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Sometimes You Can't Let Go
[OOC: I feel Chloe starting to de-materialize, and I keep finding her crying alone in one of the dark caves in my head. Or being mentally tortured by Falchren, but that's probably always going to happen unless I actually go and create Scorch and possibly his brother and sister (I'm thinking Char and Flicker) in the present.
I know I can't ever hope to actually pull this group back together the way it was--the DM's gone for good, and I'm pretty sure so is Charlie. But I want to continue with this world and these characters, somehow. Perhaps even with other characters from people online. Andy mentioned to me when I bumped into him in December that if I wanted to continue it as the DM myself, I'd probably have to let go of Chloe; it's hard for the DM to have her own character and be fair. I'd love to DM, but I'm really attached to Chloe.
The night before my interview in PA/NJ, I gave this some thought. This world comes back to get me when I least expect it, you know? ^^;; I don't really think I would have to give Chloe up--she's part psion, now, so it isn't inconceivable that she'd have some faint inexplicable ability to prepare for future events (because I don't think I'm good enough at separating my head to be completely arbitrary on what I do). I'll just have to give her a point or two in the area of clairvoyance or something next level up. But if I do have to give her up, I definitely have enough back story that I could fabricate a sensible whisking off that would allow her to appear once and again, similar to the way Pentros has become a bit of a recurring character.
Really, I want to keep this alive. I know the bulletin board approach is usually a bit doomed, but it's a bit of a break, isn't it? From reality? To just come and read up a little on what's been going on in another world? I think I'd give up on AIM sessions--I don't think that would function too well with all the side commentage. But just coming online and checking every few days, I think that would be doable, even if it is a bit slow. It would probably be excruciatingly slow in the fights, but I think when the fights are on, people would probably post more frequently? Maybe it wouldn't be so bad?
I'm fighting a losing battle, and I can feel myself losing. I think I'm losing a piece of myself, and I guess it is true. I'm taking this all a little to hard, too seriously, and being a bit too melodramatic, but then again it's me we're talking about. Chloe, like me, is just a little rogue who can't really fight so well on her own, especially when things are right in her face. And right now, I'm feeling her pain :(
But I have to do something. For both her sake and mine. So I try. Please bear with me here, and if you feel like joining the party and you're not already part of it, let me know. If you're in here and you want out, also let me know, so I can adjust the story accordingly. I'd like to try and make this happen, but this is all I can do on my own without other people.
See July 19th post for a bit of a refresher, I'll try to put up some kind of account of the previous story up later. I'll also try to hack up a map of the island, since I lost Andy's. Remember that response actions should really go in the comments after the DM description/response to keep full action rounds and/or days a little more distinguishable.]
The morning sun finds all of you eating breakfast together in the town of Amber in a small, yet clean and tastefully decorated tavern called The Elephant Tree--the local residents seem to have gathered through their trees that you have indeed helped their town and have taken care of your lodging accordingly. The man with the cat familiar from the previous night appears to have left earlier in the morning, and Helgass is visibly confused about the happenings of the previous night in spite of having it described to him at least twice by each other party member individually. But alas, Helgass will be Helgass.
A respectful hush seems to hover around your table for the most part--obvious non-residents regard you with only passing curiosity because of it but otherwise pay you no heed. As one of the serving girls returns to collect a few empty plates (and as Helgass' eyes wander over her rather nice figure), Chloe turns from the chitchat with Dru and Kai to address the group with a subject otherwise left untouched this morning.
"Well, what do we do now?" She looks almost frustrated. "We've found our wise man, and he hasn't been able to tell us much about how to deal with those mind flayers--and we've found our dragon of the mountain. He's equally of no help with this problem, not to mention of questionable trustworthiness. It feels like all we'd have to say for ourselves when we get back to Glory is that we've found... nothing."
The candle on the table in front of Chloe flickers a bit higher as she takes a vicious bite of her hashed browns.
I know I can't ever hope to actually pull this group back together the way it was--the DM's gone for good, and I'm pretty sure so is Charlie. But I want to continue with this world and these characters, somehow. Perhaps even with other characters from people online. Andy mentioned to me when I bumped into him in December that if I wanted to continue it as the DM myself, I'd probably have to let go of Chloe; it's hard for the DM to have her own character and be fair. I'd love to DM, but I'm really attached to Chloe.
The night before my interview in PA/NJ, I gave this some thought. This world comes back to get me when I least expect it, you know? ^^;; I don't really think I would have to give Chloe up--she's part psion, now, so it isn't inconceivable that she'd have some faint inexplicable ability to prepare for future events (because I don't think I'm good enough at separating my head to be completely arbitrary on what I do). I'll just have to give her a point or two in the area of clairvoyance or something next level up. But if I do have to give her up, I definitely have enough back story that I could fabricate a sensible whisking off that would allow her to appear once and again, similar to the way Pentros has become a bit of a recurring character.
Really, I want to keep this alive. I know the bulletin board approach is usually a bit doomed, but it's a bit of a break, isn't it? From reality? To just come and read up a little on what's been going on in another world? I think I'd give up on AIM sessions--I don't think that would function too well with all the side commentage. But just coming online and checking every few days, I think that would be doable, even if it is a bit slow. It would probably be excruciatingly slow in the fights, but I think when the fights are on, people would probably post more frequently? Maybe it wouldn't be so bad?
I'm fighting a losing battle, and I can feel myself losing. I think I'm losing a piece of myself, and I guess it is true. I'm taking this all a little to hard, too seriously, and being a bit too melodramatic, but then again it's me we're talking about. Chloe, like me, is just a little rogue who can't really fight so well on her own, especially when things are right in her face. And right now, I'm feeling her pain :(
But I have to do something. For both her sake and mine. So I try. Please bear with me here, and if you feel like joining the party and you're not already part of it, let me know. If you're in here and you want out, also let me know, so I can adjust the story accordingly. I'd like to try and make this happen, but this is all I can do on my own without other people.
See July 19th post for a bit of a refresher, I'll try to put up some kind of account of the previous story up later. I'll also try to hack up a map of the island, since I lost Andy's. Remember that response actions should really go in the comments after the DM description/response to keep full action rounds and/or days a little more distinguishable.]
The morning sun finds all of you eating breakfast together in the town of Amber in a small, yet clean and tastefully decorated tavern called The Elephant Tree--the local residents seem to have gathered through their trees that you have indeed helped their town and have taken care of your lodging accordingly. The man with the cat familiar from the previous night appears to have left earlier in the morning, and Helgass is visibly confused about the happenings of the previous night in spite of having it described to him at least twice by each other party member individually. But alas, Helgass will be Helgass.
A respectful hush seems to hover around your table for the most part--obvious non-residents regard you with only passing curiosity because of it but otherwise pay you no heed. As one of the serving girls returns to collect a few empty plates (and as Helgass' eyes wander over her rather nice figure), Chloe turns from the chitchat with Dru and Kai to address the group with a subject otherwise left untouched this morning.
"Well, what do we do now?" She looks almost frustrated. "We've found our wise man, and he hasn't been able to tell us much about how to deal with those mind flayers--and we've found our dragon of the mountain. He's equally of no help with this problem, not to mention of questionable trustworthiness. It feels like all we'd have to say for ourselves when we get back to Glory is that we've found... nothing."
The candle on the table in front of Chloe flickers a bit higher as she takes a vicious bite of her hashed browns.