accomplish something damn it
well,I started looking for a job yesterday.Im being picky this time around because I deserve it.Ive had enough crappy jobs.I dont want to wear a uniform anymore.Im hoping to work at ragstock,I think my application is evrything but impressive though.well Ill just have to dazzle them with my wit...or somthin.I think my mom is gonna be stupid about this divorce thing.I wish she wasnt financially dependent.I feel like shes is still setting an example for me and what kind of woman douse she want me to be?oh well.hey lara,do want to move away?I wish.how about portland?maybe in 5 years right?thats what Im thinking.Im hoping to move back out once I get this stupid job thing going.it should be alot easier my want for consumerism has been dying pretty rapidly.so If I just do things smart Im sure Ill survive.I think this journal should make it easy to keep in touch with lara and also give me something stupid to do on the computer in all my free time.I cant wait til I live somewhere without a computer,Ill be so much more productive.