Alllll the tabs...
Seriously, too many to remember. I had reasons for all of them, but yeah, collector brain is nuts. The computer may well hate me, but it usually expresses this by not playing videos properly, and/or failing Flash updates. I'm not a visual thinker so this bothers me not very much at all. Which probably does not help with the continuation of a cordial relationship between the two of us, but he started it.
'Normal' brain is nuts too. All the brains are nuts. It works best that way. A lone sane aspect is a sad, sad thing. That way lies depression (and anxiety attacks... I only wish I was kidding *sigh*), amongst other things. So, yes, all nuts.
Since I'm here? Work - oh my gods, the crazy people. People being three-year-olds chucking a 'you won't give me my toy' tantrum, and other people doing very polite 'what the fuck are you on, bitch?' faces in emails (fortunately at the 3yo, not me. Or this would be a very different post, given the people involved). Other people phoning me all the damn time because they are too useless to understand I mean it when I say 'you are in a queue. I will deal with you (and your total stupidity) when your number comes up'. And yes, stupid person, multiple phone calls and emails in one day is attention seeking and you are indeed a pain in the proverbial and a drama queen. Also? I do not reward that bullshit. Tying me up on the phone for an hour (seriously, an hour. WTF?) does not mean I will deal with you any sooner than I would if you had not called at all. If anything it's added time until I will deal with your sorry arse and the stupid pathetic mess you've made of your attempt to milk every last penny from this assignment.
This explains about 80% of the tabs, by the by. And archiving brain (also known as collector brain in "keep all the shiny things" mode) will probably fritz out when making records, because whatever brain is running the show, we are all broken in some way.
Home? Yeah, anyone who smokes, or tolerates a smoker needs an escape strategy if I end up ruling the world, because these guys are killing me and I may get past things (I am not a "forgive and forget" sort of person. Moving past things is the best you're going to get) but this? Not One Of Those Things.
Also, because I am easily distracted we have another new fandom that a) I don't know why I'm in but I do know how I got here and b) I have seen exactly 10% of the canon for (admittedly slightly better than the previous -and still rabidly active - fandom where I had seen exactly none of the canon and absolutely no idea how I got into it. I have now seen most of the canon for this, but I still have no idea how I got into it). And the ongoing fight to keep the menagerie under control continues, with a whole new set of characters to say no to. "But some of them can fly and that would be cool in the next War." Which is a good point, but, no, no new muses. "We're so getting the flying ones aren't we?" I hate love hate you all, and that is clearly a specious argument. Most of them don't fly, but they will come too. It's way it works. "You noticed." Pattern recognition, it is a thing that I do.
(Muse Wars happen around here. Frequently. It's a thing. There are a lot of them, they tend heavily towards being overly armed, more than a bit sociopathic and/or not equipped to deal with boredom, and they have not met a shiny thing they haven't liked... and attempted to weaponise. Case in point - I have a Legolas muse. No, I don't know why, he turned up and Glorfindel didn't. I have hopes that this will change at some point. Legolas, as it turns out, in my internal world as filtered through muses, is a serial killer. I have a story arc and everything. And that would count as fairly normal in my headcanon. I have all of the Horsemen as well. I have written Kronos resfic (which incidentally involved 'killing' off the younger MacLeod... it was necessary for the plot. That's my excuse and I am sticking with it)... but hey, back to the Wars. There are sides and sometimes negotiated parameters (mostly because if you don't know what the rules are how can you know you've broken them? They are crazy, not stupid), it goes on for a while, and usually devolves into Behemoth or Herself talking for extended periods. Really, it's like sending the kids to playgroup so you can run errands and get stuff done.) Whatever works, right? Right.
And that means a lot of Saint Saens and AFI in rotation in the near future. Herself is... focused. Behemoth is not particularly musical.
Nothing of particular note otherwise, apart from my hair which has achieved Black Widow red (with outside assistance. It can go red just because it wants to, but not this red), which was not entirely the plan. I like it, but I usually do - all the colours and I always go for the brightest red there is.
And in theory I ought to be out of hyper-manic mode (migraine aura effect) in about 10 minutes. What, you think I babble like this at nearly 4am for fun?
'Normal' brain is nuts too. All the brains are nuts. It works best that way. A lone sane aspect is a sad, sad thing. That way lies depression (and anxiety attacks... I only wish I was kidding *sigh*), amongst other things. So, yes, all nuts.
Since I'm here? Work - oh my gods, the crazy people. People being three-year-olds chucking a 'you won't give me my toy' tantrum, and other people doing very polite 'what the fuck are you on, bitch?' faces in emails (fortunately at the 3yo, not me. Or this would be a very different post, given the people involved). Other people phoning me all the damn time because they are too useless to understand I mean it when I say 'you are in a queue. I will deal with you (and your total stupidity) when your number comes up'. And yes, stupid person, multiple phone calls and emails in one day is attention seeking and you are indeed a pain in the proverbial and a drama queen. Also? I do not reward that bullshit. Tying me up on the phone for an hour (seriously, an hour. WTF?) does not mean I will deal with you any sooner than I would if you had not called at all. If anything it's added time until I will deal with your sorry arse and the stupid pathetic mess you've made of your attempt to milk every last penny from this assignment.
This explains about 80% of the tabs, by the by. And archiving brain (also known as collector brain in "keep all the shiny things" mode) will probably fritz out when making records, because whatever brain is running the show, we are all broken in some way.
Home? Yeah, anyone who smokes, or tolerates a smoker needs an escape strategy if I end up ruling the world, because these guys are killing me and I may get past things (I am not a "forgive and forget" sort of person. Moving past things is the best you're going to get) but this? Not One Of Those Things.
Also, because I am easily distracted we have another new fandom that a) I don't know why I'm in but I do know how I got here and b) I have seen exactly 10% of the canon for (admittedly slightly better than the previous -and still rabidly active - fandom where I had seen exactly none of the canon and absolutely no idea how I got into it. I have now seen most of the canon for this, but I still have no idea how I got into it). And the ongoing fight to keep the menagerie under control continues, with a whole new set of characters to say no to. "But some of them can fly and that would be cool in the next War." Which is a good point, but, no, no new muses. "We're so getting the flying ones aren't we?" I hate love hate you all, and that is clearly a specious argument. Most of them don't fly, but they will come too. It's way it works. "You noticed." Pattern recognition, it is a thing that I do.
(Muse Wars happen around here. Frequently. It's a thing. There are a lot of them, they tend heavily towards being overly armed, more than a bit sociopathic and/or not equipped to deal with boredom, and they have not met a shiny thing they haven't liked... and attempted to weaponise. Case in point - I have a Legolas muse. No, I don't know why, he turned up and Glorfindel didn't. I have hopes that this will change at some point. Legolas, as it turns out, in my internal world as filtered through muses, is a serial killer. I have a story arc and everything. And that would count as fairly normal in my headcanon. I have all of the Horsemen as well. I have written Kronos resfic (which incidentally involved 'killing' off the younger MacLeod... it was necessary for the plot. That's my excuse and I am sticking with it)... but hey, back to the Wars. There are sides and sometimes negotiated parameters (mostly because if you don't know what the rules are how can you know you've broken them? They are crazy, not stupid), it goes on for a while, and usually devolves into Behemoth or Herself talking for extended periods. Really, it's like sending the kids to playgroup so you can run errands and get stuff done.) Whatever works, right? Right.
And that means a lot of Saint Saens and AFI in rotation in the near future. Herself is... focused. Behemoth is not particularly musical.
Nothing of particular note otherwise, apart from my hair which has achieved Black Widow red (with outside assistance. It can go red just because it wants to, but not this red), which was not entirely the plan. I like it, but I usually do - all the colours and I always go for the brightest red there is.
And in theory I ought to be out of hyper-manic mode (migraine aura effect) in about 10 minutes. What, you think I babble like this at nearly 4am for fun?