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So I just got back from working in Houston last night and they wanted me to go straight to Austin to work. I'll be working in Austin until at least October 20. It maybe longer than that because it is a total remodel. I told them I was too tired to work last night and to drive that far and then back. It is like a 5 hour drive there then I would have worked until Friday drive back home Friday night then back on Monday. As it is right now I have to go to work tomorrow night after work drive the 2 1/2 hours home then go back Monday. I think it is a waste of gas to go up there for one day and have to come right back after a long day of work. I'm not sure yet what my hours will be when I get there except for tomorrow I'll be 2-11.
I'm getting to the point where I don't like going out of town all the time because I'm never home anymore. The day I finish one assignment I always have to go report to the next one. It's getting old. The only reason I say that though is because of Ashley. I never get to see her or spend time with her anymore. I always feel bad when I go out of town because she looks so sad and will call me like 5 minutes after I leave and tells me that she misses me. After I'm gone for like a day or so she always says she wants to see me and somehow she always ends up at the hotel with me. I could get in a lot of trouble that way though because we aren't supposed to have overnight visitors and she always stays for a few days at a time. I keep telling her that I want to give this road work up and she tells me no because its what I wanted to do until she came along and that she doesn't want me to mess a good thing up.
I'm really worried about my friend Will right now. I haven't talked to him in awhile until today and he's been having a really hard time with things. I've left him tons of voicemails and messages on myspace and he never answers me which isn't like him. Today he was talking about killing himself so right now I'm waiting here at Starbucks for him to show up so we can talk and I can try to help him. I had a lot of things I wanted to tell him too to get advice but I'll wait until he is over his problems. I really want to talk to James about my issue though because he would understand it more than anyone else I know. I really need to call him but not when Ashley is around because she will get really upset that I'm talking to him about this. It's bad enough that when she found out I was talking to Champ about one of my problems she freaked out. Now she thinks I want Champ and that I'm going to leave her. That was the last thing on my mind. It's just that she understands some of the things that I'm feeling and going through. She seems to know what to say or how to fix the problem. Right now she has me in MO's Self Esteem Boot Camp. She says I need to learn to have more self-esteem and confidence cause I'm "hot." I still don't agree with her but I'm getting better.
I have a lot more to write to make this current but I am so tired that I really don't feel like writing anymore today...nini all!
I'm getting to the point where I don't like going out of town all the time because I'm never home anymore. The day I finish one assignment I always have to go report to the next one. It's getting old. The only reason I say that though is because of Ashley. I never get to see her or spend time with her anymore. I always feel bad when I go out of town because she looks so sad and will call me like 5 minutes after I leave and tells me that she misses me. After I'm gone for like a day or so she always says she wants to see me and somehow she always ends up at the hotel with me. I could get in a lot of trouble that way though because we aren't supposed to have overnight visitors and she always stays for a few days at a time. I keep telling her that I want to give this road work up and she tells me no because its what I wanted to do until she came along and that she doesn't want me to mess a good thing up.
I'm really worried about my friend Will right now. I haven't talked to him in awhile until today and he's been having a really hard time with things. I've left him tons of voicemails and messages on myspace and he never answers me which isn't like him. Today he was talking about killing himself so right now I'm waiting here at Starbucks for him to show up so we can talk and I can try to help him. I had a lot of things I wanted to tell him too to get advice but I'll wait until he is over his problems. I really want to talk to James about my issue though because he would understand it more than anyone else I know. I really need to call him but not when Ashley is around because she will get really upset that I'm talking to him about this. It's bad enough that when she found out I was talking to Champ about one of my problems she freaked out. Now she thinks I want Champ and that I'm going to leave her. That was the last thing on my mind. It's just that she understands some of the things that I'm feeling and going through. She seems to know what to say or how to fix the problem. Right now she has me in MO's Self Esteem Boot Camp. She says I need to learn to have more self-esteem and confidence cause I'm "hot." I still don't agree with her but I'm getting better.
I have a lot more to write to make this current but I am so tired that I really don't feel like writing anymore today...nini all!