As this journal nears its end
10 day meme gogo
Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)
Day Seven: Four turn offs.
Day Eight: Three turn ons.
Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.
Day Ten: One confession
Day one:
I met you for all of three days dude, but you seriously made my trip the best I've ever had! I miss you, I see you online all the time, and yet I don't have the courage to send a message out, cuz I'm a bitch =( I still have a crush on you even after all these years. Oh, and you made the most adorable purry noises while being scritched(lol term I haven't used in forever) btw <3
I'm sorry. Truly, truly sorry for being a stupid little kid. You were my idol as far as ab stuff goes and I wanted to meet you so badly. Combine that with being 19, arrogant, and having a 'fuck-it' attitude towards life, and it was a recipe for disaster. I kind of hated you when you left that voicemail telling me how stupid I was being, but now that I'm older and realize how stupid I really was being, I've gotta say thanks dude. I'd still like to talk to you and maybe meet up eventually(on better terms, I promise XD), but considering our past I'd understand if you're not up for that.
To a puppy: You didn't deserve the way I treated you, seriously. Especially when you were kind enough to throw me some cash to be able to get home from a con. I barely even talked to you too and I've always felt guilty over it =/ You were always upbeat and kind and I took advantage of that. For that, I apologize. Your taste in music was always the shit, by the way.
I wish we could still be friends. I know you've tried to make us work a thousand times since I moved away from the group, but it isn't in the cards. You've given up on me, and that's probably for the best. I won't say that I don't miss you, along with everyone else from the old days. I do, always will. But when you pulled that myspace shit, I can't describe the amount of respect you lost in my eyes. I'm an open person and I couldn't care less about what people think of what I do for fun, but airing it out in the open, for virtually everyone we know mutually to see? That's fucked up on 5,000 different levels. And the fact that you thought it was a justified act simply because I wasn't hanging out or talking much with you guys made it even more fucked up. I'll always hold a love for you, we shared too much growing up for that to change, but I doubt we'll ever be friends again. Congrats on the kid, I'm sure you'll be/are a great mother.
I don't think you understand how much you fucked my head up. Or rather, how much the situation did. I loved you so god damn much and it tore me apart to break up with you. We were a pretty fucking destructive pair though, heh. I'm really happy to hear you're doing so well! Maybe even a little jealous =p Sounds like your boyfriend is a good guy, and probably a good deal more normal than me, so it's nice to see you moving up the ladder haha.
I love you. A lot. Really, I do! I just don't know how to classify it. You've become an immensely close friend to me and someone I feel I can trust with pretty much anything. That's no small feat, considering I barely even tell my other friends about my personal life! You're amazing and I'll continue to tell you that every chance I get <3333 I'm sorry I'm so bad at the switch-up, but I'm trying to get better at it! Oh, and I never did get that story you were going to write ;)
You're a good guy. Sometimes I feel like I'm taking advantage of you a little, but I'm starting to come to the realization that you get as much as I do out of our friendship, if not more XD You've never let me down, you've been there for me when I've needed it, and we always somehow manage to have some fun! I wish I could talk to you more =(
To my best friend from the old group: We need to hang out together and have a few beers sometime dude. There's a lot of things I'd rather talk about in person instead of you reading it online(on the off-chance you ever read this lol). I'll say this though: If a gate to some sort of fantasy dimension opened up, I wouldn't want anyone besides you by my side XD I'll always consider you a brother.
I know I've posted this before, but I can't reiterate it enough. Thank-you for chilling with me at further confusion all those years back. I'm sorry I was so shy about certain things, really =( And I'm super super sorry I got so fucked up that night. Thanks for leaving me by the elevator(no sarcasm srs), moving would have been bad, as would have security XD I hope to see you again sometime now that I'm not so silly and blushy, not to mention not so obsessed with an absence of sobriety.
Dude, I love you. Not in that way(not anymore at least XD), but as a friend. You and I helped each other so fucking much after having our hearts broken! I'm still more open with you than anyone else I know irl and I'm proud to call you a friend. I'm sorry that I'm on the track to quitting herb right when you're enjoying it the most, but I feel socially deficient when I'm baked around you. Or anyone for that matter. I don't want you to be smoking alone, buddy, but it's just not me anymore =( Also, you could've been better than me at itg, you just let it get to your head lol. You're already on par or better than me at smash too, even though it seems like you don't want to admit it ;)
Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)
Day Seven: Four turn offs.
Day Eight: Three turn ons.
Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.
Day Ten: One confession
Day one:
I met you for all of three days dude, but you seriously made my trip the best I've ever had! I miss you, I see you online all the time, and yet I don't have the courage to send a message out, cuz I'm a bitch =( I still have a crush on you even after all these years. Oh, and you made the most adorable purry noises while being scritched(lol term I haven't used in forever) btw <3
I'm sorry. Truly, truly sorry for being a stupid little kid. You were my idol as far as ab stuff goes and I wanted to meet you so badly. Combine that with being 19, arrogant, and having a 'fuck-it' attitude towards life, and it was a recipe for disaster. I kind of hated you when you left that voicemail telling me how stupid I was being, but now that I'm older and realize how stupid I really was being, I've gotta say thanks dude. I'd still like to talk to you and maybe meet up eventually(on better terms, I promise XD), but considering our past I'd understand if you're not up for that.
To a puppy: You didn't deserve the way I treated you, seriously. Especially when you were kind enough to throw me some cash to be able to get home from a con. I barely even talked to you too and I've always felt guilty over it =/ You were always upbeat and kind and I took advantage of that. For that, I apologize. Your taste in music was always the shit, by the way.
I wish we could still be friends. I know you've tried to make us work a thousand times since I moved away from the group, but it isn't in the cards. You've given up on me, and that's probably for the best. I won't say that I don't miss you, along with everyone else from the old days. I do, always will. But when you pulled that myspace shit, I can't describe the amount of respect you lost in my eyes. I'm an open person and I couldn't care less about what people think of what I do for fun, but airing it out in the open, for virtually everyone we know mutually to see? That's fucked up on 5,000 different levels. And the fact that you thought it was a justified act simply because I wasn't hanging out or talking much with you guys made it even more fucked up. I'll always hold a love for you, we shared too much growing up for that to change, but I doubt we'll ever be friends again. Congrats on the kid, I'm sure you'll be/are a great mother.
I don't think you understand how much you fucked my head up. Or rather, how much the situation did. I loved you so god damn much and it tore me apart to break up with you. We were a pretty fucking destructive pair though, heh. I'm really happy to hear you're doing so well! Maybe even a little jealous =p Sounds like your boyfriend is a good guy, and probably a good deal more normal than me, so it's nice to see you moving up the ladder haha.
I love you. A lot. Really, I do! I just don't know how to classify it. You've become an immensely close friend to me and someone I feel I can trust with pretty much anything. That's no small feat, considering I barely even tell my other friends about my personal life! You're amazing and I'll continue to tell you that every chance I get <3333 I'm sorry I'm so bad at the switch-up, but I'm trying to get better at it! Oh, and I never did get that story you were going to write ;)
You're a good guy. Sometimes I feel like I'm taking advantage of you a little, but I'm starting to come to the realization that you get as much as I do out of our friendship, if not more XD You've never let me down, you've been there for me when I've needed it, and we always somehow manage to have some fun! I wish I could talk to you more =(
To my best friend from the old group: We need to hang out together and have a few beers sometime dude. There's a lot of things I'd rather talk about in person instead of you reading it online(on the off-chance you ever read this lol). I'll say this though: If a gate to some sort of fantasy dimension opened up, I wouldn't want anyone besides you by my side XD I'll always consider you a brother.
I know I've posted this before, but I can't reiterate it enough. Thank-you for chilling with me at further confusion all those years back. I'm sorry I was so shy about certain things, really =( And I'm super super sorry I got so fucked up that night. Thanks for leaving me by the elevator(no sarcasm srs), moving would have been bad, as would have security XD I hope to see you again sometime now that I'm not so silly and blushy, not to mention not so obsessed with an absence of sobriety.
Dude, I love you. Not in that way(not anymore at least XD), but as a friend. You and I helped each other so fucking much after having our hearts broken! I'm still more open with you than anyone else I know irl and I'm proud to call you a friend. I'm sorry that I'm on the track to quitting herb right when you're enjoying it the most, but I feel socially deficient when I'm baked around you. Or anyone for that matter. I don't want you to be smoking alone, buddy, but it's just not me anymore =( Also, you could've been better than me at itg, you just let it get to your head lol. You're already on par or better than me at smash too, even though it seems like you don't want to admit it ;)