hmm
it's sick and almost funny how when things that go wrong in my life tend to happen one after the other.
-one of my best friends calls me trashy
-my bf, whom i accually allowed myself to truely care about (which is the 1st time in a long time that has happened) broke up with me
i'm wondering what's gonna be next?
maybe failing history? forgetting to do somthing important? or maybe all the lovely remarks i'll get from smart ass people. who knows, i know i don't want to. i feel like this is a bad dream and i want to wake up, but maybe i deserve it. for once everything in my life was going well, not with either of my parents (which is stressfull) but in boone, going to my 1st pick school, my friends were being awsome, and i was accually in an awsome relationship. so that lasted less than 2 months for everything to come together for me, i suppose that is all the time whatever is up there thinks i deserve, oh and dad is being an asshole, great fun, not :(
why the hell do i allow myself to care about the people, things, and places in my life?
-one of my best friends calls me trashy
-my bf, whom i accually allowed myself to truely care about (which is the 1st time in a long time that has happened) broke up with me
i'm wondering what's gonna be next?
maybe failing history? forgetting to do somthing important? or maybe all the lovely remarks i'll get from smart ass people. who knows, i know i don't want to. i feel like this is a bad dream and i want to wake up, but maybe i deserve it. for once everything in my life was going well, not with either of my parents (which is stressfull) but in boone, going to my 1st pick school, my friends were being awsome, and i was accually in an awsome relationship. so that lasted less than 2 months for everything to come together for me, i suppose that is all the time whatever is up there thinks i deserve, oh and dad is being an asshole, great fun, not :(
why the hell do i allow myself to care about the people, things, and places in my life?