I'm useless, lazy, perverted, and you hate me....you cant save me, you cant change me...
so this week wasnt all that bad. school is so boring it isnt even funny, but whatever, i know i will miss it in the end. boring report in english is making me a procrastinator again. i really dont want to do this project, mainly because i dont really know how to approach it. but whatever, i guess it will all play out the way it is supposed to. english class got even more weird when garnder asked me and a few other to be the "directors" of his play thingy. that should be fun...one last time to embarass myself before graduation. haha.
i got into SDSU! i cant believe it, i really cant. this is going to be a tough choice, because im not sure where i want to go. long beach, or sdsu? bah...i dont want to think about it. the more i think about it, the more real it gets, and the more scared i get. im excited to move out, but im scared as hell. ah. i dont know if i can last in a tiny dorm for a year. that is so long. what if i dont like my roomate, what if i cant study...you all know the rep for sdsu, so i dont know if i will be able to concentrate. i know this sounds lame, but im scared to go alone. sdsu: kelsey will be there and jenny close by. long beach, i have no clue who will be there that i know. maybe brett but im not sure now. so, sdsu seems more intising because i will know people. im trying hard to not let that be my deciding factor.
anyways, enough of college crap.
this weekend was h-dawgs birfday! yeayah! happy birthday holly! yikes we are all turning 18 faster than i can stand. clubbin' here we come, you know how we do. i had alot of fun at dt disney. my butt is still sore from the car ride home, and my ears are still ringing from matt and keith. haha. just kidding you guys that was mighty entertaining, i would have chimed in, but i was so tired for some reason. maybe it was work, who knows. but yeah, i had fun.
today was a waste of a day, geesh, i could have gotten so much done but i sat around instead. im lame. casinos are even more lame. i tried calling one in hopes of them being able to answer a few questions for me, but they were no help. so now i have to kinda make something up. not cool. blah blah blah...im done.
Had a bad day, don't talk to me,
gonna ride this out,
My little black heart, breaks apart,
with your big mouth.
And I'm sick of my sickness
Don't touch me, you'll get this.
I'm useless, lazy, perverted,
and you hate me.
You can't save me,
You can't change me,
Well I'm waiting for my wakeup call,
And everything, everything's my fault.
Went to the doctor, and I asked her,
to make this stop.
Got medication, a new addiction,
Fucking thanks a lot.
I had to relapse, I'm bad at rehabs
It ruins everything.
So point your finger, at the singer,
He's in the pharmacy.
You can't save me,
You can't change me,
Well I'm waiting for my wake up call,
and everything's my fault.
i got into SDSU! i cant believe it, i really cant. this is going to be a tough choice, because im not sure where i want to go. long beach, or sdsu? bah...i dont want to think about it. the more i think about it, the more real it gets, and the more scared i get. im excited to move out, but im scared as hell. ah. i dont know if i can last in a tiny dorm for a year. that is so long. what if i dont like my roomate, what if i cant study...you all know the rep for sdsu, so i dont know if i will be able to concentrate. i know this sounds lame, but im scared to go alone. sdsu: kelsey will be there and jenny close by. long beach, i have no clue who will be there that i know. maybe brett but im not sure now. so, sdsu seems more intising because i will know people. im trying hard to not let that be my deciding factor.
anyways, enough of college crap.
this weekend was h-dawgs birfday! yeayah! happy birthday holly! yikes we are all turning 18 faster than i can stand. clubbin' here we come, you know how we do. i had alot of fun at dt disney. my butt is still sore from the car ride home, and my ears are still ringing from matt and keith. haha. just kidding you guys that was mighty entertaining, i would have chimed in, but i was so tired for some reason. maybe it was work, who knows. but yeah, i had fun.
today was a waste of a day, geesh, i could have gotten so much done but i sat around instead. im lame. casinos are even more lame. i tried calling one in hopes of them being able to answer a few questions for me, but they were no help. so now i have to kinda make something up. not cool. blah blah blah...im done.
Had a bad day, don't talk to me,
gonna ride this out,
My little black heart, breaks apart,
with your big mouth.
And I'm sick of my sickness
Don't touch me, you'll get this.
I'm useless, lazy, perverted,
and you hate me.
You can't save me,
You can't change me,
Well I'm waiting for my wakeup call,
And everything, everything's my fault.
Went to the doctor, and I asked her,
to make this stop.
Got medication, a new addiction,
Fucking thanks a lot.
I had to relapse, I'm bad at rehabs
It ruins everything.
So point your finger, at the singer,
He's in the pharmacy.
You can't save me,
You can't change me,
Well I'm waiting for my wake up call,
and everything's my fault.