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THOSE WHO WISH ME DEAD LOOKS FREAKIN AWESOME!! As does Fast n Furious 9, I saw previews of the movie n Letty is in it A LOT more n doing fight scenes, Dom almost dies in front of her, but don't like that Scott Eastwood is taking Paul's spot just like I said 2 movies ago, so probably won't watch it, etc..LAND,IN THE HEIGHTS and BRUISED also look really good!
Love that I have clarity and closure now re: my ex!! Can't believe I ever considered transferring to SVSU for her and hate that she never did that for me cuz she wouldn't even get on a damn plane or put aside her bar $ to make trips a fuckin priority..yeah, anger & hate still there...working on it..
Is there a video out there showcasing how to make your $ cover rent, bills n Savings, like 10% of check goes here, 15% goes there, 10% can cover 2 nights eating out..not pay rent, food, bills, gas for car, invest, side Hussle/buy real estate, do Money Market, and 401K like Nate O'Brien vids? Hmm, did hear about the 50 necessities/30 eating out/20 spending rule n trying NerdWallet's app for it..I will probably need 80/20/0 hehe for a while.
June 11th reopening of IL, do a walk down to my 3 fast food places to see if they are doing DINE IN/take out so my $5 meal won't be $16 w/DoorDash??
Foods: eating soup n crackers as quick, healthy lunches couple times/wk..Drink 2-3 bottles water/day during 12 day heatwave ( we are on Day 7 of it, drinking EXTRA soda but I am not feeling jittery, dizzy or have headaches n rather feel fine so maybe just RIGHT given extra hot conditions).....Deadliest Catch: Bloodline was great, although I didn't like the pranks..
Washed my big bubble coat/my Adidas thermal along w/other winter stuff ( was going to donate but my Mom wanted some of the items, she told me that a few of my winter items would be good if I ever go to VNP/Kaumana n who knows how cold Kea'au could get)!! Donate my big dresser/art supplies too next week?? Toss my kayak ( too bad my rack wasn't strong enough to hold it, put on my Versa rack?) next week....Do closet packing n widdle down clothes some more b4 mid June?....No, NOT getting Smart TV, don't care if my LCD one I plan on getting when I move 'won't work' or whatever in 5 yrs....hope Hilo has those AirTV boxes..
Holy Shit! Run in w/another pit bull again! Luckily I was there but still took a while to get the dog to the owner..LADY ON CL COULD ONLY AFFORD $600-$800 BUT wanted a one or 2 bedroom at that price ( either studio or room in a house at that price)!! Doesn't do well in small spaces n can't have any stairs..another reason why I don't want roommates..Laughing at myself, me saying I don't drink/smoke, never been arrrested and never had attendance probs at work, might sound made up/not real...
Thinking bout NY, pros/cons of city life ( noisy, lotta ppl, conjested, crime) vs that of suburbs ( boring, quiet, safe) vs that of country ( quiet, boring, not a lot of ppl, safe) vs that of rural ( not a lot of resources, not a lot of ppl, nothing going for it, crime iffy) ..relate it to living in various towns on the Big Island...
shows: ANCIENT ALIENS, NEW AMSTERDAM, ZOEY'S, 911 N 911 LONE STAR, THIS IS US/AMLT kinda hard to watch this season, SVU, MANIFEST, ALL RISE ( cancelled this season, bc of the ' extra 'BLM/police brutality/minorities given harsher sentences' spotlight?) REBEL SUCKS, The Good Doctor has been really good this season, THE CONNERS, THE NEIGHBORHOOD, House Hunters International, My Lottery Dream Home/LDH International, Happily Wherever ( $2,480 for a 700 sq ft apt in L.A.!), HOME ECONOMICS, I can take or leave Debris, no Stabler in Organized Crime for me, love BOB HEARTS ABISHOLA, Station 19 ( gave it another shot when I saw that Carina was going to be on more & as love interest for Maya)..
Miss having GAC w/Log Cabin Fever and Going RV..CW APP ISSUES OF NOT PLAYING SHOWS BY ORDER IN WHICH YOU LAST VIEWED, if miss a week have to go back 2 eps ( by going INTO Shows, then searching for it) vs trying to watch the 2nd ep n being taken to the 1st so you don't miss anything plot wise. I see The Republic of Sarah as being a hit:)..Started reading some of my Hindu books via app & have really enjoyed it.
SNABBA CASH GOOD? Yeah...Feel Good s2 ( stopped after ep 3, was just weirder than usual), MOST DANGEROUS GAME ( Liam Hemsworth Roku originals series ( Cypher was good as was The Code)), BLUE MIRACLE ( Mom negativity oh of course they win), don't u want to watch feel good movies when compared to shit in the news)...Hard to not get mad at Bob when he said how long will I give myself before coming back? Reality of 6 months or if no find a place, 2 weeks..
Freeport has had 3 gang related shootings within a week couple wks ago! Janesville couple rare shootings too..
1 downtown shooting 3 Mondays ago around 1:30 PM, 1 shooting Wed night, 1 on Friday n 2 shootings on Saturday...we have had our usual 1-2 shootings/day lately n even a few stabbings. Former coworker's apt broken into & quite a bit stolen:(...
My little brother going to buy a car/van to live in, cheaper than rent? Time will tell..
Really want to OWN something. Don't want a landlord telling me to move and don't want a landlord who won't fix shit either ( my Mom is FINALLY withholding rent for this month), afraid to mention repairs cuz what if you get evicted?? Pukihae place $840 for DayLum place, semi ' bad' area ( rent covers electric n water too)..Get slack if in bad area ( oh, trying to be down or help us turn around?) Or in good area ( too scared/better have no crime)...
1st time home buyer grants of $17-$20K can go towards apt/condos too or strictly single fam home? My $92K-110K reasonable if almost $20K covered..Loved the 1 bedroom w/cute kitchen on 1 acre (& a 40' shipping container comes with it the ad said! ) for a total of $120K in Kea'au ( Paradise Park really?) Bummer:(..Did find cute cabin for $55K in Paradise Park ( worse, Volcano, 30 miles from Hilo)...
Housing market skyrocket, not here, Big Island or Virginia ( $27K for 7 bedroom house in Dickinson, VA?, Land of coal n air n water, bet utilities are a lot too, NO THANKS!)..
CBS cancelled Stalker few yrs ago, Mom, The Unicorn and now All Rise?! It's going to be the new Netflix now ( why get into a show if only around 1 or 2 seasons?)!
Get my free Hawaii Island visitor magazine ( vs their $20/bundle)?? Mag was just ok, not the maps n resources someone moving would want, more visitor crap..
Tell it to The Bees movie was good...Want to see The World To Come, 145, Ammonite ( maybe) n Same But Different!
L.A./Dallas has some bike lanes but literally 0 other protections/infrastructure for cyclists, if ppl still do it there/5 miles is bikeable, can I make Hilo work??
New litter or Aloe Vera Gel to blame for itchy red welts on me lately?? AV, stopped using it for a few days n welts went away:)...
Mom back at the gym n has 2nd job now that she has been at for a month working every other weekend.. I am trying to do phone stuff at night of texting vs texting/YouTube/fanfic/surfing the Net to be more present but all this waiting/ looking to find jobs/apts makes it easy to want to 'lose yourself'.
Love that the YURT/BUS home on PropertyShark n the 2 Mountain View homes were tiny house inspired w/materials, layout and look were ALL on the Big Island ( 0 were Hilo tho & pretty cheap, 1 was $120K, 1 in Ocean View was $125 & all off grid= no bills but uber far! n the highest was $199K, all great new construction builds too)..maybe my TH can actually be ONE if Hilo gets into them!!..no Tiny House Assoc. Love that Affordable Portable Hawaii homes too...
I liked the Whittier, Alaska apt complex/town view from townspeople on CBS SUNDAY MORNING, I hope to find stuff at Deals and Steals, antique store, Paradise Plants ( good home decor section), etc vs just seeing what Amazon/Wayfair has ( unless uber cheap or NOTHING ON ISLAND).
Had tech issues earlier last week w/ my phone: I hate AutoCorrect n hate that Google searches hardly get you the right simple answer..Autocorrect not under Languages? I want spell checker but NOT change the word crap..found it in Gboard! Keep spell checker n ditch auto correct...
Fucking spammers calling me to get on the Advantage Program ( loan of $50K), called back after 4th message that week, asked to be taken off mailing list/call list, got asked do I know what the Advantage Program is and I will take off after you hear my spchel, didn't take me off, asshole!
Hope can get 1 way ticket deal IF do have to fly back, waiting cuz what if I do get a place?
Pluto TV for THN kinda sucks, yeah, on everyday but it's always just season 1-4...I have seen those countless times!! There is like 5 more seasons, PLAY THEM!
Wish vanlife n TH were more geared towards low budget ppl vs 6 figures or more nowadays...yeah, you can salvage but who has space to stockpile crap n if you end up not building, you gotta get rid of all that crap..n what if you can't find a lot?
Half an hour to register screen protector Pure Pledge! SKU #, IMEI #, Model #, Pure Pledge CODE, crap!! Other tech stuff: got signed out of all my apps I guess when transfer happened and now some are having problems just logging in ( not even getting to the password). Wish could refresh Indeed jobs apps or block all the ones I either don't have qualifications or experience for...new iPad was used but still sold to us for $300? Easier setup/transfer than phone? Find out later this week...
Indeed app issues still, no removal of job removal posts n why even ' Give Feedback' if same company posts jobs day/wks after, they need an experience option/qualifications option, throwing in Nursing n Construction cuz FT? Applied to last resort Jamba Juice/Jack in the Box/HK even and yesterday, applied to 3 different Hilo Med jobs( 1 means 5th time doing it n 2nd is 3rd)..
Tulsa, OK Black Wall Street massacre on the Today Show and more on depth documentaries. Saw 1 on CNBC called Blood on Black Wall Street n the 1 on CNN ( no good showtimes), watched CBS special Memorial Day night instead..CBS special went along w/same story that was in the papers whereas CNBC said that they were together, in love & he didn't attack her...I didn't know that those who weren't killed were prevented from rebuilding by new laws put in place n were forced to move out of their neighborhoods into the ghetto and freeways were put in instead...still going on today, 1 lady had her $750 rent raised to $1500! Pricing ppl out is discriminatory...
Mike Tyson ABC Special, don't like the 'conspiracy' angle they were going w/ cuz he's black, he didn't rape her. Played into how the media wanted, it's not their fault, that is how Mike was!
Fitness: have 7 bodyweight/full body workouts on Darebee's site since the download happened ( but couldn't open due to not having the right app, took screenshots instead), found 1 on different planks ( try for that once/week?)..1 week hope to do 2 sets/day n 2 yogas next month!!
My Mom finally replaced my Reebok duffel...this time with an Adidas one...but she wanted to give me her big newly purchased backpack due to her ordering a small 1 but my current one is fine n don't like her always thinking something is crap bc it it's old, if it is still holding up/no rips or tearing, it is FINE to me...she always something has to be better n that means NEW ( like how she wants me to replace my iPod shuffle, a bday gift from her btw)...talking about her car is crappy in her 2nd family's neighborhood, why all status shit? Nice apt in nicest part of town, expensive furniture, expensive car? Why invest if not getting Mil from it, like $20K not worth it?
Land prices/house prices has me hopeful to get an apt for $92K-110K at least ( sometimes 1-2 bed, some just studios, depending on neighborhood location/Flood Zone/Lava Zone locations too?) in Hilo....few houses were under $300K though...does that FHA grant of $17K get applied if house buying is an apartment?
Mom sees saving as waste of time/opportunity cuz what if u die before spending all of it, will never save $300/month so why save ANYTHING, so moral is never having a lot due to impulsive spending/no restrictions?
Saw that a new apartment complex on Kinoole could be on my radar if someone snaps up the rental ready property that just hit the market at just $1 Million for 20 apartments n 3 store fronts.....Rockford real estate, buy a house for $160K ( $800/month re: your property tax/interest/monthly mortgage) combined that's as much as rent in some of our neighborhoods...
Saved $20 on lotto impulse buy by just being happy w/$6 of free $ towards it as reward for picking stuff up for ppl in the house 2 wks! N saw my ATM declining my $20 withdrawal a few days later as a sign...used $5 in change to get a Powerball w/Powerplay n a Lotto n 1 other Powerball due to picking up 2 sodas for my Aunt...won a few times n am playing off them ONLY!
Really going to love getting bentos from KTA or Kawamoto Store ( bentos, malasadaa and musubis, all cheap!! As long as not more than 2 miles, it will be a worth even a daily trip) n musubis real cheap from mostly anywhere I bet hehe n have never really done 80%-95% generic/sales stuff ONLY so maybe really will help, see about Foodland prices too, not just KTA/CostULess..maybe Farmer's Market has more food items than just breads/produce?? I am going to be smart and factor the eating out budget INTO my food budget of the week to avoid overspending....
I think the thing I love most about Hawaii is everything is melding together, cultures ( lot of mixed kids here), food (Hawaiian food is mostly Asian/Portguese w/a few actual Hawaiian items, but ALL are BIG here) n even music, some Reggae, some slack key, some ukulele, all MIXED together...
Didn't even dawn on my Aunt as she was telling me she wished she knew Spanish so she would be more desireable in the job market in Cali, why should we as Americans have to learn a language to better compete w/ undocumented ppl who come into our country? In all our chats, she brings up the Aloha spirit/community feel ( esp fundraising) of Hilo but has said NOTHING like that for San Diego Co...ya don't know your neighbors in Cali.....
Set up 2 Mercari ADS ( yes, Titus N bar Mitts, how to set up card/only paypal?,
Self care: find myself feeling guilty if I want to eat a bag of 8 oz chips in 1 day..and need to spread stuff out, trying to do too much in 1 day makes me put it off but 1 thing a day is workable!
Possible beds for new place: Twin/Full Air mattress ( get free pallets? Get Mattress Firm deal in Hilo of $150-$200?).. Or cot/sleeping pad ( bar across the middle?) or chair that turns into a bed ( love Scandavian one) stability for back or going to dip soon/ sleeping pad essentially not thick enough & not memory foam, get the one that looks like it's in a drawer? OR Japanese futon (on top of pallets, no sleeping low for me ) really like the simple/minimalistic look of both foreign bed styles..
Going to love the 'shopping' icon to compare prices!! Lowe's might be cheaper, or CostULess, who knows! Scandavian style night stand or Paradise Plants 2 tables ( 1 dining, 1 nighstand)?? Try local then branch out to Wayfair/Amazon w/ free/cheap Shipping to HI!
Verizon guy, all save everything Google/Google Drive/Google Photos crap, yeah, not if they want to charge me, get something else. Hope to get AirTV (DVR box)?
Apt search on hold ( PP took OFF the cute 150 sq ft Kinoole listing BUT NOT the Kilauea 1 6 days later??) DL sucks ( Google reviews : '20: 3 reviews bad: tell u place is ready, you fly there, not ready for 2 wks if self employed says you don't make enough n you didn't really get approved ( but we took ur $25 rental app fee n they raise the rent! N 730 not good enough credit, wtf? Look for PP ( no rent to mainlanders ( nvm, I am a local) or whites ( RACISM against whites has always been here) n no help after/app process long, apt listed but not available in reality) Lehua, Waiakea View ( not Lagoon View or renamed?,(get apt w/just microwave vs some w/ full kitchen if cheaper n do Bravo XL, Microwave n toaster) n Arruda on Google?)/MO check for a week, nice to ease off anxiety of needing to find listing FIRST, my situation ok for them, & will this employer give me a shot? Haven't seen any ppl get turned down if applying ON the island...
Maybe private person/CL ad is BETTER than PM? Arruda Properties ($1K-1200 ( Leilani Estates/Puna!), $550-700 for room for rent means roommates n NOT a sleeping room like Bob/NY guy has, right? Didn't like her attitude w/ her answer of rent is up on BI just like everywhere else! Dk if all utilities or not), Ginoza Realty n Hilo Bay Realty ( 2 ladder are too expensive (1200+), all under PM)? A lot are AirBnBers using them to run their house/condo, not the same as ppl in complex.. Lehua Apts had good reviews/good neighbors/nice area/cheap, put in an Alert for listings there/Ching Studios ( no alert for 333 Lehua , DL property) n emailed Arruda..Do jobs every few days, reinforces ya gotta be on the island ( applying for apts 2 wks I am in Hilo)...
Damn, 2592 had 2 uber affordable rooms for rent, 1 for $400 n 1 in better area/better upkeep for $500 but share bathroom (n kitchen?) what if they only PM to approve me ( 0 visitors or overnight guests? Wtf?), same issue as PP tho, some sites off market, some not? A lot of reviews are on buying/selling & NOT as rental building...Dk if my sister was talking about housing rentals vs apts re: rents NOT raising yearly...another reason to BUY as soon as I can, buy best house for my budget, no expensive HOA if condo, see if HomeOwners Insurance/Hurricane too much 4 a house or do as much off grid as I can...Look into Lehua/ CL and last resort Hilo Village Apts, knew it would be HARD but didn't expect IMPOSSIBLE....Sunny Island RV/Camping World RV ( now have Greater Rockford Auto Auction too)waiting/hope still for my Aunt. Worse comes to worse, renting something..
Druggies anywhere so might as well risk downtown area if cheaper, can always make it safer..Hank Correa Realty had a nice $1K rental w/ all bills included (WiFi too? Get Bravo XL to not use stove! Get Copper Chef induction cooktop single burner vs double since better efficiency n fits my 12" pan if have a place w/ no kitchen or if stove ever breaks, really like the idea of a simple kitchen).. Stick to just 2-3 rows in fridge, simulate 4.5 cubic foot fridge I hope to get 1 day, big rugs!).
I have sent 4 messages to Hank Correa and even called ( but got a flirty ' heeey, Hi'! from the woman who answered vs 'Hank Correa Realty' so idk, try again later.. Zumper/Rent.com has $900-1350 places, not all bills included.
Tried Orgain SuperFoods mix w/water ( eww) &/or yogurt ( better)... Sassy barfing n weight loss due to Obie n hairballs? We are giving her hairball stuff n have been giving her extra food for the past 2 wks..
Missy's husband diabetic? 666 blood sugar!
Missy might have custody battle w/ her ex if her husband adopts my nephew (my niece has had 2 ear infections within 2 wks)!
Fucking phone bill shit, I just wanted a phone that works w/ apps, didn't need new tablet, not having a disagreement in front of the guy at damn Verizon..paying $150/$336 bill n $80 ($63 is phone + service/insurance & $20 fees/taxes/fuck of $200 now bill n Mom's part now $130 ( get extra cash this month, walk to do deposit, mail Money Order to me in the future since we have different cards so no transferring $?)! It will be ok but damn, wanted a cheaper bill but 0 places are doing 2 lines..
I really like CNBC Make It YouTube variety section featuring the realistic budgeting of normal salaries ( less than $60K) n SOME of the Nate O'Brien vids have been helpful... Love Island filming in Hilo ( dk if town gets noticed, or just Kona).
Get Money Order back from Post Office! Nope, lady said they don't void em and my Mom went in & tried to say maybe it's lost so they'll investigate & give me my $ back that way, but she said the lady was being a BITCH, so calling the National number n saying we can't go in to make the inquiry like you're supposed to...
Kegels ship bikes stuff soon, less expensive the less disassembled? Send Bob stuff!! Recycling too HARD in Hawaii? Updated brochure to what is accepted & where, 0 paper/plastics, cardboard ok?...get composting bin ( paper add?)? How do I ALWAYS have a protected network/ safe WiFi on 24/7, Verizon? VPN help, lil key NOT showing, settings show NONE under VPN, wtf, not supported by Digital Secure, need ANOTHER BETTER APP NOW?
Sam's Pizza yesterday as it was 91 ( SB deal, try RC soda, might need generic for future! It was good...Cyclamate still in it? Nope! Hopper has 1 way for $288 for July 13th, wait still..
book boxes/cleaning walls/floors tomorrow n doing some more clothes packing this weekend( do everything before noon, with fan on, am doing ok, have 2 fans on for sleeping sometimes when it is still in the 80's)...found some COOL FLIP PHONES I still had! Hmm, just get Kyocera Extreme 1 day FAR OFF? Wet t shirt for me/doggies has helped today when it hit 94! $840 for another DayLum place looks nice!? Apply when THERE! Make sure they do at least a 6 month lease so have time to save in case they do raise rents..I wish more homes in Hilo weren't for multigenerational families & sucks that most the starter homes were washed away in that Tsunami in 1960...
Watching Netflix show called Sweet Tooth soon, it looks really good!
Show was awesome! I finished Feel Good and while it was ok, I really just watched it cuz there was nothing interesting to watch instead...
Update: 6/12/2021: 8 AM, Hank Correa rental got rented already not even a week listed! Found out they do count Savings as income towards rent so them & Hilo Villages can be on my list next week to try to set stuff up... Currently in the mid '80's as I watch Tiny House World before cleaning up bin area, getting rid of my kayak n cleaning that area ( cleaning floors only, washing the baseboards/walls w/ scrub brush n soap didn't do much), had our 2 hottest days yesterday and Thursday, 99 & 97! 0 workouts except 40 mountain climbers or side leg raises here n there...looks like I will toss my kettlebell since shipping it somewhere would cost too much.
Need to figure out right box to ship my portfolio that isn't Michael's hardcase for $150 OR Lowe's box that is waay too big AND long. Getting my PLANE BOX next week from Lowe's via bus:)! Idk, hard to stay motivated to pack when certain property managers won't rent to you since Savings isn't income but my Unemployment technically is ( I didn't know that HARDLY anyone will take cash upfront, who the fuck turns down paid in full?)...
Big shock: my local Wendy's, McD's AND Burger King are all still closed to dine in/ take out....yeah, really glad in Hilo,you eat at local places vs National chains, so screw them!
Idk what to do when my Mom talks about 1 of the families she babysits for. She gets all involved in their lives and forgets that she can't control what happens. I can't help that the lawyer didn't have any knowledge of the Dad's past behavior towards his ex and the kids, but obviously the Judge ( who did know, cuz he said well you did live w/ him for more than 5 yrs and he was abusive towards you AND your kids most of the duration & it didn't bother you, but now he can't have visitation?) let the Dad have visits...my Mom said the ex wants to get back w/ him, if she does, then she IS saying she is OK w/ the treatment, right? What if we give her all this help and in the end, she stops the custody crap & says he's moving back in?
How come if I see or hear of something but DON'T do anything to help, then I am complicit & it's ok in my book but if it is HAPPENING to me, & I do nothing, that doesn't mean it's ok? Why does the witness get that judgement from ppl, what if they just don't want to possibly get killed, have to fight to live or get hurt & can't work but can't judge the victim? What about when the woman attacks you, then she is ok w/ everything, right? Almost feels like when dealing w/ addicts, you need to just accept shit won't change & walk away, can't help if they don't want help, they know the consequences, it's been almost 8 yrs, dude ain't changing NOTHING if he doesn't have to..chick needs to get stronger, she has a great job and she lives in a very part of Loves Park in a 4 bedroom house. She has options.
Love that I have clarity and closure now re: my ex!! Can't believe I ever considered transferring to SVSU for her and hate that she never did that for me cuz she wouldn't even get on a damn plane or put aside her bar $ to make trips a fuckin priority..yeah, anger & hate still there...working on it..
Is there a video out there showcasing how to make your $ cover rent, bills n Savings, like 10% of check goes here, 15% goes there, 10% can cover 2 nights eating out..not pay rent, food, bills, gas for car, invest, side Hussle/buy real estate, do Money Market, and 401K like Nate O'Brien vids? Hmm, did hear about the 50 necessities/30 eating out/20 spending rule n trying NerdWallet's app for it..I will probably need 80/20/0 hehe for a while.
June 11th reopening of IL, do a walk down to my 3 fast food places to see if they are doing DINE IN/take out so my $5 meal won't be $16 w/DoorDash??
Foods: eating soup n crackers as quick, healthy lunches couple times/wk..Drink 2-3 bottles water/day during 12 day heatwave ( we are on Day 7 of it, drinking EXTRA soda but I am not feeling jittery, dizzy or have headaches n rather feel fine so maybe just RIGHT given extra hot conditions).....Deadliest Catch: Bloodline was great, although I didn't like the pranks..
Washed my big bubble coat/my Adidas thermal along w/other winter stuff ( was going to donate but my Mom wanted some of the items, she told me that a few of my winter items would be good if I ever go to VNP/Kaumana n who knows how cold Kea'au could get)!! Donate my big dresser/art supplies too next week?? Toss my kayak ( too bad my rack wasn't strong enough to hold it, put on my Versa rack?) next week....Do closet packing n widdle down clothes some more b4 mid June?....No, NOT getting Smart TV, don't care if my LCD one I plan on getting when I move 'won't work' or whatever in 5 yrs....hope Hilo has those AirTV boxes..
Holy Shit! Run in w/another pit bull again! Luckily I was there but still took a while to get the dog to the owner..LADY ON CL COULD ONLY AFFORD $600-$800 BUT wanted a one or 2 bedroom at that price ( either studio or room in a house at that price)!! Doesn't do well in small spaces n can't have any stairs..another reason why I don't want roommates..Laughing at myself, me saying I don't drink/smoke, never been arrrested and never had attendance probs at work, might sound made up/not real...
Thinking bout NY, pros/cons of city life ( noisy, lotta ppl, conjested, crime) vs that of suburbs ( boring, quiet, safe) vs that of country ( quiet, boring, not a lot of ppl, safe) vs that of rural ( not a lot of resources, not a lot of ppl, nothing going for it, crime iffy) ..relate it to living in various towns on the Big Island...
shows: ANCIENT ALIENS, NEW AMSTERDAM, ZOEY'S, 911 N 911 LONE STAR, THIS IS US/AMLT kinda hard to watch this season, SVU, MANIFEST, ALL RISE ( cancelled this season, bc of the ' extra 'BLM/police brutality/minorities given harsher sentences' spotlight?) REBEL SUCKS, The Good Doctor has been really good this season, THE CONNERS, THE NEIGHBORHOOD, House Hunters International, My Lottery Dream Home/LDH International, Happily Wherever ( $2,480 for a 700 sq ft apt in L.A.!), HOME ECONOMICS, I can take or leave Debris, no Stabler in Organized Crime for me, love BOB HEARTS ABISHOLA, Station 19 ( gave it another shot when I saw that Carina was going to be on more & as love interest for Maya)..
Miss having GAC w/Log Cabin Fever and Going RV..CW APP ISSUES OF NOT PLAYING SHOWS BY ORDER IN WHICH YOU LAST VIEWED, if miss a week have to go back 2 eps ( by going INTO Shows, then searching for it) vs trying to watch the 2nd ep n being taken to the 1st so you don't miss anything plot wise. I see The Republic of Sarah as being a hit:)..Started reading some of my Hindu books via app & have really enjoyed it.
SNABBA CASH GOOD? Yeah...Feel Good s2 ( stopped after ep 3, was just weirder than usual), MOST DANGEROUS GAME ( Liam Hemsworth Roku originals series ( Cypher was good as was The Code)), BLUE MIRACLE ( Mom negativity oh of course they win), don't u want to watch feel good movies when compared to shit in the news)...Hard to not get mad at Bob when he said how long will I give myself before coming back? Reality of 6 months or if no find a place, 2 weeks..
Freeport has had 3 gang related shootings within a week couple wks ago! Janesville couple rare shootings too..
1 downtown shooting 3 Mondays ago around 1:30 PM, 1 shooting Wed night, 1 on Friday n 2 shootings on Saturday...we have had our usual 1-2 shootings/day lately n even a few stabbings. Former coworker's apt broken into & quite a bit stolen:(...
My little brother going to buy a car/van to live in, cheaper than rent? Time will tell..
Really want to OWN something. Don't want a landlord telling me to move and don't want a landlord who won't fix shit either ( my Mom is FINALLY withholding rent for this month), afraid to mention repairs cuz what if you get evicted?? Pukihae place $840 for DayLum place, semi ' bad' area ( rent covers electric n water too)..Get slack if in bad area ( oh, trying to be down or help us turn around?) Or in good area ( too scared/better have no crime)...
1st time home buyer grants of $17-$20K can go towards apt/condos too or strictly single fam home? My $92K-110K reasonable if almost $20K covered..Loved the 1 bedroom w/cute kitchen on 1 acre (& a 40' shipping container comes with it the ad said! ) for a total of $120K in Kea'au ( Paradise Park really?) Bummer:(..Did find cute cabin for $55K in Paradise Park ( worse, Volcano, 30 miles from Hilo)...
Housing market skyrocket, not here, Big Island or Virginia ( $27K for 7 bedroom house in Dickinson, VA?, Land of coal n air n water, bet utilities are a lot too, NO THANKS!)..
CBS cancelled Stalker few yrs ago, Mom, The Unicorn and now All Rise?! It's going to be the new Netflix now ( why get into a show if only around 1 or 2 seasons?)!
Get my free Hawaii Island visitor magazine ( vs their $20/bundle)?? Mag was just ok, not the maps n resources someone moving would want, more visitor crap..
Tell it to The Bees movie was good...Want to see The World To Come, 145, Ammonite ( maybe) n Same But Different!
L.A./Dallas has some bike lanes but literally 0 other protections/infrastructure for cyclists, if ppl still do it there/5 miles is bikeable, can I make Hilo work??
New litter or Aloe Vera Gel to blame for itchy red welts on me lately?? AV, stopped using it for a few days n welts went away:)...
Mom back at the gym n has 2nd job now that she has been at for a month working every other weekend.. I am trying to do phone stuff at night of texting vs texting/YouTube/fanfic/surfing the Net to be more present but all this waiting/ looking to find jobs/apts makes it easy to want to 'lose yourself'.
Love that the YURT/BUS home on PropertyShark n the 2 Mountain View homes were tiny house inspired w/materials, layout and look were ALL on the Big Island ( 0 were Hilo tho & pretty cheap, 1 was $120K, 1 in Ocean View was $125 & all off grid= no bills but uber far! n the highest was $199K, all great new construction builds too)..maybe my TH can actually be ONE if Hilo gets into them!!..no Tiny House Assoc. Love that Affordable Portable Hawaii homes too...
I liked the Whittier, Alaska apt complex/town view from townspeople on CBS SUNDAY MORNING, I hope to find stuff at Deals and Steals, antique store, Paradise Plants ( good home decor section), etc vs just seeing what Amazon/Wayfair has ( unless uber cheap or NOTHING ON ISLAND).
Had tech issues earlier last week w/ my phone: I hate AutoCorrect n hate that Google searches hardly get you the right simple answer..Autocorrect not under Languages? I want spell checker but NOT change the word crap..found it in Gboard! Keep spell checker n ditch auto correct...
Fucking spammers calling me to get on the Advantage Program ( loan of $50K), called back after 4th message that week, asked to be taken off mailing list/call list, got asked do I know what the Advantage Program is and I will take off after you hear my spchel, didn't take me off, asshole!
Hope can get 1 way ticket deal IF do have to fly back, waiting cuz what if I do get a place?
Pluto TV for THN kinda sucks, yeah, on everyday but it's always just season 1-4...I have seen those countless times!! There is like 5 more seasons, PLAY THEM!
Wish vanlife n TH were more geared towards low budget ppl vs 6 figures or more nowadays...yeah, you can salvage but who has space to stockpile crap n if you end up not building, you gotta get rid of all that crap..n what if you can't find a lot?
Half an hour to register screen protector Pure Pledge! SKU #, IMEI #, Model #, Pure Pledge CODE, crap!! Other tech stuff: got signed out of all my apps I guess when transfer happened and now some are having problems just logging in ( not even getting to the password). Wish could refresh Indeed jobs apps or block all the ones I either don't have qualifications or experience for...new iPad was used but still sold to us for $300? Easier setup/transfer than phone? Find out later this week...
Indeed app issues still, no removal of job removal posts n why even ' Give Feedback' if same company posts jobs day/wks after, they need an experience option/qualifications option, throwing in Nursing n Construction cuz FT? Applied to last resort Jamba Juice/Jack in the Box/HK even and yesterday, applied to 3 different Hilo Med jobs( 1 means 5th time doing it n 2nd is 3rd)..
Tulsa, OK Black Wall Street massacre on the Today Show and more on depth documentaries. Saw 1 on CNBC called Blood on Black Wall Street n the 1 on CNN ( no good showtimes), watched CBS special Memorial Day night instead..CBS special went along w/same story that was in the papers whereas CNBC said that they were together, in love & he didn't attack her...I didn't know that those who weren't killed were prevented from rebuilding by new laws put in place n were forced to move out of their neighborhoods into the ghetto and freeways were put in instead...still going on today, 1 lady had her $750 rent raised to $1500! Pricing ppl out is discriminatory...
Mike Tyson ABC Special, don't like the 'conspiracy' angle they were going w/ cuz he's black, he didn't rape her. Played into how the media wanted, it's not their fault, that is how Mike was!
Fitness: have 7 bodyweight/full body workouts on Darebee's site since the download happened ( but couldn't open due to not having the right app, took screenshots instead), found 1 on different planks ( try for that once/week?)..1 week hope to do 2 sets/day n 2 yogas next month!!
My Mom finally replaced my Reebok duffel...this time with an Adidas one...but she wanted to give me her big newly purchased backpack due to her ordering a small 1 but my current one is fine n don't like her always thinking something is crap bc it it's old, if it is still holding up/no rips or tearing, it is FINE to me...she always something has to be better n that means NEW ( like how she wants me to replace my iPod shuffle, a bday gift from her btw)...talking about her car is crappy in her 2nd family's neighborhood, why all status shit? Nice apt in nicest part of town, expensive furniture, expensive car? Why invest if not getting Mil from it, like $20K not worth it?
Land prices/house prices has me hopeful to get an apt for $92K-110K at least ( sometimes 1-2 bed, some just studios, depending on neighborhood location/Flood Zone/Lava Zone locations too?) in Hilo....few houses were under $300K though...does that FHA grant of $17K get applied if house buying is an apartment?
Mom sees saving as waste of time/opportunity cuz what if u die before spending all of it, will never save $300/month so why save ANYTHING, so moral is never having a lot due to impulsive spending/no restrictions?
Saw that a new apartment complex on Kinoole could be on my radar if someone snaps up the rental ready property that just hit the market at just $1 Million for 20 apartments n 3 store fronts.....Rockford real estate, buy a house for $160K ( $800/month re: your property tax/interest/monthly mortgage) combined that's as much as rent in some of our neighborhoods...
Saved $20 on lotto impulse buy by just being happy w/$6 of free $ towards it as reward for picking stuff up for ppl in the house 2 wks! N saw my ATM declining my $20 withdrawal a few days later as a sign...used $5 in change to get a Powerball w/Powerplay n a Lotto n 1 other Powerball due to picking up 2 sodas for my Aunt...won a few times n am playing off them ONLY!
Really going to love getting bentos from KTA or Kawamoto Store ( bentos, malasadaa and musubis, all cheap!! As long as not more than 2 miles, it will be a worth even a daily trip) n musubis real cheap from mostly anywhere I bet hehe n have never really done 80%-95% generic/sales stuff ONLY so maybe really will help, see about Foodland prices too, not just KTA/CostULess..maybe Farmer's Market has more food items than just breads/produce?? I am going to be smart and factor the eating out budget INTO my food budget of the week to avoid overspending....
I think the thing I love most about Hawaii is everything is melding together, cultures ( lot of mixed kids here), food (Hawaiian food is mostly Asian/Portguese w/a few actual Hawaiian items, but ALL are BIG here) n even music, some Reggae, some slack key, some ukulele, all MIXED together...
Didn't even dawn on my Aunt as she was telling me she wished she knew Spanish so she would be more desireable in the job market in Cali, why should we as Americans have to learn a language to better compete w/ undocumented ppl who come into our country? In all our chats, she brings up the Aloha spirit/community feel ( esp fundraising) of Hilo but has said NOTHING like that for San Diego Co...ya don't know your neighbors in Cali.....
Set up 2 Mercari ADS ( yes, Titus N bar Mitts, how to set up card/only paypal?,
Self care: find myself feeling guilty if I want to eat a bag of 8 oz chips in 1 day..and need to spread stuff out, trying to do too much in 1 day makes me put it off but 1 thing a day is workable!
Possible beds for new place: Twin/Full Air mattress ( get free pallets? Get Mattress Firm deal in Hilo of $150-$200?).. Or cot/sleeping pad ( bar across the middle?) or chair that turns into a bed ( love Scandavian one) stability for back or going to dip soon/ sleeping pad essentially not thick enough & not memory foam, get the one that looks like it's in a drawer? OR Japanese futon (on top of pallets, no sleeping low for me ) really like the simple/minimalistic look of both foreign bed styles..
Going to love the 'shopping' icon to compare prices!! Lowe's might be cheaper, or CostULess, who knows! Scandavian style night stand or Paradise Plants 2 tables ( 1 dining, 1 nighstand)?? Try local then branch out to Wayfair/Amazon w/ free/cheap Shipping to HI!
Verizon guy, all save everything Google/Google Drive/Google Photos crap, yeah, not if they want to charge me, get something else. Hope to get AirTV (DVR box)?
Apt search on hold ( PP took OFF the cute 150 sq ft Kinoole listing BUT NOT the Kilauea 1 6 days later??) DL sucks ( Google reviews : '20: 3 reviews bad: tell u place is ready, you fly there, not ready for 2 wks if self employed says you don't make enough n you didn't really get approved ( but we took ur $25 rental app fee n they raise the rent! N 730 not good enough credit, wtf? Look for PP ( no rent to mainlanders ( nvm, I am a local) or whites ( RACISM against whites has always been here) n no help after/app process long, apt listed but not available in reality) Lehua, Waiakea View ( not Lagoon View or renamed?,(get apt w/just microwave vs some w/ full kitchen if cheaper n do Bravo XL, Microwave n toaster) n Arruda on Google?)/MO check for a week, nice to ease off anxiety of needing to find listing FIRST, my situation ok for them, & will this employer give me a shot? Haven't seen any ppl get turned down if applying ON the island...
Maybe private person/CL ad is BETTER than PM? Arruda Properties ($1K-1200 ( Leilani Estates/Puna!), $550-700 for room for rent means roommates n NOT a sleeping room like Bob/NY guy has, right? Didn't like her attitude w/ her answer of rent is up on BI just like everywhere else! Dk if all utilities or not), Ginoza Realty n Hilo Bay Realty ( 2 ladder are too expensive (1200+), all under PM)? A lot are AirBnBers using them to run their house/condo, not the same as ppl in complex.. Lehua Apts had good reviews/good neighbors/nice area/cheap, put in an Alert for listings there/Ching Studios ( no alert for 333 Lehua , DL property) n emailed Arruda..Do jobs every few days, reinforces ya gotta be on the island ( applying for apts 2 wks I am in Hilo)...
Damn, 2592 had 2 uber affordable rooms for rent, 1 for $400 n 1 in better area/better upkeep for $500 but share bathroom (n kitchen?) what if they only PM to approve me ( 0 visitors or overnight guests? Wtf?), same issue as PP tho, some sites off market, some not? A lot of reviews are on buying/selling & NOT as rental building...Dk if my sister was talking about housing rentals vs apts re: rents NOT raising yearly...another reason to BUY as soon as I can, buy best house for my budget, no expensive HOA if condo, see if HomeOwners Insurance/Hurricane too much 4 a house or do as much off grid as I can...Look into Lehua/ CL and last resort Hilo Village Apts, knew it would be HARD but didn't expect IMPOSSIBLE....Sunny Island RV/Camping World RV ( now have Greater Rockford Auto Auction too)waiting/hope still for my Aunt. Worse comes to worse, renting something..
Druggies anywhere so might as well risk downtown area if cheaper, can always make it safer..Hank Correa Realty had a nice $1K rental w/ all bills included (WiFi too? Get Bravo XL to not use stove! Get Copper Chef induction cooktop single burner vs double since better efficiency n fits my 12" pan if have a place w/ no kitchen or if stove ever breaks, really like the idea of a simple kitchen).. Stick to just 2-3 rows in fridge, simulate 4.5 cubic foot fridge I hope to get 1 day, big rugs!).
I have sent 4 messages to Hank Correa and even called ( but got a flirty ' heeey, Hi'! from the woman who answered vs 'Hank Correa Realty' so idk, try again later.. Zumper/Rent.com has $900-1350 places, not all bills included.
Tried Orgain SuperFoods mix w/water ( eww) &/or yogurt ( better)... Sassy barfing n weight loss due to Obie n hairballs? We are giving her hairball stuff n have been giving her extra food for the past 2 wks..
Missy's husband diabetic? 666 blood sugar!
Missy might have custody battle w/ her ex if her husband adopts my nephew (my niece has had 2 ear infections within 2 wks)!
Fucking phone bill shit, I just wanted a phone that works w/ apps, didn't need new tablet, not having a disagreement in front of the guy at damn Verizon..paying $150/$336 bill n $80 ($63 is phone + service/insurance & $20 fees/taxes/fuck of $200 now bill n Mom's part now $130 ( get extra cash this month, walk to do deposit, mail Money Order to me in the future since we have different cards so no transferring $?)! It will be ok but damn, wanted a cheaper bill but 0 places are doing 2 lines..
I really like CNBC Make It YouTube variety section featuring the realistic budgeting of normal salaries ( less than $60K) n SOME of the Nate O'Brien vids have been helpful... Love Island filming in Hilo ( dk if town gets noticed, or just Kona).
Get Money Order back from Post Office! Nope, lady said they don't void em and my Mom went in & tried to say maybe it's lost so they'll investigate & give me my $ back that way, but she said the lady was being a BITCH, so calling the National number n saying we can't go in to make the inquiry like you're supposed to...
Kegels ship bikes stuff soon, less expensive the less disassembled? Send Bob stuff!! Recycling too HARD in Hawaii? Updated brochure to what is accepted & where, 0 paper/plastics, cardboard ok?...get composting bin ( paper add?)? How do I ALWAYS have a protected network/ safe WiFi on 24/7, Verizon? VPN help, lil key NOT showing, settings show NONE under VPN, wtf, not supported by Digital Secure, need ANOTHER BETTER APP NOW?
Sam's Pizza yesterday as it was 91 ( SB deal, try RC soda, might need generic for future! It was good...Cyclamate still in it? Nope! Hopper has 1 way for $288 for July 13th, wait still..
book boxes/cleaning walls/floors tomorrow n doing some more clothes packing this weekend( do everything before noon, with fan on, am doing ok, have 2 fans on for sleeping sometimes when it is still in the 80's)...found some COOL FLIP PHONES I still had! Hmm, just get Kyocera Extreme 1 day FAR OFF? Wet t shirt for me/doggies has helped today when it hit 94! $840 for another DayLum place looks nice!? Apply when THERE! Make sure they do at least a 6 month lease so have time to save in case they do raise rents..I wish more homes in Hilo weren't for multigenerational families & sucks that most the starter homes were washed away in that Tsunami in 1960...
Watching Netflix show called Sweet Tooth soon, it looks really good!
Show was awesome! I finished Feel Good and while it was ok, I really just watched it cuz there was nothing interesting to watch instead...
Update: 6/12/2021: 8 AM, Hank Correa rental got rented already not even a week listed! Found out they do count Savings as income towards rent so them & Hilo Villages can be on my list next week to try to set stuff up... Currently in the mid '80's as I watch Tiny House World before cleaning up bin area, getting rid of my kayak n cleaning that area ( cleaning floors only, washing the baseboards/walls w/ scrub brush n soap didn't do much), had our 2 hottest days yesterday and Thursday, 99 & 97! 0 workouts except 40 mountain climbers or side leg raises here n there...looks like I will toss my kettlebell since shipping it somewhere would cost too much.
Need to figure out right box to ship my portfolio that isn't Michael's hardcase for $150 OR Lowe's box that is waay too big AND long. Getting my PLANE BOX next week from Lowe's via bus:)! Idk, hard to stay motivated to pack when certain property managers won't rent to you since Savings isn't income but my Unemployment technically is ( I didn't know that HARDLY anyone will take cash upfront, who the fuck turns down paid in full?)...
Big shock: my local Wendy's, McD's AND Burger King are all still closed to dine in/ take out....yeah, really glad in Hilo,you eat at local places vs National chains, so screw them!
Idk what to do when my Mom talks about 1 of the families she babysits for. She gets all involved in their lives and forgets that she can't control what happens. I can't help that the lawyer didn't have any knowledge of the Dad's past behavior towards his ex and the kids, but obviously the Judge ( who did know, cuz he said well you did live w/ him for more than 5 yrs and he was abusive towards you AND your kids most of the duration & it didn't bother you, but now he can't have visitation?) let the Dad have visits...my Mom said the ex wants to get back w/ him, if she does, then she IS saying she is OK w/ the treatment, right? What if we give her all this help and in the end, she stops the custody crap & says he's moving back in?
How come if I see or hear of something but DON'T do anything to help, then I am complicit & it's ok in my book but if it is HAPPENING to me, & I do nothing, that doesn't mean it's ok? Why does the witness get that judgement from ppl, what if they just don't want to possibly get killed, have to fight to live or get hurt & can't work but can't judge the victim? What about when the woman attacks you, then she is ok w/ everything, right? Almost feels like when dealing w/ addicts, you need to just accept shit won't change & walk away, can't help if they don't want help, they know the consequences, it's been almost 8 yrs, dude ain't changing NOTHING if he doesn't have to..chick needs to get stronger, she has a great job and she lives in a very part of Loves Park in a 4 bedroom house. She has options.