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i'm so effin bummed right now.
i had this boyfriend when i was a freshmen here and when i ended up staying in mississippi with my dad, a lot of things went downhill for him. i constantly have the feeling that i'm to blame eventhough it is his life and he does make his own decisions. but seriously though... what if i could have changed his life by coming back when i was supposed to?
so anyways, i went to his house last night and i cried like a little bitch. i made sure that butthead knew that i love him to death and i am totally there for him. this guy was soo here for me when my great grampa died and texts me everynight. damnit i'm gonna miss him for a while. i made him promise that he would write and whatever.. so we can be pen pals yo. then i stole one of his hats and some plaid boxers. cuz i heart plaid boxers ya know! i tried to steal his pimp electric sunglasses so i could save them for him while he's in jail but he swore that they are allowed to have them in there but will give them to me when he gets out.
damnit. i keep trying to assure myself that everything will be fine but i'm fuckin bummed. he was supposed to call me before he turned himself in this morning but i think his phone died. then i had this horrible dream about me not being able to find him. blah
i had this boyfriend when i was a freshmen here and when i ended up staying in mississippi with my dad, a lot of things went downhill for him. i constantly have the feeling that i'm to blame eventhough it is his life and he does make his own decisions. but seriously though... what if i could have changed his life by coming back when i was supposed to?
so anyways, i went to his house last night and i cried like a little bitch. i made sure that butthead knew that i love him to death and i am totally there for him. this guy was soo here for me when my great grampa died and texts me everynight. damnit i'm gonna miss him for a while. i made him promise that he would write and whatever.. so we can be pen pals yo. then i stole one of his hats and some plaid boxers. cuz i heart plaid boxers ya know! i tried to steal his pimp electric sunglasses so i could save them for him while he's in jail but he swore that they are allowed to have them in there but will give them to me when he gets out.
damnit. i keep trying to assure myself that everything will be fine but i'm fuckin bummed. he was supposed to call me before he turned himself in this morning but i think his phone died. then i had this horrible dream about me not being able to find him. blah