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I'm not upset about anything. I'm no really happy about anything. I've sorta just been in a passive, sorta...neutral mood lately.
Truth is I haven't been able to focus. Not in school, that damn place simply forces you to concentrate or something.
I'm talking about that sense of freedom when you're sitting alone and just thinking about things. I haven't been able to do that lately, just all feels kinda foggy up in the noggin, can't really see my thoughts very clearly. I've tried different things, meditiation, green tea (sorry mad its not "assisting in contemplation" but its good!). But I just can't seem to carry a thought like I used to be able to. Contemplation actually requires effort now. Maybe thats why I haven't really written in this thing for so long.
Before, when somone would ask me for advice I would know exactly what I wanted to tell them, most of the time, wether it would be the right thing to say or not. Now, I don't really know what I think. It's strange, not really depressing, more just frustrating.
I don't really expect anyone to read this, I never really write in it so why bother? But if you happen to, tell me what you think, or if you have any ideas.
Truth is I haven't been able to focus. Not in school, that damn place simply forces you to concentrate or something.
I'm talking about that sense of freedom when you're sitting alone and just thinking about things. I haven't been able to do that lately, just all feels kinda foggy up in the noggin, can't really see my thoughts very clearly. I've tried different things, meditiation, green tea (sorry mad its not "assisting in contemplation" but its good!). But I just can't seem to carry a thought like I used to be able to. Contemplation actually requires effort now. Maybe thats why I haven't really written in this thing for so long.
Before, when somone would ask me for advice I would know exactly what I wanted to tell them, most of the time, wether it would be the right thing to say or not. Now, I don't really know what I think. It's strange, not really depressing, more just frustrating.
I don't really expect anyone to read this, I never really write in it so why bother? But if you happen to, tell me what you think, or if you have any ideas.