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[caligeekgrrl]

The fewer people I know, the fewer people I'll hurt. I don't deserve to have friends. I'm fucked up. I do horrible things. I hurt people. I should just stay away from the people I care about so I don't hurt them any more. I'm not worthy of love. My last girlfriend proved that to me. I've always been an outcast. People only like me 'cause I'm a

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[motherofademon]

I really hope that my posting this won't make you feel worse... I just wanted to say that, though you have made mistakes, that doesn't make you a bad person. It makes you human. No one is perfect. I know that a lot of people have hurt you and I am truly sorry for any pain I added to your life. It was never my intention to hurt you. Whether you believe me or not is up to you. I read that forgiveness is not for the person who offended you. It is for you. In order for me to even think about forgiving, I need solid reasons.
"Forgiveness doesn't mean you have to deny what happened. You certainly don't have to condone or forget the wrong! Rather, forgiveness is choosing to stop your vengeance from diminishing you by continuing to drag you down to someone else's level.
Evil is very real. That makes forgiveness very tricky. But by forgiving, we overcome evil with our goodwill.
The people who hurt you were troubled and in great pain themselves. You might have been the victim of a victim. But let the cycle stop there-forgive"

Often, in our anger toward another, we come to realize that the person we most need to forgive is ourselves. I was much harder mentally on myself than on anyone else. If this is true for you as well, try some of Joan Borysenko's steps toward self-forgiveness:

1. Recognize what you're responsible for and holding on to.

2. Confess your story to another person.

3. Consider what specific action needs to be taken to resolve things with the other person.

4. Reflect on what you have learned. Self-forgiveness opens up opportunities for growth.

5. Realize that anger is biologically toxic and can make you ill.

I hope this helps. It has helped me work through a lot of my problems. I'm not saying it will right away, healing takes time. I hope you don't give up on yourself. You're better than that, whether you realize it right not or not.
**hugs**