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I guess I decided that since I haven't written anything that wasn't a class requirement or a tour description in a very long time...I'd do it now. =)
So tomorrow is the 4th of July. haha. There's an interesting memory... seriously.
Anywho, only 5 days til I've officially been out of the ville for 2 years...and 9 days for the US in general. Let's whip out our American flags made in China shall we? haha.
You know the other day I was talking to my boss (he's Scottish and Chilean but lived most of his life in the US...He's hilarious) and I just asked him how he was. And he answered but then he just kinda started ranting about how he was so ready to leave Chile...he just didn't feel happy anymore. And then he started going on and on about things...and all the time I was just thinking..."I knew I couldn't be the ONLY one!" So many things coincide haha. Mostly its the people. We miss the culture...the personalities..the fun really. "I'm a free spirit" he says..."they're stunting my personal growth" I say. He looks at me and says..."You're in a room with these people and you have a fire in your eyes that they don't. You're a good kid. Get out of here as soon as you can"
THAT was interesting. I'm glad he said it. It just means I'm not crazy to think that this whole time I've been feeling like I shouldn't be here is not just because I never wanted to come to begin with. I'm destined for greater things. I can feel it. I'm destined to be happy. I had a bomb ass personality and I'm not about to let this shit society take it away.
So yea. With all of that (or not necessarily BECAUSE of it) I thought of lots of things the next few days. And I came to the conclusion that I really miss pretending. Like, I wasn't a great actor and I didn't go for much stage time...but damn did I love performing. Even if it was just pretending to be someone else for a few minutes in class or just messing around with friends. And I miss doing all those stupid ass random things I would do with my friends. Soo many stupid moments. I have some with my sister sometimes...but everyone else just kinda gets embarrassed. I put on a hand puppet show from behind this little counter thing at Blockbuster not too long ago while my sister and friend were in line, and my sister was cracking up while Cris kinda looked around to see how other people were reacting. haha...i dont care. I had fun. And I sing out loud and dance at random moments in school and my friends laugh and look like they want to too but they don't because idk...people have issues. And then other people look at me weird and I want to tell them to take the stick out from inside their ass and just live a little. They know they have a song stuck in their head. They don't call me "la gringa loca" for nothin. I guess it's true, but I have more fun than other people. So whatev.
Saturday is the international free hug day. I was like...Imma go who wants to come? And one friend said she would. Gosh, if they don't do random stuff like that by themselves why not just do it while there are other people doing it too? It's like a perfect excuse to do something different than what you normally do. Anyway, Cami's not going anymore. Imma go anyway.
I should go to bed..even though I was actually gonna write something else when i started writing this...maybe I'll write it some other time. maybe. if i remember...when i have time. crazy week coming up. I'm kicking ass in school...and work...it's working out. Got paid more than i thought i would. I'm excited...I'm saving money for San Diego. Dear Lord that's all I want!
Chau!
So tomorrow is the 4th of July. haha. There's an interesting memory... seriously.
Anywho, only 5 days til I've officially been out of the ville for 2 years...and 9 days for the US in general. Let's whip out our American flags made in China shall we? haha.
You know the other day I was talking to my boss (he's Scottish and Chilean but lived most of his life in the US...He's hilarious) and I just asked him how he was. And he answered but then he just kinda started ranting about how he was so ready to leave Chile...he just didn't feel happy anymore. And then he started going on and on about things...and all the time I was just thinking..."I knew I couldn't be the ONLY one!" So many things coincide haha. Mostly its the people. We miss the culture...the personalities..the fun really. "I'm a free spirit" he says..."they're stunting my personal growth" I say. He looks at me and says..."You're in a room with these people and you have a fire in your eyes that they don't. You're a good kid. Get out of here as soon as you can"
THAT was interesting. I'm glad he said it. It just means I'm not crazy to think that this whole time I've been feeling like I shouldn't be here is not just because I never wanted to come to begin with. I'm destined for greater things. I can feel it. I'm destined to be happy. I had a bomb ass personality and I'm not about to let this shit society take it away.
So yea. With all of that (or not necessarily BECAUSE of it) I thought of lots of things the next few days. And I came to the conclusion that I really miss pretending. Like, I wasn't a great actor and I didn't go for much stage time...but damn did I love performing. Even if it was just pretending to be someone else for a few minutes in class or just messing around with friends. And I miss doing all those stupid ass random things I would do with my friends. Soo many stupid moments. I have some with my sister sometimes...but everyone else just kinda gets embarrassed. I put on a hand puppet show from behind this little counter thing at Blockbuster not too long ago while my sister and friend were in line, and my sister was cracking up while Cris kinda looked around to see how other people were reacting. haha...i dont care. I had fun. And I sing out loud and dance at random moments in school and my friends laugh and look like they want to too but they don't because idk...people have issues. And then other people look at me weird and I want to tell them to take the stick out from inside their ass and just live a little. They know they have a song stuck in their head. They don't call me "la gringa loca" for nothin. I guess it's true, but I have more fun than other people. So whatev.
Saturday is the international free hug day. I was like...Imma go who wants to come? And one friend said she would. Gosh, if they don't do random stuff like that by themselves why not just do it while there are other people doing it too? It's like a perfect excuse to do something different than what you normally do. Anyway, Cami's not going anymore. Imma go anyway.
I should go to bed..even though I was actually gonna write something else when i started writing this...maybe I'll write it some other time. maybe. if i remember...when i have time. crazy week coming up. I'm kicking ass in school...and work...it's working out. Got paid more than i thought i would. I'm excited...I'm saving money for San Diego. Dear Lord that's all I want!
Chau!