and I didn't really talk much at the party (i was running around crazy like usual), Dan decided he saw a spark of potential there when he noticed Brandon perusing my book collection and commenting that he read most of them. Dan began a subtle campaign and in the end, Brandon and I started talking.
Little over a month later, I'm now Brandon's live-in girlfriend.
Funny how things work out like that, huh?
He's just as wacky as I am, only he's quieter about it. And since we've started seeing each other, we've spent just about everyday together. He's the polar opposite of Dan in most cases, one notable exception being video game playing. They both talk smack when playing each other. Its amusing. But Brandon is very laid-back, and since he's not as tempestuous and prone to fly off the handle like Dan, he can argue with me. He sometimes argues with me because he likes to see the flustered look on my face. He's guessed (correctly) that I'm not used to people arguing with me.
And he reads. Probably more than I do.
And he cooks. :-)
And life with him is just about fantastic.
What else?
OH! I finally got my driver's license! WOOT! makes me happy. I got to drive the company van the other day! I was so proud. It was all by myself. Brandon's also teaching me how to drive stick, and eventually, I'll be borrowing his car to drive myself to work, rather than him driving me in and me taking the bus.
So yeah, that's the new life. Its very different but I can't help but think this is what I've always wanted.
So a lot has happened in the 2 years that I've been missing. Most of it happening in the last 8 months.
I guess I should start with the biggest change: Dan and I broke up. It was WAAAAY back in the last week of 2007. It was just one of those things where we just fell out of love. He was the one who did the breaking up, and I'm actually kind of grateful for it. I would have never had the guts to call it all off. He and I still retain a close friendship, and we still consider each other family, we just aren't romantically involved now. It was hard there for a while, but we both we determined to not hate each other, so we didn't.
In the meantime, life has gone ahead and improved for me. Perhaps it was because I wasn't concentrating on saving a sinking ship anymore, but I'm finding myself more and more content with myself and my life. I know that it definitely stems from the fact that I no longer feel like I need to be constantly fighting the world alongside Dan. He's just one of those personalities that strives in the face of adversity and stagnates when life is calm. I'm good at dealing with sudden and intense hardships, but the constant struggle is too much for me. I like to have my interludes and breaks. Dan never really stops. Not a flaw in him, just an incompatiblity between us that we could never overcome. But not having to constantly scan for potential problems before they stress him out is making me blossom more and I'm drawing in more of the energy that is favorable to me.
I have a job that I really love. It's for a company that does good things for people that don't always get help because of the mistakes they made. And while we have but one focus, we achieve it in many different ways with many different industries. My job is an Executive Assistant, and I deal with all sorts of different people. I can't get too much more into it because it is slightly political. But I really love the potential that this job is giving to me. I can expand into so many different directions. And they pay for school which is a plus.
The job has been doing a lot of increase my confidence, which really had been suffering mostly because I wasn't giving out the energy and feelings that I wanted to give.
It was this confidence that helped me acknowledge that while I lost Dan as a lover/almost husband, I gained a friend. And this friend has been good to me. And is responsible for the other big change and source of happiness I have.
For the 4th of July party, Dan decided to invite over one of his co-workers who had just moved to Florida for the job. While he and I didn't really talk much at the party (i was running around crazy like usual), Dan decided he saw a spark of potential there when he noticed Brandon perusing my book collection and commenting that he read most of them. Dan began a subtle campaign and in the end, Brandon and I started talking.
Little over a month later, I'm now Brandon's live-in girlfriend.
Funny how things work out like that, huh?
He's just as wacky as I am, only he's quieter about it. And since we've started seeing each other, we've spent just about everyday together. He's the polar opposite of Dan in most cases, one notable exception being video game playing. They both talk smack when playing each other. Its amusing. But Brandon is very laid-back, and since he's not as tempestuous and prone to fly off the handle like Dan, he can argue with me. He sometimes argues with me because he likes to see the flustered look on my face. He's guessed (correctly) that I'm not used to people arguing with me.
And he reads. Probably more than I do.
And he cooks. :-)
And life with him is just about fantastic.
What else?
OH! I finally got my driver's license! WOOT! makes me happy. I got to drive the company van the other day! I was so proud. It was all by myself. Brandon's also teaching me how to drive stick, and eventually, I'll be borrowing his car to drive myself to work, rather than him driving me in and me taking the bus.
So yeah, that's the new life. Its very different but I can't help but think this is what I've always wanted.