Do you ever have a weak moment?
::sigh:: Today is just one of those days where I wonder if I really am fooling everyone. In a way I am, because only few people actually know the truth about whats going on. I seem to be loosing friends in a weird way...I notice how some of them are real immature and it kind of bothers me. I'm ready to graduate and get out of this town and away from these people. If I could up and leave right now I would. The things around here that used to make me happy, seem to have lost their touch, and unfortunatly I seem to be sad most of the time. I really want just someone to wrap their arms around me and tell me everything will be ok, someone who I could just sit with and have them hold me until everything that seems wrong in my life dissappeared. But I don't want just anyone to do that...I have a person in mind but I know that they will never do that for me, not again. They have their own life built apart from me and I'm stuck here in this memory. I long for the days when we would sit and talk about our future and the time we would just lay in the grass and stare at the stars when no words were needed and we just enjoyed being together. It makes me sad to think about the good times, I'm begining to even miss the times that werent so great. I miss everything. I'm unsure about so much now. People rarely see this side of me, well most people. At least one person has seen this side more times then they want to. Oh well.
Jess
I'm probably going on and on it seems I'm doing more of that these days
I probably wouldn't be this way
I probably wouldn't hurt so bad
I never pictured every minute without you in it,
Oh you left so fast,
Sometimes I see you standing there
Sometimes it's like I'm losing touch
Sometimes I feel I'm so lucky to have had the chance to love this much