Regrets?
Personally, I don't believe in regrets. They are in the past and we can't change the past. And I also think that things that people would regret are about things that we had a say in. It was our choice to choose the path that we did and for that, it is only our fault. Why regret something if you chose your own path? It's not to say that all of our decisions are good ones. But I think that the biggest things we would regret are from our biggest decisions. And for these decisions, we would normally weigh out each side, yeah? And as I sit here now, I think back and try to decide whether I did make the right choices. And I would say yes. Of course there are things that I would like to change; however, all of the decisions that I have made has sculpted who I am today? Don't believe me? Think about a decision. You never know what would happen if you decide one way or another. You don't know what the other path would lead to. That small, minute change could lead to a world of infinite possibilities or not. But you will never know. And if you do pick that path of infinite possibilities, you don't even see all the possibilities that lay right in front of you. You don't know if that one decision lead you to the path you are on now. All you know is where you are at this exact moment in your life. That doesn't mean you exactly know WHO you are, but you know WHERE you are. I feel like no one can fully know themselves. I think that other people know you better than you know yourself. For YOU, you have a picture in your mind of maybe who you want to be or how you want to act; but sometimes, those pictures aren't conveyed in the way you want it to be. But for others, they see the real deal. They see what is actually going on. No matter the person you want to be, what they see is the person that you actually are. Now you make think that that is totally wrong. You could say no way...what about so and so...that person is so unpredictable. But in that, you know that that person won't do what you think they'll do and thus, you are predicting something about them. You are predicting what they aren't gonna do rather than what they will do. Isn't that the same? Either way, from an outsider's point of view, that is all you see, a point of view from the outside. You can't get into people's heads and choose for them, you just see what is there in front of you.
Now going back to the whole 'each decision you make forms who you are'. I have always wondered about those people who are complete jackasses. What could have happened in their life to make them the way they are? What decisions have formed their being into a bitch? Is it because they live a life full of regret? Or is it that they are mad at others for the life that they want? Or maybe it's just a bad day for them...but come on, no one has so many bad days where you always come off a complete bitch? (It's like saying, so you're telling me that this is the 20th time I've seen you and each day has been a bad one for you...nothing good has come out of your life between those days where you could be happy? I disagree with that. Bad things do happen yes, but we still need to be 'chin-up' and walk forward).
As I sit here thinking about all of this, I think about things that I would change. I don't regret my decisions that I've made (I've made that pretty clear...) but maybe something that I would've done differently? I think I may have been more active during my college career. I think that I did so much in high school that it just burned me out. I think I was afraid of doing the same thing only college is so much harder than high school, I would fall behind. But then again, if I spent all my time in clubs and organizations or volunteering, I wouldn't have gotten to know the people I know so well. I mean, yes those clubs or whatever allow you to network but do you really know those people? I would rather have 5 close friends than 100 distant acquaintances. But then again, that's just me. I see many other people who are involved with those things and have close friends; however, what is sacrificed in their lives? School? I most certainly hope not. We pay so much money to be in school right now that I think it should be our number one priority. We live in Davis for a reason: school. We cannot squander all of that away. This is not to say that we shouldn't have fun because we should. If we don't, we'll go crazy.
Yesterday was Valentine's Day. Bummer to the max. I think that I either need to find a girlfriend or get some more single friends. Because today, I sat in Starbucks studying Eukaryotic Genetics while everyone else was out. I mean, I did go see a movie with friends later that night but it's not the same. Valentine's Day is meant to be spent with someone else, a significant other. No matter if you're gay, straight or bi or whatever else there is, it's a day where romance is in the air. But for me, it was IN YO FACE! HAHA! YOU'RE SINGLE! day. Sometimes I think it would be easier if it were like Japan: where the girls give guys chocolate. But then the girl would be in the same position. And what if the guy doesn't get any chocolates, is that worse? But at least I got some studying done?
Now going back to the whole 'each decision you make forms who you are'. I have always wondered about those people who are complete jackasses. What could have happened in their life to make them the way they are? What decisions have formed their being into a bitch? Is it because they live a life full of regret? Or is it that they are mad at others for the life that they want? Or maybe it's just a bad day for them...but come on, no one has so many bad days where you always come off a complete bitch? (It's like saying, so you're telling me that this is the 20th time I've seen you and each day has been a bad one for you...nothing good has come out of your life between those days where you could be happy? I disagree with that. Bad things do happen yes, but we still need to be 'chin-up' and walk forward).
As I sit here thinking about all of this, I think about things that I would change. I don't regret my decisions that I've made (I've made that pretty clear...) but maybe something that I would've done differently? I think I may have been more active during my college career. I think that I did so much in high school that it just burned me out. I think I was afraid of doing the same thing only college is so much harder than high school, I would fall behind. But then again, if I spent all my time in clubs and organizations or volunteering, I wouldn't have gotten to know the people I know so well. I mean, yes those clubs or whatever allow you to network but do you really know those people? I would rather have 5 close friends than 100 distant acquaintances. But then again, that's just me. I see many other people who are involved with those things and have close friends; however, what is sacrificed in their lives? School? I most certainly hope not. We pay so much money to be in school right now that I think it should be our number one priority. We live in Davis for a reason: school. We cannot squander all of that away. This is not to say that we shouldn't have fun because we should. If we don't, we'll go crazy.
Yesterday was Valentine's Day. Bummer to the max. I think that I either need to find a girlfriend or get some more single friends. Because today, I sat in Starbucks studying Eukaryotic Genetics while everyone else was out. I mean, I did go see a movie with friends later that night but it's not the same. Valentine's Day is meant to be spent with someone else, a significant other. No matter if you're gay, straight or bi or whatever else there is, it's a day where romance is in the air. But for me, it was IN YO FACE! HAHA! YOU'RE SINGLE! day. Sometimes I think it would be easier if it were like Japan: where the girls give guys chocolate. But then the girl would be in the same position. And what if the guy doesn't get any chocolates, is that worse? But at least I got some studying done?