lifespan

[cakewoman]

i have lost perception of time

i am missing school, but it does not feel like a day to regret.

i went to yoga last night and disturbed the atmosphere by sneezing or cursing

and we were upside down and there were unpleasant things running down my face

and i wondered if i could fall on my head and make it look accidental.

Does it hurt anymore, Mr. Vader? Can you listen to yourself breathe without wanting to die?

i make trays of orange juice popsicles and eat them in bed

i want to turn the television on

but my hands will not move.