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I cant believe its already been a month since everything happened, it still feels like yesterday. Well I got my new phone, which I was really only excited about because I wanted to show Gregory, and I had to put his number in it. As I scroll through the contact list I find myself wanting to call him every time, I have so much to tell him. I cant help but to place myself on that day when I last spoke to him, a seemingly silly ordinary conversation. I hate that my last words were "Ill talk to you in a little bit" It makes me angry that we didnt get lunch that day, Im mad because at least I would have gotten to see him one last time. I didnt realize how much he affected my life, from what I wear to who Im friends with, Greg had a part in it and I cant help but think of him all the time. Some people have said I should have dealt with all this already but what does that mean? Im not insane I just miss him. Well personally I know Im doing better because Im able to write about it and Ill probably be writing often. Its still hard to use past-tense, I love you Gregory.