-*im*still*here*-

[calibabe07]

i don't know what to do. i hate him. but really i hate myself. i just wish i hated him, cuz i know i don't and i know i prolly never will..but he's killing me. sorry if you don't know what i'm talking about. i knew this was gonna happen. maybe i'm over reacting? but i don't really care cuz this is so not fair. i mean he makes no sense! he's killing me! i've been crying for 2 effin hours cuz i don't know what to do. i can't give up on it, i'm too weak to do that. i just want him to care the way i do for him. it hurts soo bad to care for him so much. even after he's made me so mad, it's still hard for me to tell him what i really think cuz i'm afraid of hurting him. i care so much that i still don't wanna come off as a bitch. he means so much to me now, and i'm soooo afraid of losing him. i wanna call and leave him a voicemail or something but i'm crying too much to talk. i don't even know what i'd say but i'm so upset i'm sure it wouldn't be too nice. i just don't know what's going on and i can't stand this.

*...And I will be there to soften your fall*And I will be there for the good of it all*I will not let you feel you've wasted all your time*And every day we have is one more day that you'll be mine*If my life is a flight and a crash in the sea*I'm still here but I can not speak the words...*