Hey Boys....
So my unintentional, yet turned intentional hiatus from LiveJournal is starting to come to an end. Especially considering I'm typing this entry in here.
It got to a point where I literally was extremely busy. Family had me doing things for them, on top of job searching, and trying to find things to keep me occupied out here.... I ended up spending a lot of time away from my computer. And then, to top that off, a few days ago I fell victim to a botched update from McAfee, which cut access to my internet. Took 4 days before I received any notification of the problem, and received the solution. I had my iPod and my phone to access the internet, but it was nothing compared to a 17" laptop.
Speaking of phones, I had to get a new one! My old phone finally took its last breath.... to the tune of sliding off my nightstand and breaking entirely. I was without a phone for about a week, which was extremely hard for me, considering once I was gone from home I was virtually impossible to reach. Also, it afforded me to FINALLY be able to get a smartphone.... a Casio G'zOne Commando. Android-based. Pretty neat phone, I have to say. Not to mention, it's water-resistant, shock-resistant, exactly the type of phone I need. I'm known to be.... brutal.... sometimes when it comes to phones.
Other than that, the only thing that comes to mind right now is that I'm completely ready to leave this place. In the month I've been in California, it's becoming harder and harder for me to be here and keep a smile on my face. There's nothing to do, nowhere to go, no one to see here. I don't have but one person I know that's out here, and she lives a good hour away in San Francisco (even longer with traffic). It would be different if I were able to get out more, go places, DO something. But I don't, and there is nothing to do. I'm not a person keen on sitting in a house watching TV all day. It's fine for a week, but after that I get super restless.
Going to the gym has turned from a way to improve my lifestyle to a reprieve to get out of the house. In THAT situation, my willingness to go to the gym has started to wane, just like in the past. It's just HARD to make myself go when, somewhere in my mind, I wonder if the only reason I am going to the gym is because it's a way out of the house each day. I took 2 weeks off from the gym, one week because I was busy for 5 days, the next week because I didn't go. I always pulled the excuse of my knee, but I know that it's not because of that. It's just hard maintaining the motivation when, above all, I feel like it's changed from something to improve my life to just simply something to DO.
I hope that over time, things will get better, that I'll find a way out of this funk I'm in. I miss my friends, I miss being on my own and living my life, I miss being myself. And I hope that soon I can get back to that, because I don't think I can live in this much longer.
It got to a point where I literally was extremely busy. Family had me doing things for them, on top of job searching, and trying to find things to keep me occupied out here.... I ended up spending a lot of time away from my computer. And then, to top that off, a few days ago I fell victim to a botched update from McAfee, which cut access to my internet. Took 4 days before I received any notification of the problem, and received the solution. I had my iPod and my phone to access the internet, but it was nothing compared to a 17" laptop.
Speaking of phones, I had to get a new one! My old phone finally took its last breath.... to the tune of sliding off my nightstand and breaking entirely. I was without a phone for about a week, which was extremely hard for me, considering once I was gone from home I was virtually impossible to reach. Also, it afforded me to FINALLY be able to get a smartphone.... a Casio G'zOne Commando. Android-based. Pretty neat phone, I have to say. Not to mention, it's water-resistant, shock-resistant, exactly the type of phone I need. I'm known to be.... brutal.... sometimes when it comes to phones.
Other than that, the only thing that comes to mind right now is that I'm completely ready to leave this place. In the month I've been in California, it's becoming harder and harder for me to be here and keep a smile on my face. There's nothing to do, nowhere to go, no one to see here. I don't have but one person I know that's out here, and she lives a good hour away in San Francisco (even longer with traffic). It would be different if I were able to get out more, go places, DO something. But I don't, and there is nothing to do. I'm not a person keen on sitting in a house watching TV all day. It's fine for a week, but after that I get super restless.
Going to the gym has turned from a way to improve my lifestyle to a reprieve to get out of the house. In THAT situation, my willingness to go to the gym has started to wane, just like in the past. It's just HARD to make myself go when, somewhere in my mind, I wonder if the only reason I am going to the gym is because it's a way out of the house each day. I took 2 weeks off from the gym, one week because I was busy for 5 days, the next week because I didn't go. I always pulled the excuse of my knee, but I know that it's not because of that. It's just hard maintaining the motivation when, above all, I feel like it's changed from something to improve my life to just simply something to DO.
I hope that over time, things will get better, that I'll find a way out of this funk I'm in. I miss my friends, I miss being on my own and living my life, I miss being myself. And I hope that soon I can get back to that, because I don't think I can live in this much longer.