Apr 12, 2004 21:21
i just found out Evan is in the hospital. He took too much acid today. I hope he pulls thru this hes a great kid and hes one of the best friends Ive made since I got to new york.
i'm worried about him, but im more worried about my premonition yesterday. I wrote a song about escape and drugs. I tried to keep the song unbiased, but his name kept writing itself into the lyrics.
It makes me wonder if this is why str8 edge kids dont make friends with kids who use drugs. Not because of peer pressure or because kids who do drugs are bad, but because they cant deal with the loss that is such a high risk with us. i knew full on well when I met Evan that i might have to go thru this, but it doesnt mean i wanted to.
Evan has such an explosive engery Ive only seen in one other kid at Union, such an indigo fire that could change the world. He's got the strength, but its his will that worries me.
Mini RJ is in lockup cause he stole aftershock and got alchohol poisoning. He's got the same intense energy as Evan. what the hell is going on???
i love you Evan, we all do. You too, RJ.
Evan, I know you don't believe in or trust love, and you deny what love does exist in you, but you have friends who care, and we're not going to give up on you.
Be strong, and hang on.
Hang on to the scream of the night
Youve got to hang on, you're too young to die.
Hang on when there's no turning back
hang on when you feel youre ready to pack.
You are here to change the world,
accept your powers, you're not alone.
Sleep tonight child, tomorow come home.