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The canvas, so blank. Staring back at me with little to no expression....I ask myself, 'what are you going to portray today? What color is going to collide with that emotion?' The truth, all colors every day. Different compositions and lighting everytime, but always raw emotion.
I'm working on a painting currently, I should be working on it right now. It's for a dear friend turning 21 in this world, I'm soon to be 22. And this year has been such a huge learning experience. As I add more days to my years, I see the cycles of everyday life clearer. Friendships, the cycles of work...the cycles of happiness and stress, laughter and tears...my menstrual cycle, ha and so on. I enjoy life for the most part, despite sometimes the inevitable grueling cycles. Simple things bring me to my happiness. The yellow of the sun shining on my face, the mist of the ocean, the moss on a rock. I enjoy photography so much, it's ridiculous, but I have outgrown my camera and sometimes that makes me loose interest. I did check out Sunset cliffs recently and had so much fun capturing such beautiful moments. I want a job that honors my skills, because I know I have them and I know they are worth some much needed $mullah$! I feel a little stifled since graduation, with little occupational growth since then....I still love my art and look forward to my career choice. It's only a matter of time, determination will not let me rest.
It's the holidays and I get so excited about the ambiance. I'm going ice skating tonight :) should be awesome. I have so much that I am so grateful for. I have a wonderfull, deep, compassionate, honorable, funny, intelligent, artistic, boyfriend. Sometimes I have to pinch myself when it gets too good because I never thought there would be someone to be there for me, the way he is. I like the townhome I'm in, it's a nice space and my roommates are good conversation. That's a lot more than I can say for the last place I was at, but I wont lie...being near the beach did have it's benefits. I have genuine friends, near and far, alive and in spirit, some of which I've known for a very long time. Some of which I've shared many beautiful AND painful memories. That's what bonds friendships. Experience. My life has been just that. I express it now in my art and in color, not so much in words. I still like to write, it's just far and few in between now. I still can't help but keep tabs on myself.
This week was a little rougher with sicknes on my back and the announcement of a sudden death. At 26, a failed heart of an ex co-worker. He will be missed by many. It's so unbelievable. Death is a such crazy thing, you'll never know when your time is up. It could be soon, or far but it's something we all have to face. Such an unknown in this world...
I'm working on a painting currently, I should be working on it right now. It's for a dear friend turning 21 in this world, I'm soon to be 22. And this year has been such a huge learning experience. As I add more days to my years, I see the cycles of everyday life clearer. Friendships, the cycles of work...the cycles of happiness and stress, laughter and tears...my menstrual cycle, ha and so on. I enjoy life for the most part, despite sometimes the inevitable grueling cycles. Simple things bring me to my happiness. The yellow of the sun shining on my face, the mist of the ocean, the moss on a rock. I enjoy photography so much, it's ridiculous, but I have outgrown my camera and sometimes that makes me loose interest. I did check out Sunset cliffs recently and had so much fun capturing such beautiful moments. I want a job that honors my skills, because I know I have them and I know they are worth some much needed $mullah$! I feel a little stifled since graduation, with little occupational growth since then....I still love my art and look forward to my career choice. It's only a matter of time, determination will not let me rest.
It's the holidays and I get so excited about the ambiance. I'm going ice skating tonight :) should be awesome. I have so much that I am so grateful for. I have a wonderfull, deep, compassionate, honorable, funny, intelligent, artistic, boyfriend. Sometimes I have to pinch myself when it gets too good because I never thought there would be someone to be there for me, the way he is. I like the townhome I'm in, it's a nice space and my roommates are good conversation. That's a lot more than I can say for the last place I was at, but I wont lie...being near the beach did have it's benefits. I have genuine friends, near and far, alive and in spirit, some of which I've known for a very long time. Some of which I've shared many beautiful AND painful memories. That's what bonds friendships. Experience. My life has been just that. I express it now in my art and in color, not so much in words. I still like to write, it's just far and few in between now. I still can't help but keep tabs on myself.
This week was a little rougher with sicknes on my back and the announcement of a sudden death. At 26, a failed heart of an ex co-worker. He will be missed by many. It's so unbelievable. Death is a such crazy thing, you'll never know when your time is up. It could be soon, or far but it's something we all have to face. Such an unknown in this world...