Sorry about the spelling
Alright so here is an Update thing:
So I moved into my aunts house right after the break up and I have been spend hella lot of money on gas. FUCKING Gas prices are fucking crazy.... I have one more final next week that I have to get a A on to raise my grade other wise I get a C in the class and I am not down with that mainly because I have a B average and I would like to keep it that way ya know. I am finding my self having to advance wvery check now because I have no money and bills are starting to get paid late. I need to find a way to get my ex's name of my car loan but no one will co-sign cause I can't do it alone. I Like this one guy that doesn't seem to like me back not to worried about that though because I like being single I just got in a relationship and I don't want an other one thats forsure. I'm just getting sick of hearing how a guy is so fucked up because they had a bad relationship in the past and she screwed him over by cheating on him.... Fuck GIRLS stop cheating on your man because your screwing him up for the next girl that wants to be with him. Yeah I may have hurt some guys but never cheated on them FUCK I have more respect than that OH especially if they are or were in the military fuck that is two great guys that I likes alot that got fuck over by either their Fiance of wife........ WHATEVER..... So I just feel like writing about whatever right now because I am in between classes right now at school and am bored as FUCK...
I am getting tired of my friend telliing me that she doesn't want to go out with me some place because I get more attention..... Well where is the attention I never see it she is crazy......
I can't stand that if a guy likes you they don't have the gut to go for it... and if I'm not interested then well at least they tried and that shows something......
I love my job i have alot of fun there and love the poeple I work with and meet there.... I just wish I lived in town so that I woild have to drive so far.
I need to find another job so that I can earn more money to rent a room somewhere..... I got an offer to rent out a room for 600 but that is alot and I think I get that in like one paycheck........
FUCK my wages are being garnished because of a stupid ticket I got picking up my ex from work a while back FUCKING A maybe if I would have payed it in the beging I wouldn't be in debt right now
Do you realize how many time I have said FUCK in here already I never use that language that is how bad I am stressing right now.
there are so many prettier girls that I would be luck to find the guy that like me back
I got this new sell phone but I don't get service at home and its a bitch let me tell you I hate it I wanna exchange it but I have a fucking contrat now MOTHER FUCKER
why can't life be easier.... I am trying to be a good person you putting that secret out there into the universe thinkging only good thoughts no bad one but its fucking ard let me tell you
there is this one guy I am not sure I like. He is kinda like a man whore sort of he has a girlfriend in OR and goes on trips with her hella lot but when he is in Cali he is like When am I gonna see you??? and I can't be the girl that cheats on another girl even though I already did with him and we are not going to go into that, but he just got in the law school and I don't wanna like him cause if he goes far he will just find another girl and it'll be like he has a girl in every place he lives in and I desrve better than that don't you think. Oh and there is the drug thing that I have always said I wouldn't date or like a guy that does drugs... So wait what am I thinking I dunno this is all just a bit of nosence that had been on my mind.
I wish I could be more like justine she seems to know who she is and is very unique me I have no Idea what typ of person I am or what Its is I want.....
I think I have all this free time that i have been trying to hard to figure out that it is I am all about that I am forgetting about all the impotant things
So I went to the bar in the Valley last weekend and I lost my fucking ID can you believe that shit..... I have never lost it before Fuck not having a wallet that is what I get....
LOL WOW thins is long yeah it probably all a bunch of bull shit...
I still have 30 mins before my class starts lets see how much more I can write
So my mom wants me to write a book for teenagers because I have all these journals and that I can write an all you wouldn't be able to tell if I'm a good writer in here because this is just like whatever and me venting oh and that i can't spell but that is what editors are for right.
wow i have been writing for 30 mins thats kina slow typing huh i thought I could type faster oh well lol
so I got fat in my last relationship eww me so I have been trying to cut back my food intake to almost nothing and its kinda working so I started hiking to tone up my body so then I can attrack Hotter guys with the hope that he will be "The ONe" hahah but whatever....
I just want to feel comfortable in my own skin and right now I don't
Well i should go get something to drink before class starts wish they sold beer or something here lol J/K
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