Love is Selfish
Title: Love is Selfish
Author: blackprince_85
Pairing: Minho/Jonghyun, Jonghyun/Key
Rating: PG-15
Wordcount: 1578
Summary:Jonghyun was Minho’s mistress.
Prompt: Word Prompt
Disclaimer: Well, I don’t own anything.
-Jonghyun POV-
He pressed me gently on the mattress. His eyes seemed as if it was staring through my soul. In this loud silence, I could hear his heart beating… Or did I feel his heart beating? He kissed lightly on forehead, he has never been this gentle before. Most of the time, his kisses were rushed and it doesn’t take a long time before our clothes were scattered all over the floor.
“Minho…” Instead of moving on like what he always do, he buried his neck at the crook of my head. I could feel him breathing slowly on my neck. I wrapped my hand around him, clutching on his shirt.
“Don’t you have to accompany your wife tonight?” He shook his head and wrapped his hands around me even tighter. I know I shouldn’t snatch him from his wife, but love is selfish… Right? Even if knowing that our relationship was wrong right from the start, I still choose to continue it. I just… I just can’t let him go…
“It’s better if you stay with her tonight” He pouted and looked at me.
“Do you really want me to go to stay with her tonight?” From his tone and look, my answer will be what he would do. I should say go, but my heart wants him to stay. If I say stay, wouldn’t it be selfish of me to do that? He got up from the bed, pulling our distance apart. I immediately grabbed his wrist to prevent him from leaving. Again, I was acting on reflex. I saw him smirking, I knew it.
“Don’t worry, I’m just going to get myself a cup of water.” I let him go, I bet my face was red now. At least, he’s staying with me. I watched him getting out of the room. I am selfish… Right? I got up from the bed and followed him to the kitchen. I approached him from behind, wrapped my arms around his chest and stomach. I can’t deny the fact I selfishly want him to stay with me. I felt his hands on mine, turned around to look at me. He caressed my cheek softly.
“Is there anything wrong?” I wrapped my arms around him neck, leaving a few inch between our lips.
“Stay with me tonight.” His lips curled like usual, a victorious smile that he always shows. He pulled our body closer. Sometime it’s good to be never conscious at all than being fully conscious.
I watched him getting himself dressed in front of the full length mirror, he’s forever charming. I sat up on the bed, rubbing my eyes to get a clearly look of him. He noticed me and turned around to look at me. He walked towards me and bends over to my height.
“Good morning.” He greeted before we had our good morning kiss. Usually would be just a peck on lips but today he didn’t seemed to mind my morning breath at all.
“Are you trying to seduce me?” I didn’t get what he meant until I finally myself wasn’t fully covered. He chuckled as I quickly covered myself with the blanket. I don’t like the sly look on his face.
“Too late, I don’t feel like going to work anymore.” He pulled the only thing that was on my body away, exposing me fully to the cold air. The smell of sex still lingers in the room. He climbed on top of me, I pushed him away keeping a safe distance between us.
“Go and work or you getting none for a week.” I looked at him sternly, hoping he would buy it. His gaze was gentler a little and pulled the blanket over my lower body.
“Get some rest.” Actually I should keep him by my side, because I don’t know when he’s coming over my house again. A day later? A few days later? What if he’s kids want him to forever be at home at night? It’s a path that I chosen, so I will walk till the end even though it’s hard.
“Stop staring at the damn window acting like a love sick puppy.” the diva yelled suddenly. Was he having one of his PMS again?
“I’m not.” He placed a hot mocha in front of me before taking the seat that was right in front of me. It’s just a few days since our last meeting, I had endured even longer waiting time. This was nothing compare to that time.
“He hasn’t been coming over, right?” I took a small sip of the mocha, still staring at the rain.
“He’s busy.” I wasn’t trying to blame him or whatever, he actually can just take a little of his time to come over and see me. He chose not to but what can I do? I can’t possibly force him or something. He’s a person who put family above everything.
“You should have chosen me. He won’t be able to give you the love you want.” I believe he can. He really loves me, right? This is not just a simple physical relationship, right?
“Key, stop it.” I believe in Minho… No matter how hard this love is going to go, I won’t give up. The bell rang as the door was pushed opened, a beautiful lady walked in. I know who she was, I saw her photo before…. She walked towards me with a kind smile.
“Can I have a word with you Mr Kim?” How did she know me? I don’t remember Minho taking my pictures before? Mostly it would be kept in my phone…
“Alone if you don’t mind.” Taeyeon looked at Key. I know what she meant. Key grunted in displease and left us alone.
“Sorry for not introducing myself earlier on, I’m Mrs Choi. You can call me Taeyeon.” I nodded and shook her hands.
“You can call me Jonghyun.” She adjusted herself on the seat, which cause a loud awkward silence between us. She stared at me, from top to bottom which made me felt a little uneasy.
“Indeed, you are really beautiful like what he said.” He? She meant Minho? I can’t believe she could be so calm after knowing that his husband was dating a guy behind her back. I took a sip of the mocha to calm myself down.
“Don’t worry, I won’t be like those woman in drama who will beat up her husband mistress.” I was shocked at her straightforwardness. Why did she come to find me?
“I’m here to beg you.” She suddenly knelt in front of me, clutching on my clothing. Everyone’s eyes were on us.
“Please, I beg you to leave my husband for the sake of the children.” I quickly pulled her up and let her sit back on the chair. I never expect her to beg me to leave Minho…
“Jonghyun-shi, I know you love Minho a lot and he loves you too but can you take the children in consideration?” Children… I long ago knew he has children but why it hurts so much when it was coming out from her mouth?
“Yoogeun need a complete family to grow up, I know no matter how I persuade Minho, he will never listen. So I’m putting all my hopes on you. Please leave Minho.” Her last sentence kept echoing in my mind… Leave him… How can I leave him when he’s already a part of my life? How can I leave him when he’s finally mine?
But, how can I be selfish to only think for myself… That child is innocent. What did he do to deserve a broken family?
“Jonghyun-shi…” Before she even continued, Key dragged her away from me.
“Jonghyun-shi! I hope you will consider about it! Please!” Actually the decision to be with Minho was wrong right from the very start… Firstly we both are guys, secondly he’s a married man. Key was right, why did I choose someone who I may never have a happy ending with?
“Jjong, don’t listen to her.” I felt a hand on my shoulder; perhaps I should really leave him and be with Key. At least, I’m being loved.
I can’t deny that the thing happened in the afternoon did affect me… That’s why Key was worried about me and followed me home. I sat down alone in the living room on the couch. Suddenly a blanket was over my shoulder and a warm cup of milk passed onto my cold hands.
“Thanks.” I muttered. My mind was in a mess right now… It’s because all of the feelings was mixed up. By right I should feel guilt, by right I should have deicide to leave Minho… But now… I still want to stay by his side, I even want to take over the role of his wife. I’m sure I can also give Yoogeun a complete family. Where did I get this kind of confidence anyway…
“Key… Why can’t I choose you over Minho?” My voice was almost in audible when I asked. He looked into my eyes, I know he heard what I say… He pushed my fringe to a side, planting a gentle kiss on my forehead.
"Humans have a knack for choosing precisely the things that are worst for them." He pushed my head gently towards his shoulder and wrapped his hand around my shoulder allowing the silence to engulf us.
Only then, I felt tears running down my face…
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Author: blackprince_85
Pairing: Minho/Jonghyun, Jonghyun/Key
Rating: PG-15
Wordcount: 1578
Summary:Jonghyun was Minho’s mistress.
Prompt: Word Prompt
Disclaimer: Well, I don’t own anything.
-Jonghyun POV-
He pressed me gently on the mattress. His eyes seemed as if it was staring through my soul. In this loud silence, I could hear his heart beating… Or did I feel his heart beating? He kissed lightly on forehead, he has never been this gentle before. Most of the time, his kisses were rushed and it doesn’t take a long time before our clothes were scattered all over the floor.
“Minho…” Instead of moving on like what he always do, he buried his neck at the crook of my head. I could feel him breathing slowly on my neck. I wrapped my hand around him, clutching on his shirt.
“Don’t you have to accompany your wife tonight?” He shook his head and wrapped his hands around me even tighter. I know I shouldn’t snatch him from his wife, but love is selfish… Right? Even if knowing that our relationship was wrong right from the start, I still choose to continue it. I just… I just can’t let him go…
“It’s better if you stay with her tonight” He pouted and looked at me.
“Do you really want me to go to stay with her tonight?” From his tone and look, my answer will be what he would do. I should say go, but my heart wants him to stay. If I say stay, wouldn’t it be selfish of me to do that? He got up from the bed, pulling our distance apart. I immediately grabbed his wrist to prevent him from leaving. Again, I was acting on reflex. I saw him smirking, I knew it.
“Don’t worry, I’m just going to get myself a cup of water.” I let him go, I bet my face was red now. At least, he’s staying with me. I watched him getting out of the room. I am selfish… Right? I got up from the bed and followed him to the kitchen. I approached him from behind, wrapped my arms around his chest and stomach. I can’t deny the fact I selfishly want him to stay with me. I felt his hands on mine, turned around to look at me. He caressed my cheek softly.
“Is there anything wrong?” I wrapped my arms around him neck, leaving a few inch between our lips.
“Stay with me tonight.” His lips curled like usual, a victorious smile that he always shows. He pulled our body closer. Sometime it’s good to be never conscious at all than being fully conscious.
I watched him getting himself dressed in front of the full length mirror, he’s forever charming. I sat up on the bed, rubbing my eyes to get a clearly look of him. He noticed me and turned around to look at me. He walked towards me and bends over to my height.
“Good morning.” He greeted before we had our good morning kiss. Usually would be just a peck on lips but today he didn’t seemed to mind my morning breath at all.
“Are you trying to seduce me?” I didn’t get what he meant until I finally myself wasn’t fully covered. He chuckled as I quickly covered myself with the blanket. I don’t like the sly look on his face.
“Too late, I don’t feel like going to work anymore.” He pulled the only thing that was on my body away, exposing me fully to the cold air. The smell of sex still lingers in the room. He climbed on top of me, I pushed him away keeping a safe distance between us.
“Go and work or you getting none for a week.” I looked at him sternly, hoping he would buy it. His gaze was gentler a little and pulled the blanket over my lower body.
“Get some rest.” Actually I should keep him by my side, because I don’t know when he’s coming over my house again. A day later? A few days later? What if he’s kids want him to forever be at home at night? It’s a path that I chosen, so I will walk till the end even though it’s hard.
“Stop staring at the damn window acting like a love sick puppy.” the diva yelled suddenly. Was he having one of his PMS again?
“I’m not.” He placed a hot mocha in front of me before taking the seat that was right in front of me. It’s just a few days since our last meeting, I had endured even longer waiting time. This was nothing compare to that time.
“He hasn’t been coming over, right?” I took a small sip of the mocha, still staring at the rain.
“He’s busy.” I wasn’t trying to blame him or whatever, he actually can just take a little of his time to come over and see me. He chose not to but what can I do? I can’t possibly force him or something. He’s a person who put family above everything.
“You should have chosen me. He won’t be able to give you the love you want.” I believe he can. He really loves me, right? This is not just a simple physical relationship, right?
“Key, stop it.” I believe in Minho… No matter how hard this love is going to go, I won’t give up. The bell rang as the door was pushed opened, a beautiful lady walked in. I know who she was, I saw her photo before…. She walked towards me with a kind smile.
“Can I have a word with you Mr Kim?” How did she know me? I don’t remember Minho taking my pictures before? Mostly it would be kept in my phone…
“Alone if you don’t mind.” Taeyeon looked at Key. I know what she meant. Key grunted in displease and left us alone.
“Sorry for not introducing myself earlier on, I’m Mrs Choi. You can call me Taeyeon.” I nodded and shook her hands.
“You can call me Jonghyun.” She adjusted herself on the seat, which cause a loud awkward silence between us. She stared at me, from top to bottom which made me felt a little uneasy.
“Indeed, you are really beautiful like what he said.” He? She meant Minho? I can’t believe she could be so calm after knowing that his husband was dating a guy behind her back. I took a sip of the mocha to calm myself down.
“Don’t worry, I won’t be like those woman in drama who will beat up her husband mistress.” I was shocked at her straightforwardness. Why did she come to find me?
“I’m here to beg you.” She suddenly knelt in front of me, clutching on my clothing. Everyone’s eyes were on us.
“Please, I beg you to leave my husband for the sake of the children.” I quickly pulled her up and let her sit back on the chair. I never expect her to beg me to leave Minho…
“Jonghyun-shi, I know you love Minho a lot and he loves you too but can you take the children in consideration?” Children… I long ago knew he has children but why it hurts so much when it was coming out from her mouth?
“Yoogeun need a complete family to grow up, I know no matter how I persuade Minho, he will never listen. So I’m putting all my hopes on you. Please leave Minho.” Her last sentence kept echoing in my mind… Leave him… How can I leave him when he’s already a part of my life? How can I leave him when he’s finally mine?
But, how can I be selfish to only think for myself… That child is innocent. What did he do to deserve a broken family?
“Jonghyun-shi…” Before she even continued, Key dragged her away from me.
“Jonghyun-shi! I hope you will consider about it! Please!” Actually the decision to be with Minho was wrong right from the very start… Firstly we both are guys, secondly he’s a married man. Key was right, why did I choose someone who I may never have a happy ending with?
“Jjong, don’t listen to her.” I felt a hand on my shoulder; perhaps I should really leave him and be with Key. At least, I’m being loved.
I can’t deny that the thing happened in the afternoon did affect me… That’s why Key was worried about me and followed me home. I sat down alone in the living room on the couch. Suddenly a blanket was over my shoulder and a warm cup of milk passed onto my cold hands.
“Thanks.” I muttered. My mind was in a mess right now… It’s because all of the feelings was mixed up. By right I should feel guilt, by right I should have deicide to leave Minho… But now… I still want to stay by his side, I even want to take over the role of his wife. I’m sure I can also give Yoogeun a complete family. Where did I get this kind of confidence anyway…
“Key… Why can’t I choose you over Minho?” My voice was almost in audible when I asked. He looked into my eyes, I know he heard what I say… He pushed my fringe to a side, planting a gentle kiss on my forehead.
"Humans have a knack for choosing precisely the things that are worst for them." He pushed my head gently towards his shoulder and wrapped his hand around my shoulder allowing the silence to engulf us.
Only then, I felt tears running down my face…
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This is for Shawol_Haven Challenge 012
Do hope that you will vote for me.
I'm just a fanboy who loves writing, so if's not that good.
Hope you don't mind just enjoy the fanfic.